Hi Im a 15 year old girl and about a month ago i started having these toughts about harming myself and other people. It was verry draining for me so thats why me and my friends stayed toghether for a week and have fun. Now i started having it again and i cant help but think im a pysochapth. Today I started breaking down and i dont know what to do. Are these the since of OCD or is something really wrong with me? Please help.
I’m 15 year old girl too and I’ve been struggling massively with intrusive thoughts about harming my family and I know that I would never do that but my brain keeps saying that I would and I like the thought when I don’t . It started 4 months ago and ever since then it’s been a constant battle and struggle from the moment I wake up in the morning I know i will have the thought . The only time I ever FULLY escape is when I’m asleep . I’ve had thoughts forever but the thoughts of hurting the people I love scare me and make me question myself . Am I evil ? Would I ever do that . And I watched true crime stuff before these thoughts started and I think that’s what fuelled my thoughts and started this all . I wonder if I’ll ever become a psychopath or a crazy person and I hate this I hate this so much . I told my mom I get thoughts but I don’t tell her about the thoughts I get that involve my family because I know she’ll never see me the same way again . I asked her if she will and she said she’ll always be here for me but I can’t bring myself to tell her . I’m scared and I’m going to the doctors soon to get an ocd diagnosis. If it turns out I do then I’m getting therapy . I just want to be happy and not have bad thoughts like this . I want to be free
Everything u just said is soooo true. But just know u hating this so much for me is a signal ur not crazy. I know this is scary but im really hoping we both get the help we need.
@Anonymous Yes ! I believe in you and I believe in me . Thank you for replying to me . This isn’t forever . We will beat this eventually 🙂
@Sumayaosman Your so welcome. If u ever need someone to talk too u can always reach out to me. 🫶🏻
@Anonymous Same to you 🫶
I’m so sorry, you’re so young. You don’t need to be going through this 😭
Hi! Do you have a parent or family members to go to? It would help if you could talk you someone who specializes in this but I will listen if you want to talk. The nice things about seeing your doctor is that you have that time with them that is all yours. Plus, they meet with people every day with issues they have been trained to help. You are a good person! 😊🙏😊🙏
Thank you 😊 🙏. I have told my mom ever since It started happening. I appreciate you're help and will try to talk to my mom about seeing a docter.
@Anonymous That sounds like a good idea. I am happy you already confided in her. Keep it up. Keep your communication open and honest. I have a daughter that did not tell anyone what she really should have. When she finally did come to me, I felt bad for her that she had kept everything inside. I think she finally felt better after opening up to me. Communication is a good thing! Keep it up!!! I wish you all the BEST!!!! 😊😊😊😊😊😊😊
@Anonymous Thank you so much!!!
@Anonymous You're welcome!!! If you ever want to talk I will try to respond a quick as I can. But keep up your open communication with your mom and of you make sn appointment with a doctor.......keep open communication with him/her. Have faith in God, yourself, and family and conquering anything that comes your way!!! Baby steps and one step at a time is always a good plan!!!😊😊😊😊😊😊
Im currently sick too idk if it hase anything to do with the intensity of my toughts.
Kinda new to the whole OCD thing, well at least of this severity. I started having intrusive thoughts a few weeks ago, and i don’t know what to do. I’m terrified that I’m turning into a sociopath and might hurt people
Hi. I’m just really scared and I want to ask questions. I have been ocd and have been really suffering since December. The intrusive thoughts come like I want them now and it’s more of a “ well oh yeah you want to do that, and it’s gonna happen” and I start panicking and can’t focus and it scares the shit out of me. Is that ocd? Or is there something wrong with my brain and I’m actually some psychopath you see in a movie? I’m terrified. Im scared to be around my family, I’m scared to be around everyone. But I’m scared to be alone as well because I’m alone with the thoughts. What if these aren’t intrusive thoughts and I’m actually some terrible person who’s gonna hurt someone or is actually some psychopath who’s crazy? I hate this so much because I use to be so happy and not have any of these intrusive thoughts or worried that I was going to to hurt someone and now I’m so scared all the time. Can someone please answer some of these questions? I just want to make sure that this is ocd and I’m not a terrible person.
It started a month ago on vacation. I started getting intrusive thoughts about harming my loved ones in their sleep and it scared me so bad. I thought it would stop but it only got worse. Here I am a month later and things have changed drastically. My thoughts have now shifted to becoming some serial killer. I am so worried it’s all I think about. I can’t stop thinking about the things I did as a kid and how it could validate all my thoughts. I don’t wanna hurt anyone or anything at all. I am so scared of the thought of the notorious serial killers that I’ve heard about in the past and I can’t stop comparing myself to these horrible people. I’m scared because I used to be mean to animals as a kid and people say this is the first thing to look for in serial killers. I remember still having a lot of empathy for them when I was young too. I look back and cant at all understand why I was like that. It makes me wanna breakdown and punch myself. All of that stopped a really long time ago and every since I have done nothing but helped and empathized with animals. I am every surrounded by them and consider them to be more family than pets. I get extremely upset over anything or anyone who is suffering. I just can’t get that memory of me doing that stuff out of my head and I’m afraid it means it validates my thoughts I’ve been having even though this is not what i want to happen. I’ve been completely avoidant of alcohol and refused to take a medication I was prescribed because irritability was a side effect and I’m afraid of snapping and hurting someone. I just can’t stop thinking about my past and how it could correlate to now. Even though I have grown up to have morals and respect for everything I have a fear that it’s all been a lie. I get so much anxiety from thinking about this stuff. I haven’t eaten in almost 3 days because my stomach is in a constant knot and when I do eat I feel too guilty to do so because I’m not paying attention to these thoughts and sometimes it makes me question whether I secretly want to do bad stuff which I don’t and that scared me so bad. I made an emergency appointment right after I started having these thoughts and they diagnosed me as having schizotypal personality disorder. They said I have been having ocd “tendencies “ because I have the thoughts and constantly googling everything which I guess would be a compulsion. I have been looking on forums for people with past actions similar to mine to see other peoples reactions. I’m not sure what this is anymore. Idk if this is ocd or I’m just using it as an excuse. All I know is that I’m extremely scared. I vowed if this stuff as everything something I would even think about doing I would take myself out before I ever hurt anyone else. It’s scary but it’s what I always tell myself when I doubt any of this.
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