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- 1y
Jealousy
I'm jealous that other people can find a therapist and get better and I cant
I'm jealous that other people can find a therapist and get better and I cant
This is a mood and a half. I have been comparing myself to others' experiences a lot lately. But what I keep reminding myself is that I wouldn't wish this on anyone, so why would I sit here and be like what the heck!? why are more people not this miserable?!" I started listening to a good (free!!) audiobook on audible (I just signed up for a free trial and then you can cancel but keep the book if you downloaded it) that has been helping with this kind of thinking -- "Everyday Mindfulness for OCD" by SHala Nicely and Jon Hershfield
Are you feeling jealous or anxious? I can relate to this. At times, I worry/ruminate that if I don't do the "right" thing I won't be ok. If you have to be certain that you're going to the "right" therapist then this thought could be a trick of OCD. Now I will say that if you're not going to a therapist who's familiar with OCD then it would be helpful to go to someone who is. Also, there are helpful books out there that people have used to learn to live with OCD and have wonderful lives.
I might be anxious since I feel like I'm never going to get better and there's a million road blocks
@Anonymous - I'm sorry you're going through this rough time. It sounds like you're feeling overwhelmed with what feels like too many things to do and learn and grow in. How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time. This journey will involve taking one step at time. I'm not a therapist at all so keep that in mind... Part of this journey is learning to become ok with experiencing uncomfortable things. When we accept anxiety and don't fight it, it looses it's power. We all get discouraged and overwhelmed at times, that's ok, we CAN do it! Anxiety/OCD wants to stay in control but you have the ability to choose, though it wants to trick you into thinking you can't. It wants to discourage you. But you CAN choose to believe you can! There will be steps forward and steps back but it's ok. You ABSOLUTELY CAN and WILL get better.
im seeing everyone getting accepted by their colleges and im having a really hard time not comparing myself. I feel like my pure ocd has taken up my life and I wish my mind let me believe that I could work hard enough for these universities that I wanted to apply to. I feel so much embarrassment and shame in myself for having to stay in my hometown while everyone goes away to college. I can’t blame everything on my ocd, im still having a hard time accepting that I have it, I just wish I was better
If you have been thinking about looking into therapy but you haven't yet, what's holding you back? Maybe the support of the community can help you take that step to feeling better!
Every therapist I’ve tried for OCD has felt dehumanizing and judgy, as if I’m the threat not my OCD. I’m still looking for a good therapist. Have you ever had a bad therapy experience?
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