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- Kygozilox
- Date posted
- 41w ago
Please relate. The “i want to die” thought?
I have the “i want to die thougt” everyday!!! Is this normal with suicidal ocd?? Anyone relate?
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 41w ago
I have suicidal ocd and I definitely relate. *I* don't want to die, I love living, but the bugs in my brain keep telling me that I want to die and it gets really hard to deal with. For me, it gets triggered when I'm being understimulated, as it makes me think about the "forever nothing" that is to come. It scares me so bad that my mind tells me that I should just kill myself so I don't have to be scared anymore, which is obviously not proactive or what I want. It's really scary and, at times, debilitating, but just know that these thoughts aren't *your* thoughts! They're just random thoughts that pop through, nothing more. It's hard, but it gets better, and we'll make it through 💪☺️!
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- Brynnie BearBrynnie Bear
- Date posted
- 41w ago
I feel like that sometimes too. I don’t want to die but I get thoughts of it.
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 41w ago
I think this in a loop all the time but usually in response to my rocd and shame becoming intense
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- Mister1979Mister1979
- Date posted
- 41w ago
I think I had these intrusive thoughts regularly for about 30 years, starting when I was 12. It was occasional for most of that, but got worse when my marriage went south. There was probably about ten years when it was near daily. I was always fortunate, though, in that for the most part I seemed to understand they were intrusive even long before I knew what intrusive thoughts were. I got through it by treating them like they were completely separate from my mind. "Oh, you're still there? Shut up, will you?" " Oh yeah, that's a thing that happens." They still come, rarely, now, and now it's more like I bumped into an old acquaintance is rather not see. It's not you, I promise. But even if they never totally go away, they don't have to get to you; it just takes some work learning to ignore them
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- LoriGarner12LoriGarner12
- Date posted
- 41w ago
hey, i'm really sorry you're going through this. it sounds incredibly tough, and i want you to know you're not alone in feeling this way. many of us here have faced similar struggles and it's okay to seek help. have you heard about "unstuck", an ai-powered therapy tool specifically for ocd (unstuckmyOCD.com)? it's been a game changer for me this past month and could offer you some support too. someone here recommended it to me, and i just wish i had known about it sooner. 🌟
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- PRIV8
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Okay i will be honest cause i had enough of this
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- Aislinndest
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Does this sound like ocd?
I can’t figure out if I’m really suicidal or just obsessing over the thought of it. Im to scared to even do it. I don't know if this is my OCD or what but for the past week or so it's been really bothering me these thoughts that I am on edge, scared. I haven't eaten in 3 days. I have imagined every single way of doing it, and everything and it makes me SICK. It feels like an urge at this point. I start to feel like maybe I could actually do it, then I feel myself about to go into a panic attack. I already feel derealization where this world doesn't feel real and nobody seems real to me, and my family feels like strangers and I'm just really scared. I feel very scared. I don't physically feel like I'm "here." I feel like my mind is lost. I feel like I just want to be at peace and then I think I’m seriously suicidal and the cycle just keeps repeating itself. Im sick to my stomach and terrified.
- Username
- spidermanpew
- Date posted
- 1y ago
Question
Why do I have the urge to off myself when having ocd thoughts? But I dont want to die.
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