- Username
- K.K
- Date posted
- 8w ago
Ugh
Suicidal Trigger words heads up----I hate hocd. I wish I never had it. I just want to forget about all of this and go back to the way things were before developing Hocd. My triggers are getting so bad atp it's convincing me I'm actually gay when I know I'm not. This is causing me so much anxiety and makeing me dizzy and makeing me have nausea the worst part is , is that it's my bfs birthday. I really love him so so much I wish I wasn't like this. I feel like this hocd is making me mentally, emotionally and physically ill. I just want to die. I just want to be normal and live my life without this and not be with such anxiety. I hope my baby has a good birthday. He still has no idea that ive bene feeling this way for months.