Sense of impending doom. Driving me NUTS.

I’ve felt like I’m in danger all day long and that something bad is about to happen to me 🙃🙃I realize this is probably just a compulsion to think about it. I ruminated and obsessed basically all day. However In therapy today I played with a food that I’m terrified that I’m allergic to! So that’s a win 😊

Doglover93

Date posted: 39w ago

Yeah I understand. When I’m at work, even when I am getting things done, I can’t hear my own thoughts because I’m ruminating and obsessing at the same time. It’s like I’ve learned to live with it (like we all have), but we have the courage to recognize that and know how much harder life is bc of it. I can’t accomplish nearly as much as I want to without this impediment. I feel you and it’s always important to celebrate the wins since this is so discouraging a lot of the time.

Honeyshark

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 39w ago

Intrusive feelings are just as hard as intrusive thoughts (maybe harder imo).

Chelsea🌿🐝

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 39w ago

@Honeyshark I totally agree !!!!

Stuck@theSink

Date posted: 39w ago

I'm glad you had a win in therapy. I'm sorry about the sense of danger. Sometimes my anxiety really hangs on me and if gets me worried that I'm going to make some kind of mistake or bump into something, and it's going to cause me to want to wash my hands or change my shirt. It is soooo frustratingly exhausting when it happens. I usually try to accomplish what I can for my daily tasks and fit in some meditation. I also try to avoid whatever compulsions I can, though there are not many I can avoid when that's going on. Sometimes the compulsions I avoid are the ones I don't know if occurred. For instance, sometimes I find that I walked a little too close to the wall and I'm pretty sure my shirt sleeve brushed against the wall. I don't know for sure, but the more I think about it and the more I question it, and the more I try to repeat my steps to see if it was possible, the more certain I become that it must have happened. ...even if it didn't. So sometimes the only compulsions I can avoid are things like this that become more real the more I think about them. So instead, when I notice myself start to question if that happen, I think of my therapist telling me to trust myself. I trust that I've walked through there many times before and that hasn't happened. I trust that I would probably know for sure if it did. And I try to proceed wherever I was going to avoid letting my mind linger on that thought. I don't know if any of this is helpful, but just wanted to offer some of what I do. I hope you feel better.

Sammy.2024

Date posted: 24w ago

Harm ocd

I was having a really good day at work and then all of a sudden, I realize that my harm OCD wasn’t there and then that reminded my brain to think about all these horrible things. I’ve been having really bad intrusive thoughts about wanting to hurt people or the fear of doing these things and I caught myself ruminating on things like oh well did this movie make me feel uncomfortable so I can reassure myself that I don’t wanna do these things and it’s just that fear like that I’m gonna wanna do it and it’s not even people that I’m close to. It’s literally anyone it could be like a random stranger thing about these things cause I know that’s a compulsion. So I thought I would put a message out to see if anyone could relate or has any advice.

Stupot

Date posted: 23w ago

My own worst enemy

Today I was officially diagnosed, and a lot of my thoughts all day have been “man, what if I actually don’t have it and I exaggerated my symptoms or something.” I had this thought especially because I hadn’t had a really bad episode in a while. But then sure enough, I had a little episode tonight. I feel like I might’ve brought it upon myself, at least in small part. Having difficulty separating OCD paranoia from real life problems to be considered with at the moment 👎🏻 Gonna sleep on it! 🙏🏻❤️

ConstantPain

Date posted: 6w ago

Dealing with a lot. Need support and company.

My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasn’t even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldn’t email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry “what if he doesn’t in time and you can’t enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friends” So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that I’ve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now I’ve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but “admitted” to out of fear of going to hell. My mind won’t let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be “valid” “logical” or even inevitable. I feel like it’s just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of “why plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of it” my mind won’t rest without certainty being uprooted won’t happen but certainty doesn’t exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.

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