Depression :(

I suffer with harm ocd, towards my husband I kinda was getting over it already because I knew I didn’t wanna do it but I yesterday I fell into my depression episode again. I started crying really bad. I just felt super sad. Really confused a lot of emotions till today. I still feel like that. I don’t know if it’s because my hormones are all over the place. I got sick from the flu and I also have my period but I’m about to end it and I feel a lot of things. I just feel super sad yesterday with no like motivation. I started feeling sad again with no purpose on life . I recently saw this video like when people get happy while having depression is because they made a decision that they wanna like end their life and I’m scared. I’m gonna do that like I’m scared. I’m gonna start having suicidal thoughts or like I get happy. That like I know it’s because I wanna end my life. I feel so much for my husband I love him because he’s the one that helped me out, but I don’t know why my mind gets mad whenever I think that I love him so much like it’s like something and it gets mad and makes me think I wanna kill him for no reason and I feel like no motivation for anything so it’s like you would want to do that because there’s no reason of living anymore if you are gonna be sad your whole life.

Username: VGHVGH

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 29w ago

I’m sorry you’re struggling. Understanding how emotions can come in waves was helpful to me. Learning to ride the waves, not struggle against them, in other words don’t engage with your thoughts and feelings. Do your best to do things you value, take care of your health, do things for people you care about, accepting and allowing it all as you ride the wave. Thoughts and feelings will pass if we don’t engage with them.

Username: YesYOUcan YesYOUcan

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 29w ago

Couple of helpful tips if I can. First. You are not alone. I’ve struggled with harm ocd and depression. Sometimes just an acknowledgement that you’re going through something can help. OCD does one thing really well. It accuses you. It tells you you’re not worthy or worse. We all have inherent value. You included. Secondly. Fire your interpreter. You are seeking an answer here but your interpretation of what maybe the driver for why you feel “off” is out of sorts. We can never be bulletproof in life. Sometimes, things are just tough. Again. Acknowledge that you’re in that season of life. Finally. And most importantly. Maybe look into how you’re trying to control your thoughts / feelings. People with ocd have control issues. But can you really control the thoughts that pop in your head? No. But you can control your response to them. Things can improve.

Username: Iloverowdy12Iloverowdy12

Date posted: 29w ago

So sorry you are going through this

Username: CariMcGrath

Date posted: 6y ago

Guys, harm ocd hit me so hard yesterday. I haven’t dealt with this In years. I know I got trigger watching a video and it was like a chick who killed her boyfriend and I can’t even look at my husband right now with out wanting to lock myself in a room so I can’t be around him. For some reason any rationalizing isn’t helping at the moment and I just want to go back to how I was 4 days ago when shit like this never crossed my mind. I feel like a monster and I can’t tell him. And I tell him everyone of my themes. Guys I need some help right now

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

Feeling Like I Need to Go to the Hospital

I feel like my OCD is at its worst, and maybe even depression. I can’t go to work, and I just sit in the same spot in my house all day so people outside can’t see me and judge me. All I do is eat, shower, and take baths. I cry, text my mom, and talk to my husband. I feel like my life is over. I want things to be the way they used to be, and they’re just not. But I can’t go back to the hospital. Then I have to be away from my home, and miss a vacation I’m supposed to go on next week. But will I even enjoy the vacation? I have no idea. I’m at a loss. I used to be a happy teacher with lots of hobbies and a social life. Now I can’t even bring myself to cook meals or read a book. I look at all the paintings and crochet I used to do, the photos of me traveling - how am I possibly the same human being?

Username: yaya_zz

Date posted: 35w ago

Good afternoon HARM ocd beating me up fr

Does anyone else suffer with harm ocd the way I do, sometimes I feel like I don’t even have ocd and like these are my actual thoughts when I started ocd I would feel so bad for thinking what I was thinking and I would cry everyday but now I just feel numb and like I don’t feel nothing I can’t even cry I’m also on antidepressants so idk if that’s affecting it but it’s like the only thing holding me back from doing my actions is like thinking I could go to jail or ruin my life or regret it later in life & it’s like I tell my self or my mind that whatever it is and it like gets mad that like I can’t do it and it makes me feel worst because it makes me feel like I actually wanna do that and ugh it’s like a constant battle everyday because it like gets mad for not being able to do that because I obviously know it’s something bad and will ruin my life.

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