Feeling unlovable because of my mental illness

You are already in relationships, even if they don't fit the typical mold of love, lust, and romantic movies. You have connections with your family, friends, and others in your life. Don’t let the desire to conform to societal expectations cause you to overlook the valuable relationships you already possess. Sometimes, it's essential to appreciate what we have in order to attract what we desire. If new experiences don’t come our way, at least we can cherish what we already hold dear. Begin by loving yourself for who you are. You are a sensitive and beautiful person on the inside, so allow that love to radiate outward. Start with self-love, extend it to your family and friends, and watch as everything else falls into place

That’s interesting, I’ve had similar thoughts. You shouldn’t worry about that, it’s a good thing that you don’t sleep around as modern life would have us believe is the norm. I struggle the most with being around woman that I really want, but that I think we’ll just see me as a friend and can’t possibly want me to want them because I’m not good enough. I need to do more exercise. I need to be better in business, I need to have more financial wealth , otherwise I’m not worthy. There’s no point in looking for a partner if you haven’t actually achieved anything.

Me AFFFFF

I feel the same, that I might be too “broken” for anyone to really fully be with me.

I think as long as the other person is aware and understands ocd roughly that's fine. Don't look for a hero though, as that's toxic for both people. (I don't feel you will based one what you said). Having a relationship with OCD is possible, I know people who have it and they're doing fine. But I'm not going to sit here and be a complete hypocrite, I feel the same way. I'm not considering a relationship, anything casual or having a family until I can sort my head out. I'd need to be sustainably sorted out for 2 years before I would consider anything serious and will be transparent with anyone who shows interest. I love my parents and they're amazing people but I can't raise them the way they raised me. They weren't fit to be healthy parents when they had me, and I can't do that to anyone else.

I have similar thoughts. I think I'm unlovable bevause of the ugly places my mind has been how hard it is to deal with. Or I need to be alone because I can't really trust anyone. Or anything.