OCD doubt feeling

I just can’t get my head around the doubt / anxiety feeling my in chest. I’m sitting here atm thinking omg what if I don’t have ocd and I actually have these thoughts etc? I haven’t been actually diagnosed. I have self diagnosed myself as obviously everything I’ve read and especially now being on this app I can see how I’m very similar to people on here. So that’s the first stress this morning and the second one is I’m thinking, how do I ACTUALLY know I don’t like girls until I try kiss one ( this gives me extreme anxiety because I’ve never wanted to kiss a girl ever! Nor even thought about it!!! ) but ever since I’ve been struggling with this soocd, I’m having all these thoughts and causing me such distress. I’m like omg I’d never even try and kiss a girl because what if I DO like it??? I don’t want to be a lesbian at all! I have a boyfriend of 5 years and love him to bits!!! I just think, this is ocd is written down to a T? It’s wants that 100% certainty and I won’t be fully happy until some magic man comes down from heaven and says, you’re straight 100%😂 I just wanted to get your guys thoughts on it? Does this sound like ocd? Or things you’ve experienced before ?? Thanks xxx

Garrett Maguire

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 33w

I would say yes it certainly sounds like OCD to me. You are right too, OCD won't accept anything less than 100 percent certainty...... trying to figure it out only makes it worse and creates more what ifs.......ERP goes in the opposite direction and tackles OCD where we don't expect it......and it really works.

suspectedocd...

Date posted: 33w

@Garrett Maguire How do I stop trying to remember if I did something to trigger it or stop feeling like I’m lying about not liking these thoughts without being diagnosed

Garrett Maguire

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 33w

@suspectedocd3!!R I would say, you can't stop the feelings or the thoughts from happening, but you can stop trying to do anything with the thoughts and feelings..... it's about how you react to them that is the key here.

Vera2345

Date posted: 33w

I am of course not a psychotherapist, and I can not make diagnoses, but I had similar thoughts, and they also worried and scared me, and this still happens, but I am working on it. I understand how difficult it is, especially when you have a boyfriend, it is doubly harder, but the main thing is to remember that you are not the only one. Just recently, when I looked at my trigger, which caused me wild fear, I thought, how can something I like cause fear in me? Although I had obsessive thoughts that confused my consciousness, but my other side of the brain gave me a reason to really think. After all, when we like something, we are not afraid of it, we just accept it as a fact and a reality. But when you have fear, anxiety and disgust, and questions "what if?". this is a reason to think that something is wrong.

paulius

Date posted: 33w

Yes I'm kinda in similar situation with other things, and I'm just thinking maybe I should just breakup, maybe it's a sign, so hard some days are good and some are worse. And it's really hard to ask myself is it ocd or me

paulius

Date posted: 33w

But I can't even think of breaking up, everything is going so good

Elliesmith

Date posted: 22w

Is this ocd

So my whole life I’ve been heterosexual. I have got hocd so I worry I’m a lesbian when I have no reason to worry about it because im straight ( not that my ocd likes to think that tho lol! ). But there’s this thought I have, How do I know I’m 100% straight if I haven’t tried sleeping with a girl? Bear in mind I’ve NEVER WANTED TO and DONT want too. Hence why it is an INTRUSIVE thought. But the thought is so uncomfortable- I can’t seem to shift it. But i do see that THIS IS OCD & wanting to know for certain. Thats the definition of OCD. I do know that but it’s tough with the stupid doubts!!! Do you guys just live with the unknown / uncertainty. I’m so happy and love my boyfriend and only want to be with him etc. Let me say again, I DONT want to sleep with a girl nor have I ever fantasized about it. But why does ocd want 100% certainty.. I just wanna not have that weird niggling thought.

vaiiolyn

Date posted: 19w

Lesbian with Sexual Orientation OCD

I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?

idkwhatusern...

Date posted: 16w

I’m questioning sexuality even though I’m young

Sort of a rant that probably sounds stupid and I’m kind of seeking reassurance… I’m still a relatively young teenager so I know I’ve got time to work all this out but I’m really confused about my sexuality. (I’m a girl) I’ve never been in a relationship (I don’t know if I want to be which is why I’m writing this) and sometimes I feel like I’ve never really had a crush and I just convinced myself that I did because I wanted to feel normal… but then maybe that’s false memory ocd??? I don’t really want to be in a long term relationship with a guy and idk about girls but idk if that’s just cos of my age??? Some days I hate the idea of ever dating, marrying or doing anything sexual. Other days I wish my mental / physical health was better so I could date someone! Everything I feel goes up and down a lot and idk why!? I have bad sexual intrusive thoughts that make me unsure whether anything that I think is real and my parents recently split up after not getting along for a few years. I don’t know if it’s my age, my ocd, my parents bad relationship, my sexuality (am I attracted to guys, girls? Am I ace!!!!???) Or something else but I have no idea who I am and I KNOW I’m young and have time but some other perspectives might help???? Can I ever be in a relationship if I have ocd like this? Also I’m really struggling not to compulsively seek reassurance and I don’t know who to talk to about all this irl I know I probably shouldn’t share this with random strangers but also idek if I care anymore 😭

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