- Date posted
- 32w ago
Tired (possible rocd tw)
I don’t think I’ll ever be good enough..I’ll always have issues and ocd relapses. My bf needs someone better.
I don’t think I’ll ever be good enough..I’ll always have issues and ocd relapses. My bf needs someone better.
you're not alone in feeling this, but we can do this!
@stxrmads Thank you. I hate that other people feel this way too but in a way I’m glad there are people who understand
@kaylaxo knowing there are people out there who understand exactly how I feel makes me feel less alone and gives me encouragement that I can work through this. I understand you 🫶
This definitely resonates with me, too. I've kind of found that it boils down to choice. As long as you are both safe and decent to each other (up to interpretation, but generally, physically and emotionally safe) then it's up to each partner to decide to stay or leave. In this case, you feel that your partner would be better off with someone else, but just remember that that's their choice.
@avx Thank you. You’re right 😊
I know it's hard for you because of this situation with ocd but I remember you were in love if still you are don't give up because any relationship has It's own ups and downs, totally. Just remember the early days of your relationship and try to act like those days .Remember, love is a precious gift, and you are worthy and shouldn't think Your boyfriend deserves anyone else. While you both love each other, No one can fill that gap for you.
@Anonymous - Thank you so much ☺️
You're welcome 🙂. I wish you the best as you want.
i feel the same way
@vaIentine I’m so sorry :(
Hey today I’m feeling very tired because of my OCD I’m just so tired of it. I feel I’m doing everything to get better. I disregard the thoughts, I’m trying to do things like I don’t have ocd but it doesn’t want to go away. I was doing fine for a long period of time and now I feel like I’m back a square one. It’s been almost 2 months now I’m battling with OCD and I’m just tired. Sure I have moments where it’s better than others, I also have days where I barely have OCD but I also have really bad days like today where I just don’t want to get out of bed. Last time I had a relapse it took my 4 weeks to get out of it I don’t understand why this time it takes me more. I’m starting believing that I will never feel better again. Anyway I’m gonna try to find the strength to get out of bed and to start my day. But I just wanted to share. It’s such a horrible illness.
Ocd is clever. It’s clever at making you feel like if you worked this one thing out everything will be fine and great and as it was… what a lie. Just when you think you’ve solved one thing it’s straight onto the next , just when you think you’ve reached certainty it suddenly doesn’t matter anymore as something more urgent and important has come up… Ill always be a terrible person in my ocd mind. I thought I was over this issue but no…my mind has created another one, a more urgent and serious one. When will this end.
hi. so one big factor of my OCD is rumination. i met a guy who i have a crush on the idea of (idea bc there are red flags). my biggest fear is not finding true love, my ex told me no one else would deal with what i have (my ocd, specifically reassurance seeking and getting overstimulated after intimacy). a few weeks ago, my friends and family all gathered and tried to give me advice that sounded like “you’re shy and you’ll never find someone.” after that, i’ve felt off. i’ve been using an unhealthy coping skill, daydreaming, and i’ve just felt unbalanced. my ocd makes everything feel different sometimes, i can’t explain it. life, myself, almost like being in a dissociated state. has anyone else experienced that? i don’t know how to remain balanced during my off times and i know pms exasperates it all. i take ashwaghanda and omega 3s in a multi vitamin daily. i take them all together in the evening but i’ve missed three days recently and also messed with my rocky sleep schedule because of fun times with friends. i hope these supplements work, because i don’t know if i’d be brave enough for medication. i had a bad reaction on prozac and often am forgetful. i just have been battling my OCD consciously for almost ten years now and unconsciously for longer. i am so tired, as my mental health extends beyond my OCD. i’m in talk therapy with some cbt aspects but i only see her twice a month. i’ve broken down so many times and promised myself id get on track or that certain things would work, but it’s like i am stuck in a circle that gets smaller when i’m able to help myself. i just want to be normal. i want to be able to mess up my sleep schedule to enjoy good times and not suffer horrible consequences or fear that i will be entirely thrown off balance. i don’t want to worry or doubt or feel so dissociative that i squint my eyes for a moment and wonder why i feel so unreal. i will never understand why god has allowed me to go through this. i cannot let it be for nothing but i don’t know how much more to bend and contort my body and brain to get somewhere stable but how lovely it would be if i could. i don’t have much of a schedule right now, i get apathetic and give in with things from time to time. one thing can trigger me and i am back to square one wether in a week or month. any advice, any and all is so helpful. your stories, your thoughts. maybe feeling less alone and knowing what has helped you is exactly what i need right now. thank you 💗
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