Is this normal?

For my job I had to get hired and apply to this company to get paid and I started the paperwork and thought I was doing it right but then I got busy and kind of forgot about it and they sent me so many emails that I would dismiss because I figured they were just reminding me to finish the rest but I didn’t read far enough where it said I had to get it done within 2-7 days so then my account got deactivated and I had to call their support line and the man was so mean to me and told me I was an unreliable worker even though I’ve been working this whole time and I’m always the first one to cover a shift when needed and even go to work when I’m sick and it just made me so upset. I know I was in the wrong but I have never seen someone be so rude to a person they do not even know. I’m an absolute mess. I was so mad that this led me to say something I didn’t mean which were along the lines of “I want to kill that guy I’m so mad” which obviously I didn’t mean at all, I was just really upset but now I think my ocd is latching to that statement bc I feel so guilty and I feel so bad for even saying it out loud. Is this normal? Was this ocd? I’m just so confused and depressed at this point. I feel like everything in my life right now is just spiraling emotion wise.

Username: Chickens_FrogsChickens_Frogs

Date posted: 42w ago

Reminds me of ADHD/OCD. I am suppose to have both and still get confused with what overlaps. I was told it would be difficult to parse of the differences. I can tell you that if it had happened to me that my whole day and beyond would be obsessing over the person being mean to me. I would question everything and beat myself up daily. We are all just human though. Full of flaws and nothing goes the way we want in life and for some it’s a much bigger struggle just to keep head above water if that so pat yourself on the back you didn’t actually kill him. It’s a common statement people make in situations like that to be honest. It’s not meant to be taken literally but your OCD is going to latch onto it. I am always careful about trying to cheer people up or give any advice because I know that’s it’s all easier said than done. Just take good care of yourself during this time. Know it will eventually pass until the next thing your OCD will latch onto. I wish you the best!

Username: Kenzz Kenzz

Date posted: 42w ago

@Chickens_Frogs Thank you so much!❤️

Username: melissaspahovicmelissaspahovic

Date posted: 42w ago

well ask yourself, are you an unreliable worker? you clearly stated that you weren’t. so don’t let his comment engrave a new belief in your head. just because he said it, doesn’t mean that it’s true. if you look at it through his lens, it seemed like you were because you ignored the emails and didn’t finish the paperwork. but you know the reason for this and he doesn’t. you didn’t read the entire email and that’s ok. we all make mistakes. and maybe the job just wasn’t meant to be and knowing the their companies support like representative acted like that towards you, i can’t imagine how the workers and mangers and bosses act then too. he represented the company for you in a way that showed who they were. and in my opinion, i wouldn’t work somewhere that can’t even get their support team to act professional.

Username: Kenzz Kenzz

Date posted: 42w ago

@melissaspahovic Thank you!

Username: Yasmin

Date posted: 5y ago

Hi everyone! Hope everyone’s doing well. I just wanted to ask a question because I’ve been trying to improve with not letting the intrusive thoughts make me spiral, but something happened the other day that has been making me really upset, and down, but I don’t know if my worry is connected to my OCD or if it’s just general feelings. I just wanted some advice. Basically, I’ve been struggling with POCD and also have struggled with HOCD however the HOCD is not as bad now, however I do still frequently get the intrusive thoughts. Anyway, someone on here told me and several sites that I had been making my OCD worse by avoiding things such as masturbating or porn to avoid the intrusive thoughts in these situations. So the other day, I tried to watch some whilst masturbating, and not stopping if the intrusive thoughts came, and just try and brush them off and not have a guilt spiral. But I watched a video that came up and it was a man working as a masseuse and there were different women coming in and he was massaging them but going close to her down below and then touching her there. And the camera angle was weird, and it looked hidden and I did get a bit worried about it but just carried on. But then I looked at the top of the video and it said sponsored by hidden cameras in massage places. And then I was like omg no what if this video has been uploaded and the women didn’t have consent and they didn’t know they were being filmed and I’ve just watched a man touching them. And I didn’t stop the video, I watched for around 20 more seconds and then turned it off so now I feel so so guilty, and I feel like a terrible person. Is this my OCD ? I’m just so stressed and feel awful, I keep trying to brush the thoughts away but it’s becoming difficult to, and it’s making me feel terrible. Any help ?

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 4y ago

Hi guys, Firstly, before I share what troubles me, I would like to thank you for all your support and kind help. It is very much appreciated! Also, I would like to add that I feel really disgusted with what I'm about to share, and I apologise beforehand if my words will hurt anyone, I really don't mean it. I don't know if this Is OCD but here goes: For the last few days I have felt ignored by my boyfriend (I'm sure he didn't ignore but that's how it felt to me). It made me feel down and weird. I know he loves me but the feelings (of being ignored) were real and quite overwhelming). That's when I started to get thoughts of wanting to punish him for ignoring him. (I know, I have no limits!) The thoughts were not the only thing I experienced. I also got the troubling and worrying feeling of actually wanting to carry out the action (of punishment). In addition, the feeling almost came like a desire. It felt, and still feesl, like it would feel/be nice/satisfying to hurt my boyfriend. To make everything worse, the thoughts and feelings don't seem intrusive at all. I feel absolutely terrible. I saw him today at work (we work at the same place) and he was really sweet and nice to me. And all I wanted was to scream because I felt like an imposter. This is probably even worse than my POCD. I don't know why I'm like this. I'm really sorry. Can anyone help me with this, please? I really feel like I'm becoming a monster because it feels that I like the thoughts and feelings I get, and also because they are not intrusive. I'm really sorry again!

Username: Northern_Dow...

Date posted: 43w ago

Compulsion or apology worthy??

Guys im so embarassed. And OCD makes it so much worse because it's giving me chronic guilt. I was at work and I made a joke about unaliving myself with a friend like really loud and I feel really guilty because it just kinda came out. My friends were laughing but I realize by some ppls reactions that mightve not been appropriate. I wasn't serious but I do make those jokes often with friends (unfortunate habit I've picked up due to my own s*icidality). My guilt is killing me and I have a strong urge to apologize to my coworkers. Should I or is it a compulsion and I should just leave it alone??

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