I had about 3 panic attacks, lost what’s been a very HUGE appetite lately. Cried myself to sleep. Spiraled, spiraled, and spiraled. I’m calming down but I’m still spinning mentally. Probably gonna keep crying all night 😛 I’m sorry if anyone else had a bad day today 💗 We can do this, stay strong 💕
Do you want to talk about what's causing your panic attacks? Sorry to hear about all of that.
@BigGyro09 I had a bad ROCD episode today, I confessed meaningless thoughts and I unnecessarily hurt my boyfriend’s feelings in the process. It was selfish of me out of anxiety. I’ve also developed this meta OCD thing where my compulsions make me feel evil. Like because I engage with the thoughts (out of anxiety) it must mean I want them to be there 🙄 I sound a bit crazy I think but I think the new medicine I’m on is causing higher anxiety which leads me to panic attacks easier and my rational thinking isn’t the best. Some of my panic attacks are also just random. I start hyperventilating and my heart goes crazy and then all of a sudden I’m curled up in a ball sobbing unable to breathe enough. I appreciate your kindness, it’s just been a really tough few days. I hope you’re doing better:)
@issphra 🫶🏻 I’m definitely going through a similar thing :( I hope you start to feel better in the next few days
@issphra 🫶🏻 That sounds like a tough experience. Yes, beginning with medication can make the symptoms worse in the beginning, but then it can get better. You probably know this but I just wanted to share it because I think some people stop taking the meds then out of fear they don’t work, but actually it is just a phase.
@violettag6 I hope you feel better soon too 🫶🏻
@captain_kapai I’ve had really bad luck with other medications, I’m extremely sensitive to any meds honestly but I’m sticking with this one because I want to get better. It’s just the panic attacks that last over 3 hours and happen multiple times a day that are so debilitating. My anxiety feels about the same though? So that’s why I feel I can tolerate this medicine even with the awful panic attacks. I hope I’m not making a mistake, either way I’ve updated my psychiatrist just in case that’s a bad sign!
@issphra 🫶🏻 Don't blame yourself for your compulsions. That's the whole half of OCD that you didn't ask to have. It's a struggle for sure. Your body is likely adjusting to the new medication slowly, so symptoms are unique to the person of course. I'm sorry that your boyfriend was hurt by this, but I'm sure he's understanding of your struggle with OCD and you can make it up to him. I haven't been doing the best, but I'm overall still good. Thanks for hoping, I appreciate it. :)
i had a bad day myself. idk why the fact that i'm not to only person who's cried today is making me ease up. although i don't wished anyone to feel this way im glad to see im not the only one. hope tomarrow is better for you.
@whitneyyy0724 I cry pretty often, you’re not alone 🤍 I hope today is better for you
Try interoceptive exposures for panic anxiety. Read and do the exercises in Mastery of Your Anxiety and Panic by David Barlow and Michelle Craske, I like the third edition.
Lately, my mood shifts so frequently. A couple of minutes ago, I got triggered and decided that instead of doing a compulsion, I'd write in my journal (since I haven't done that in a while). But after writing not even half a page... I'm okay? Well, sorta! 😭 I'm experiencing a resurgence in old obsessions, which is disappointing. A couple of weeks back, I was doing a lot better, but now it's just one thing after another. Really wish therapy was more affordable. I'm already seeing my psychiatrist, but she wants me to see a specialist as well. When I think about living with this for the rest of my life, I can get a little emotional. I know it'll get easier to manage as time passes, and it might not even affect me in the future, but right now...? It's a lot of work I'll need to do to overcome this. I'm willing to do it, but I get discouraged at times... But that's enough of my little vent! I hope anyone who reads this is doing okay. Hang in there 🤍
I have hold back my tears . I’m trying so hard to play it off. I can’t think about it anything without on the verge of falling apart . I have no self control over my mind . I’m scared. Is this a psychosis . I have barely eaten in days . My stomach is growling but I have no appetite. Idk what’s going on . Normally if I have a rough week I can fight it but I can’t fight it this time. My biggest fear is loosing my bf. I’m spending the day with him and all I can do it think about what’s gonna happen when I leave .
I genuinely can't help but feel irredeemable over every little mistake made or regret I've had. It's so up and down, but I just miss the certainty. Knowing "this is who I am." I'm so disconnected from myself. Like, I'm really, really trying. Today is really rough... I got triggered the other night, and it's been hell since. I've been fighting seeking reassurance. I want it so, so incredibly bad, but I know it won't help me :( Some days, I just don't want to be here. It's funny because yesterday I felt amazing until I got triggered. I just immediately spiraled after that. I don't know. Does it genuinely get better? Will therapy really help me? Sometimes, I think maybe this is the best it'll get, and that scares me. Sorry for the vent. I'm just feeling so overwhelmingly anxious right now. I can't even cry (due to Zoloft). It feels claustrophobic somehow, having all these emotions trapped inside of my body with nowhere to go 😭
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