Dreaming horribly

@SophiaAlexandra73 Also I feel you on the fear of dreaming, derealization and waking up from dreaming has always sucked for me

@XKrazyTavX Good for you?

@XKrazyTavX Wow. That’s a lot to say to someone with severe thoughts…pick your wording better. In this life we can’t choose what we have, but we can fight it. I’d NEVER end my life bc of that.

@hannahsheppy I’m amazed but good for u I guess I mean they even have a category for this for a reason it’s called “ violent ocd” nd exactly it’s severe and it’s as severe as someone ending their life over this condition it’s very common not knowing is the worst fear there is and it leads to suicide nobody knows how long their ocd will last and that not knowing feeling triggers it who knows u might not be suicidal now but you might be in the future u probably feel this way bc you haven’t had ocd as long as me who knows all I know is that sleep is my only escape from this never ending hell I’m in and ocd took everything from me except my sleep I can’t shower, eat, clean or be helpful to others around me bc everything I do my ocd gets triggered u might not have it as bad as me which I hate u for tht bc id rather b in anyone else’s shoes but my own rn I wouldn’t wish my condition on my worst enemy and yea it could improve but I haven’t noticed room for improvement yet and nobody else knows when they will see improvement it could get 10x worse to where u r suicidal one day nd perfectly fine the next day it’s all just a waiting game