stargirlll
- Date posted
- 1y
feels inevitable
even though i really don’t want to kill anyone, it feels inevitable. like one day i’m going to snap and it’s going to happen. the thought of that keeps me so scared and stuck.
ughhhhughhhh
- Date posted
- 1y
I know how you feel, we don’t have the same harm ocs but that’s literally how you feel too. I’m sorry your feeling this way your not alone in your feelings I hope you find comfort in that because we need that kind of community:(
zombyezombye
- Date posted
- 1y
those thoughts sound so terrifying to deal with. I'm sorry you're going through this. being trapped in OCD's grip is truly one of the worst things there is in life. there is something past this, I promise. i hope life feels easy again for you soon
Kiki10Kiki10
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Sometimes harming feels inevitable for me too but I have to remember that that’s just another trick OCD plays. It’s normal for it to feel very real, scary, like something you want or something you need to do even if you have no desire to do it. Just know that, even tho it’s so hard, every moment you have that feeling or urge you have to pretend you’re not scared. You have to try to stay calm and unaffected. Eventually your brain realizes it’s not what you really want and it won’t make you anxious. ERP treatment is extremely helpful with this as well. Stay strong!
stargirlllstargirlll
- Date posted
- 1y
@Kiki10 thank you so much this really helped! stay strong as well :)
Kiki10Kiki10
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
Thank you! Keep in mind too that you know in your core that harm is not what YOU really want. It’s what OCD wants you to think you want.
Ericseal18Ericseal18
- Date posted
- 1y
Don’t worry it’s your fears trying to get at you :)
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