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- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 38w ago
Jealousy
I'm jealous that other people can find a therapist and get better and I cant
I'm jealous that other people can find a therapist and get better and I cant
This is a mood and a half. I have been comparing myself to others' experiences a lot lately. But what I keep reminding myself is that I wouldn't wish this on anyone, so why would I sit here and be like what the heck!? why are more people not this miserable?!" I started listening to a good (free!!) audiobook on audible (I just signed up for a free trial and then you can cancel but keep the book if you downloaded it) that has been helping with this kind of thinking -- "Everyday Mindfulness for OCD" by SHala Nicely and Jon Hershfield
Are you feeling jealous or anxious? I can relate to this. At times, I worry/ruminate that if I don't do the "right" thing I won't be ok. If you have to be certain that you're going to the "right" therapist then this thought could be a trick of OCD. Now I will say that if you're not going to a therapist who's familiar with OCD then it would be helpful to go to someone who is. Also, there are helpful books out there that people have used to learn to live with OCD and have wonderful lives.
I might be anxious since I feel like I'm never going to get better and there's a million road blocks
@Anonymous - I'm sorry you're going through this rough time. It sounds like you're feeling overwhelmed with what feels like too many things to do and learn and grow in. How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time. This journey will involve taking one step at time. I'm not a therapist at all so keep that in mind... Part of this journey is learning to become ok with experiencing uncomfortable things. When we accept anxiety and don't fight it, it looses it's power. We all get discouraged and overwhelmed at times, that's ok, we CAN do it! Anxiety/OCD wants to stay in control but you have the ability to choose, though it wants to trick you into thinking you can't. It wants to discourage you. But you CAN choose to believe you can! There will be steps forward and steps back but it's ok. You ABSOLUTELY CAN and WILL get better.
Just typical isn't it. Finally find a private psychotherapist who I believe Could really help me in this battle to overcome my harm ocd, they even said they are very used to treating this particular type of ocd with success, and I just can't afford it £70 a session I told them I can't afford it they don't offer discounts but were willing to do it for £65, I still can't afford it. Feel so stuck. Suppose I'll just have to continue in my search
I'm currently visiting my third therapist in the last three years and none of them have helped me so far. None of them have given me any type of diagnosis so I'm not even sure if I actually have OCD, and it's driving me mad. The last session I had, I even felt like it made things worse rather that it helped. I wanna feel that trust to my therapist that you should feel to be able to share your emotions but I don't. I feel like its not going anywhere, like it's useless. Lately I've been thinking about finding a therapist here at NOCD, I've even looked up some specific people and they all seem really nice and sweet.
Anyone else get deeply sad and jealous seeing other people thrive life ? Meanwhile we’re here stuck struggling with our ocd and just mental health in general . I’m envious of what some people are able to do that I can’t :( and I don’t mean it in a hateful envious way , but just a more sad kinda way that I wish I could do stuff they can simply like driving . I’m almost 20 and I know most of ykk have probably seen many of my posts about this , but it truly puts me in a difficult state of mind . I didn’t have mental capacity to do things at younger age:( I missed out on a lot . Seeing these 16-17 year old kids achieve things way more efficiently than I did just makes me feel shitty about myself . Everyone having fun on weekend and I’m not . I don’t have many friends either .
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