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i’m really sorry you’re going through this. i am not a doctor, but i have a similar experience of life, just with my cat instead of a child. my therapist suggested that dissociation could be at play, and maybe you could ask a professional to look into that too! please stay safe and don’t let the ocd beat you up!!

This is absolutely a thing! I experience this, but not as intensely, and my therapist told me I was dissociating. Basically you are under so much stress/anxiety/panic the only way your brain can figure out how to cope is to force itself into a break, so you feel like you’re in a dream and not reality. Definitely talk to your therapist about it, they can give you tips on how to manage and cope 😊