Tired

I don't know what you're sexual orientation is but in the lesbian master doc, they say that basically what matters isn't whether or not you feel attracted to a certain gender. If being with a man/a woman doesn't feel right to you then you simply don't have to be. True attraction feels good, warm and safe and if the thoughts you keep getting makes you feel upset and sick then don't worry that is not attraction 😭

There are many reasons to feel aroused and your brain can actually trick you into thinking that you are even though it isn't actually real. Hope that helps :⁠-⁠)

I understand you,I have this but with butterflies in your stomach,sometimes I think it has happened and idk

This might be uncomfortable at first, but I can tell you what is helping me. When you think you’re about to have an intrusive thought, before it even occurs, purposefully have the thought. Not only that, but exaggerate it, make it even more graphic or disturbing than your original thought. It’s kind of like you’re beating you’re intrusive thoughts at their own game. If you try not to have the thought then you probably will, but if you show your mind that not only do you not care, but you’ll have the thoughts on purpose, then the anxiety can’t even keep up. That’s what has worked for me anyway. It was recommended to us in group and my intrusive thoughts have gone down. It may not work for everyone, so if you aren’t comfortable doing this or you try it and it makes you more anxious then you don’t have to use it.