Help

You’re not alone- for me it comes in waves. One day or two days will be perfect- then I get stressed out and can’t control the negative barrage of “he’s doing this” “what if he did this” “we don’t mesh” etc.

I can relate. I also have a lot of trauma so I wonder if it’s from that? But I find my mind constantly ruminating over what we are, how comparable we are, if we’ll end up together. I have so much fear wondering what we are & if he’s “the one” I’m also autistic so my brain thinks very black or white & I find that he’s either all good or all bad - no in between. He is the most incredible person I’ve ever met so it’s exhausting feeling this way. Sometimes writing out a pros & cons list helps me.

i dont know if im lucid enough to state this, but my fear comes from the fact that its no longer intermittent for me. always doubt.

so i dont know if its rocd anymire

If they see your flaws and are still with you, what does that say to you?

do someone want to talk on telegram