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- 1y ago
Jealousy
I'm jealous that other people can find a therapist and get better and I cant
I'm jealous that other people can find a therapist and get better and I cant
This is a mood and a half. I have been comparing myself to others' experiences a lot lately. But what I keep reminding myself is that I wouldn't wish this on anyone, so why would I sit here and be like what the heck!? why are more people not this miserable?!" I started listening to a good (free!!) audiobook on audible (I just signed up for a free trial and then you can cancel but keep the book if you downloaded it) that has been helping with this kind of thinking -- "Everyday Mindfulness for OCD" by SHala Nicely and Jon Hershfield
Are you feeling jealous or anxious? I can relate to this. At times, I worry/ruminate that if I don't do the "right" thing I won't be ok. If you have to be certain that you're going to the "right" therapist then this thought could be a trick of OCD. Now I will say that if you're not going to a therapist who's familiar with OCD then it would be helpful to go to someone who is. Also, there are helpful books out there that people have used to learn to live with OCD and have wonderful lives.
I might be anxious since I feel like I'm never going to get better and there's a million road blocks
@Anonymous - I'm sorry you're going through this rough time. It sounds like you're feeling overwhelmed with what feels like too many things to do and learn and grow in. How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time. This journey will involve taking one step at time. I'm not a therapist at all so keep that in mind... Part of this journey is learning to become ok with experiencing uncomfortable things. When we accept anxiety and don't fight it, it looses it's power. We all get discouraged and overwhelmed at times, that's ok, we CAN do it! Anxiety/OCD wants to stay in control but you have the ability to choose, though it wants to trick you into thinking you can't. It wants to discourage you. But you CAN choose to believe you can! There will be steps forward and steps back but it's ok. You ABSOLUTELY CAN and WILL get better.
I am wanting to go to therapy to hopefully lower my OCD symptoms but I am terrified to tell anyone else, like a therapist, about my intrusive thoughts. Has anyone else had this experience and if so how did you get over it?
I tried contacting NOCD, but they said that they didn't accept my insurance, and even if they did, I'd have to provide co-payment. I felt devastated because I'm afraid of going to a therapist who will misunderstand me. I can't afford therapy at the moment but I might be able to in a few months. Are there any alternatives for self therapy?
I feel really scared and worried that the therapist I find on NOCD might not be effective, and instead of getting better, I might end up feeling worse. I’m afraid that if I don’t feel any progress, I’ll want to switch therapists, but my mom might get impatient with me. I worry that she’ll lose faith in therapy, stop paying for it, and think it’s a waste of time and money. I know therapy takes time and it’s not a quick fix, but I’m scared that things won’t go the way I hope. What if I don’t connect with the therapist? What if they don’t understand my OCD as well as I need them to? I’ve already been struggling so much, and the thought of going through another disappointment is exhausting. I’m only 14, and I feel stuck because I can’t manage this on my own. I need help, but I also need my mom to stay patient and supportive through this process. I’m scared that if things don’t improve fast enough, she’ll give up on paying for therapy. I don’t know what to do, and it’s making me feel really anxious. I just want to get better, but what if nothing works out?
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