- Date posted
- 31w ago
Tired (possible rocd tw)
I don’t think I’ll ever be good enough..I’ll always have issues and ocd relapses. My bf needs someone better.
I don’t think I’ll ever be good enough..I’ll always have issues and ocd relapses. My bf needs someone better.
you're not alone in feeling this, but we can do this!
@stxrmads Thank you. I hate that other people feel this way too but in a way I’m glad there are people who understand
@kaylaxo knowing there are people out there who understand exactly how I feel makes me feel less alone and gives me encouragement that I can work through this. I understand you 🫶
This definitely resonates with me, too. I've kind of found that it boils down to choice. As long as you are both safe and decent to each other (up to interpretation, but generally, physically and emotionally safe) then it's up to each partner to decide to stay or leave. In this case, you feel that your partner would be better off with someone else, but just remember that that's their choice.
@avx Thank you. You’re right 😊
I know it's hard for you because of this situation with ocd but I remember you were in love if still you are don't give up because any relationship has It's own ups and downs, totally. Just remember the early days of your relationship and try to act like those days .Remember, love is a precious gift, and you are worthy and shouldn't think Your boyfriend deserves anyone else. While you both love each other, No one can fill that gap for you.
@Anonymous - Thank you so much ☺️
You're welcome 🙂. I wish you the best as you want.
i feel the same way
@vaIentine I’m so sorry :(
A good life, success, healing, beautiful things? ⚠️ Important: please don’t read if this is triggering. No one should think this way about themselves, of course you deserve it all. I struggle with real events and harm OCD. My worst fear is being a bad person, causing harm or doing the wrong thing. These thoughts haunt me all the time and cause me to essentially throw my life away. I don’t go out, pursue opportunities, etc. because what if I don’t deserve them? I think of the worst things I’ve ever done all the time. The things that I’m most ashamed of. Like a broken record that’s all I replay in my head. Doesn’t matter if it was 5 or 10 years ago. And I beat myself up for not doing better. And I just don’t know how to move past it. I’ve read a lot of quotes and books about self help and love and acceptance (e.g. once you know better, do better). But for me I feel like I have to hate myself forever. I won’t ever get a clean slate, there’s a permanent stain on my record. I just can’t forgive myself, whether other people know it or not, I can’t allow myself to move forward. It’s about integrity for me. Does anyone relate? How do you do it? I’m so sorry if you’re also struggling. I don’t wish this for anyone. Please keep fighting, you’re not alone. ❤️
I keep waking up, overwhelmed with anxiety and I feel like an awful person and I don’t know why…? But I feel like it’s because of POCD, I genuinely feel like a bad person because of all of my false attraction experiences, I feel like it’s my fault, I feel like an awful person and I’m spiraling, it’s so hard to look at myself in the mirror, i can’t bare it, I just feel so awful about myself and I don’t know what to do anymore. I genuinely can’t do this anymore.
feel really down like i'll never be able to live my life i feel i'm never truly happy i just have to get by i feel stuck ive had loads of therapy cbt nothing will ever really help me 😞
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