- Date posted
- 42w
Tired (possible rocd tw)
I don’t think I’ll ever be good enough..I’ll always have issues and ocd relapses. My bf needs someone better.
I don’t think I’ll ever be good enough..I’ll always have issues and ocd relapses. My bf needs someone better.
you're not alone in feeling this, but we can do this!
@stxrmads Thank you. I hate that other people feel this way too but in a way I’m glad there are people who understand
@kaylaxo knowing there are people out there who understand exactly how I feel makes me feel less alone and gives me encouragement that I can work through this. I understand you 🫶
This definitely resonates with me, too. I've kind of found that it boils down to choice. As long as you are both safe and decent to each other (up to interpretation, but generally, physically and emotionally safe) then it's up to each partner to decide to stay or leave. In this case, you feel that your partner would be better off with someone else, but just remember that that's their choice.
@avx Thank you. You’re right 😊
I know it's hard for you because of this situation with ocd but I remember you were in love if still you are don't give up because any relationship has It's own ups and downs, totally. Just remember the early days of your relationship and try to act like those days .Remember, love is a precious gift, and you are worthy and shouldn't think Your boyfriend deserves anyone else. While you both love each other, No one can fill that gap for you.
@Anonymous - Thank you so much ☺️
You're welcome 🙂. I wish you the best as you want.
i feel the same way
@vaIentine I’m so sorry :(
i couldn't take this anymore. maybe i'll just let ocd win this time. it's too hard to not have a clear conscience everytime i'm with my bf cuz my mind is telling me i'm unfaithful and don't deserve to be happy. i feel like i'll never get better anymore. i already told myself many times to stop attracting attention from other people especially to people i'm having false attraction to. but i did it again yesterday, right after i smiled a little extra in front of that girl i might be attracted to i could feel the massive anxiety in my chest. already decided last week that i might be actually attracted to her so it's best to fully avoid her. i avoided her with the best i could, but we're in the same classroom and i saw her in my peripheral vision looking at us (my bf and i) whispered to myself not to make any mistake i'll regret, but then i felt like i lose control and laugh a little extra. i searched micro cheating and it says there "trying to impress someone you're attracted to" and now i want to break up with my bf. the guilt is too strong. i couldn't sleep at night.
I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
I’m struggling so much, I don’t know what’s changed. I was doing so well for a solid two months and now it’s been over a month of just my lowest point. My bf has gotten upset at how much I do compulsions and it’s taxing him too. I can’t imagine how hard it is to be my partner right now. I feel exhausted I’m tired of my OCD finding new things to obsess or worry over. I’m so TIRED of getting stuck on technicalities. I’m so exhausted with the constant intrusive thoughts and intrusive thinking. I’m so sick of how compulsive I get when I’m so riddled with anxiety. I don’t want to keep pushing. It feels pointless if my life is going to be a constant loop of ups and extreme lows. I feel like such a disgusting, embarrassing person. I don’t want love because I don’t feel like I deserve it. I don’t want patience or understanding because it makes me feel so guilty. Like no one is understanding how bad of person I could truly be. I’m so lost and tired of this
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