- Date posted
- 37w
I keep spiraling
I was doing slightly better for twenty minutes, and then I had a bad thought. I felt like I liked it for a few seconds before my stomach twisted and my heart dropped. This is too hard.
I was doing slightly better for twenty minutes, and then I had a bad thought. I felt like I liked it for a few seconds before my stomach twisted and my heart dropped. This is too hard.
You are capable of conquering your OCD. It is not going to be easy in the beginning. Keep doing your ERP and working with your therapist. Don’t expect to be perfect at it. And, work on self-compassion and self care. Both will help you navigate the lows.
@MichelleV I’ll do my best to not expect perfection, I make that mistake a lot (ironically) thank you for the advice and encouragement 💕
@issphra 🫶🏻 I do too, you aren’t alone there
feelings are not facts and thoughts are not threats. Don't let OCD distorted feelings make you doubt your truth. The anxiety is the proof its all OCD. keep going. even doing SLIGLTHY better is what some people on this app would kill for. In time, slightly turns into somewhat, and somewhat turns into sometimes and into half the time then into the most of the time and eventually all of the time.
@TexasOCD41 Thank you, your comment honestly made me tear up a bit. I felt hope. Thank you 💗
Please help I am having the worst spiral I have had in 5 years. I am doing so bad to the point I could not even sleep. I’m so scared, anxious and confused. I did ocd therapy for a long time and my therapist told me I was doing so well I needed to stop. Which I was until about 2-3 weeks ago it started back super bad. And now as of yesterday the intrusive thoughts feel more definitive. They are making me spiral, it literally feels like my brain is jumping from side to side. I love my boyfriend more than I knew was humanly possible. I haven’t lost my attraction to him, not that I know of… I don’t want to break up with him bc i love him, I think he’s hot, I want to marry him but I’m terrified that I am just lying and that the feelings never were true! I don’t know how to make it stop. I tried all night not to research and I had to give in. 😭 this is hell
I ruminated too much this morning and got distressing mental images (and confirmation) which sent me spiraling again. How do I stop thinking about this and how do I get back to myself? I feel destroyed.
Last week was a lot easier for me. I felt like thoughts didn’t control me and my actions as much as they did earlier. Today was really hard for me and I feel like I’m starting to lose hope again:( I can’t take the thoughts and the feelings that come with them anymore. I feel like I have failed and I’m never going to be happy again.
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