Wishing can go back to time before ocd

Do you ever get hung up on the fact that at one point in time, you did not have detectable symptoms of ocd? I literally did not have contamination ocd until Covid. I used to lay on the ground with the dog, go out and come back home and lay on the couch in the same clothes, put my phone and keys on ground etc. Now I can’t even walk in my socks in house because it’s going to contaminate the couch when I put my feet up. Now I can’t sit on my couch unless I change my clothes, and now if I even have to touch my phone when my hand is “dirty,” I have to wash my hands, wipe my phone, and wash my hands again. This really sucks. I wish I can go back to a time where I wasn’t like this.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 39w ago

This bothers me frequently, I often think about times when I didn't struggle with these thoughts that I have now and feel sad and depressed because I feel as if life has gotten worse. The truth is that these new struggles I have can become much less of a struggle if I continue to talk to my therapist, participate in ERP and untie the connection of anxiety with my thoughts. It can feel risky because of the intense emotions you might experience but I can assure you might not notice it at first but it feels like a weight is lifted off your shoulders.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 39w ago

@Anonymous I feel like me working in a dirty medical facility doesn’t help at all either. Can’t escape the germs. I see on average 40-50 patients a week (some repeat pts) and they are always cancelling because they are sick with some kind of crazy sickness. I just can’t escape. I always wondered if I wasn’t in a medical field, if I would have less compulsions. But also when I started college, I didn’t have ocd that I know of. At least not as bad as now. I graduated a few months after Covid hit and I would say it started about a year later really bad

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 39w ago

I'm in college now going into my senior year and starting out my OCD was either non existant or very subtle compared to now. It hit me really hard last summer and I have been struggling with it ever sense although I do notice a big difference now where I have improved. It was so debilitating for a while. Your thought pattern of wondering if you were in a different profession would cause less anxiety hits close to me in other aspects I tend to wonder if I hadn't smoked weed would I experience so much anxiety.

Username: Abhi1987Abhi1987

Date posted: 39w ago

Have you guys tried exposure therapy(ERP) or trying to be super engaged throughout the week so that you don't have time to think about contamination ?

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 39w ago

@Abhi1987 My insurance doesn’t cover it so I haven’t but I look for tips on this forum

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 39w ago

@Abhi1987 Also I am very busy throughout the week, but it still stops me in my tracks.

Username: SoftKiwi SoftKiwi

Date posted: 39w ago

It still stops me in my tracks when I am super busy regardless.

Username: cIumsy

Date posted: 5y ago

anyone else had ocd from a very young age? I’m talking like, I remember obsessions from when I was 6. and my family remembers my symptoms from even earlier. I didn’t get help until I was 15 because my family isn’t big on mental health. anyway, it frustrates me that I genuinely don’t know what it’s like to live without ocd. Sometimes I hear/see people talk about how they just wish things could back to how they were ‘before,’ or that imagining what their life was like before onset helps motivate them in recovery. But I don’t have anything like that. in fact, it’s almost scary to think about recovering completely because I don’t know anything else? it depresses me

Username: Ceej

Date posted: 4y ago

Is anyone else starting to regret treatment? I had moderate contamination OCD gr hat I had JUST gotten a handle on, and now because of COVID-19 I feel like the world suddenly expects me to act...exactly the way I was, and I KNOW the difference, but I’ve been guilted out of purell as part of “treatment” and now we actually need it I don’t have any and feel guilt buying it. I’m just really starting to wish I’d never gotten help ?

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Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 4y ago

I’m new to this app and really happy to be within a community of people working through same thing. I have been working through contamination ocd since the start of the pandemic. It’s debilitating mentally. It just wants me to seek certainty in every compulsion and also reassurance and researching online incessantly. Anyone else struggle with this specific ocd? Wiping down doorknobs every time someone touches them. I can’t even sit outside in the grass I’m afraid of the pandemic. I won’t touch my groceries for three days. I miss my old self. I literally feel like a different person since March.

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