- Username
- stargirlll
- Date posted
- 33w ago
feels inevitable
even though i really don’t want to kill anyone, it feels inevitable. like one day i’m going to snap and it’s going to happen. the thought of that keeps me so scared and stuck.
even though i really don’t want to kill anyone, it feels inevitable. like one day i’m going to snap and it’s going to happen. the thought of that keeps me so scared and stuck.
I know how you feel, we don’t have the same harm ocs but that’s literally how you feel too. I’m sorry your feeling this way your not alone in your feelings I hope you find comfort in that because we need that kind of community:(
those thoughts sound so terrifying to deal with. I'm sorry you're going through this. being trapped in OCD's grip is truly one of the worst things there is in life. there is something past this, I promise. i hope life feels easy again for you soon
Sometimes harming feels inevitable for me too but I have to remember that that’s just another trick OCD plays. It’s normal for it to feel very real, scary, like something you want or something you need to do even if you have no desire to do it. Just know that, even tho it’s so hard, every moment you have that feeling or urge you have to pretend you’re not scared. You have to try to stay calm and unaffected. Eventually your brain realizes it’s not what you really want and it won’t make you anxious. ERP treatment is extremely helpful with this as well. Stay strong!
@Kiki10 thank you so much this really helped! stay strong as well :)
Thank you! Keep in mind too that you know in your core that harm is not what YOU really want. It’s what OCD wants you to think you want.
Don’t worry it’s your fears trying to get at you :)
i feel like crying. i keep coming back here but it’s the only place that calms me down. i keep getting thoughts and feelings that i’m going to give into these thoughts today. all i get is images of me harming my family members and i’m panicking so bad. i don’t want to hurt them, and now it’s saying that i actually do want to. it feels inevitable. i feel like a terrible person. i know i don’t want to do these terrible things. i was just fine a few minutes ago but it all just came back like always.
it feels like i actually want to kill people. i know i don’t but it feels like i do. it’s like when i first got this theme i knew it wasn’t real but now i don’t know anymore. i don’t want to kill people, especially my family. i would never do that ever. but the urges and thoughts feel different now. even my reaction feels different. i feel like morals changed, i feel like a monster. i want to cry so bad.
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