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HOCD
anyone who has recovered from this theme, how did they do it because i’m really struggling, does medication help?
anyone who has recovered from this theme, how did they do it because i’m really struggling, does medication help?
I went through ERP and learned to not care about the thoughts. Also, my brother is gay and my mom’s cool with it, so if it just-so-happened I was gay, wouldn’t change a thing. I had to accept the uncertainty of 100% knowing for sure and caring to control everything. I haven’t had the theme since I was a teen.
@Nica so you didn’t become the sexuality you feared, yeah none of my family care about sexuality because my mums bi sexual and my dad has said no matter what i’ll always still be his boy, it’s just scary because i’ve never doubted myself before all this and i was girl crazy.
It can, yes. It won’t go away completely with medication, it just helps with reducing the anxiety and stress. ERP is what will really help you recover from OCD though.
@blazed my therapist is looking more into CBT, do u think this is a good option as well?
@blazed Yup, I did erp, it hasn’t left. I have had a few days of no ocd and it’s awesome but alas it always comes back . I still feel distress but it as much as before
@68273 how long have you been suffering for?
@haydensmith Unfortunately no bc CBT is more focused on analyzing the thoughts/emotions and using logic to figure them out. This doesn’t work bc OCD is not rational and there’s always going to be another “what if”. Staying uncertain and learning how to tolerate the discomfort is how you’ll get out of the OCD cycle - which is what ERP teaches you.
@68273 Me too 🥲 some days are worse than others but I’ve gotten a lot better.
@blazed are you more confident in your sexuality now or know what your sexuality is?
@haydensmith I’ve had 13years of ocd
@haydensmith I’m not, but I chose not to label myself and just date my preferred gender.
@blazed sometimes you have to live with uncertainty for a while to become more certain in the future.
I’ve got it and I don’t know who I’m anymore I’m soo scared
@Anonymous same
@Anonymous how long u had it for
@haydensmith Since September but I have had ocd episodes before since Covid
can someone with this theme help me i’m so scared and i can’t stop having panic attacks is this OCD??? So i always have struggled most with sucicidal ocd and harm ocd. i never really had any other themes. but recently ive struggled with SOOCD. My whole life i have never EVER been into girls ever and i could never even think of ever being with a girl in my entire life. i’m having extreme amounts of anxiety and i have compulsions to make sure i look at a girl and don’t feel anything towards them or anything. My mind is literally going “what if your just in denial” or “what if you’ve just been hiding it all these years” When i know i haven’t. i have all of the symptoms of SOOCD and i still know that im not gay,but these thoughts are extremely distressing and have been the worse to deal with. I’m constantly panicking and doing compulsions to get these thoughts to leave and they won’t. i’m scared and these thoughts are making my mind scared. What if i’m going against my morals and i’m lying to myself like and i just went through a tough breakup too so that is shooting these thoughts and anxiety. Please help omg!!!
So for a while i have been suffering of HOCD combined with a little of ROCD and had massive episodes of anxiety and panic attacks, because of that I lost my attraction and my libido while also being in a relationship and that stresses me bad. Also since the start of the severe anxiety I started to lose it gradually over time and at the moment I do not feel any anxiety anymore while having these thoughts which makes me think that I want this to happen because they don’t disgust me anymore. Any advices on how to hold on and get over my OCD? Also is the disappearing of disgust a sign of recovery or denial?
I’ll cut a long story short… SOCD/ HOCD was one of the first themes I got when I was a teenager. The first one was health but I didn’t know that was OCD at the time. Anyway, I have had SOCD for 11 years. Sometimes it leaves me alone and it feels like I’m my own self again! Don’t get me wrong it lingers but I manage. But… IT IS BACK!!! My head is telling me that I am a lesbian and that I need to just admit it. I hate it. I have a boyfriend who I love unconditionally and this has just sprung out of a dream I had -.- I don’t want to be a lesbian! The groinal responses have always been the worst. It started when I was around 16, I woke up one morning and my brain just said ‘you’re a lesbian’, as you can imagine I freaked out, panic attack and cried. Then, my brain starts looking into my childhood… well it’s had a field day. When I was around 9 my friend showed me girls kissing on YouTube and then I suppose I got addicted to it. I then used to play on Habbo and walk up to girls and say ‘kisses’ etc. my brain is now saying that this is evidence that I’m gay. I DONT WANT TO BE A LESBIAN!!! I have no issues with gay people, I just don’t want to be gay myself. Sometimes, when the thoughts come in I don’t seem to get anxious but I get groinals and that freaks me out! I just want peace. I hate this. I get so many different themes. Now it’s this one and I just want to crawl under my duvet, sleep until they’re gone but then I end up dreaming about it!!!
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