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Reminds me of ADHD/OCD. I am suppose to have both and still get confused with what overlaps. I was told it would be difficult to parse of the differences. I can tell you that if it had happened to me that my whole day and beyond would be obsessing over the person being mean to me. I would question everything and beat myself up daily. We are all just human though. Full of flaws and nothing goes the way we want in life and for some it’s a much bigger struggle just to keep head above water if that so pat yourself on the back you didn’t actually kill him. It’s a common statement people make in situations like that to be honest. It’s not meant to be taken literally but your OCD is going to latch onto it. I am always careful about trying to cheer people up or give any advice because I know that’s it’s all easier said than done. Just take good care of yourself during this time. Know it will eventually pass until the next thing your OCD will latch onto. I wish you the best!

well ask yourself, are you an unreliable worker? you clearly stated that you weren’t. so don’t let his comment engrave a new belief in your head. just because he said it, doesn’t mean that it’s true. if you look at it through his lens, it seemed like you were because you ignored the emails and didn’t finish the paperwork. but you know the reason for this and he doesn’t. you didn’t read the entire email and that’s ok. we all make mistakes. and maybe the job just wasn’t meant to be and knowing the their companies support like representative acted like that towards you, i can’t imagine how the workers and mangers and bosses act then too. he represented the company for you in a way that showed who they were. and in my opinion, i wouldn’t work somewhere that can’t even get their support team to act professional.