I don’t know what’s wrong

Hey. I saw your last post and I wanted to tell you that you shouldn't feel bad about your therapist not clicking with you. It's okay to switch to a therapist that is comfortable for you. And it's good that you are trying your best to resist compulsions. That's a good thing, though it can be hard to do so. This is difficult, but it's not your fault.

I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way right now. I know it must be really overwhelming, but I want you to know that you’re not alone. OCD and anxiety can make thoughts feel intense and out of control, but they don’t define you. Try to take slow, deep breaths and remind yourself that this moment will pass. If you feel like you need immediate support, reaching out to a professional or someone you trust could help. You deserve support, and you’re stronger than this moment. I’m here for you.

Let me know if you need me to clarify anything I said from this post or the earlier post I posted. Again, hope this is helpful, and not triggering, or to overwhelming. I felt so alone when I was going through this last year. I don’t want you or anyone else experiencing this to feel alone.

We all have good and bad days, like buggyro09 as said, don't feel bad about anything as your trying your best. Sometimes takes a few different therapists to find the one for you. Just keep up the hard work and the reward will come

Hey I know how this feels and I have a few phrases for you that really helps me sometimes “This is my OCD don’t even worry abt it” “Nice try OCD” “yeah yeah righto whatever” try to get bored of the thoughts which believe or the panic something I find helpful is scrolling on IG or tik Tok just for a few minutes as it helps bring u back to reality a little bit I hope your doing better now ML talk to me if you want im here

You should discuss with your family. They love you more than you know and will want to help. When you do, have one of the NOCD videos designed to explain the disorder to loved ones. You can find them on YouTube. It will make things easier. Also, contact NOCD and arrange for a free consultation. They can set you up with a therapist you'll like.

Why don't you share the video with your mom and see what happens.

I can absolutely relate to feeling like your going insane. I also completely relate to the non stop crying. As well as feeling hopeless. Last year I had to admit myself to pyschiatric hospital because I didn’t feel safe. For me it was neccesarry to get out of my crisis. It’s important to know that If you decide to go to a hospital and they deem you unsafe (to yourself or others) you will be put on a 72hr hold called a 5150 where you will be placed in a psychiatric unit in a hospital or in psychiatric hospital involuntarily. I was put on a 5150. In my experience I had to be placed in one hospital before being admitted to the impatient pyschiatric unit in another hospital. Once I got to the impatient psychiatric unit at the second hospital I was eventually provided with a psychiatrist and social worker. Who helped stablize me. By getting me on the right medications and dosages. They also advocated for me to be sent to a special partial hospitlization program (PHP) that specializes in OCD. During my stay at the impatient psychatric hospital I attended groups that the hospital provided that really helped me feel less alone. The group activities helped me work out some of the feelings I was dealing with. I did have to share a room for some of my stay. Not going to lie the food was not great. Sometimes staff weren’t nice. And there were other patients who were scary at times due to there own mental health issues. Eventually I got put on a waitlist to go to that partial hospitlization program (PHP) that specializes in OCD that I mentioned earlier. But while I waited for a spot to open up in that program. I was placed in the hospital's own partial hospitilization program (PHP). At that point I was feeling much better. I wasn’t out of the woods by any means. But I was not in crisis anymore. I am an adult, so I don’t believe I was required to disclose my hospilization to my family, though I did. Know that everyone’s experience is different. Not all psychiatric units in hospitals are the same. Some are scarier then others. And sadly hospital's don’t always have space for new patients. If you don’t feel safe though it’s important that you seek help. Whether that’s reaching out to someone you trust. Or getting in contact with your therapist and or psychiatrist if you have one. If you don’t feel safe and you can’t seek help else where the hospital is probably the best place for you. I hope this message is helpful and not triggering or to overwhelming. Please know your not alone. Your OCD does not define you. You have a purpose on this Earth. Descriptions of different programs offered in hospitals: Impatient - overnight Partial hospitlization program aka PHP - all day Intensive outpatient aka IOP - half day

If you don’t click with your therapist. Try getting a new one. NOCD is very committed to you finding the right therapist. I’m meeting with a second therapist tomorrow because I didn’t click with the first one.

Thank you for the sweet responses! Wishing everyone the best in there healing journey!

Also… There is a difference between a regular hospital with a psychiatric unit and a stand alone psychiatric hospital. The main difference I think is a psychiatric unit inside a regular hospital provides short term care. A stand alone psychiatric hospital provides long term care. I visited a stand alone psychiatric hospital before going to a regular hospital. I was told by the psychiatrist at the stand alone hospital that I have severe OCD and it is not necessary for me to admit myself. He said that admitting myself to that hospital would probably traumatize me because of all the different people and mental illnesses they’re dealing with. I decided to go to a regular hospital with a psychiatric unit a few days later because my crisis was not going away.

I'm so sorry, that must be scary. I know it doesn't feel like it right now, but this feeling is not forever; just remember that. Do you have anything you can do to calm down? Snuggling with a pet, listening to music, reading a book, watching a comfort show, any of those things might ease anxiety (I know they don't work for everyone, but it's just a suggestion).

I totally relate. I feel the urge to tell me family everything but sometimes it feels really embarrassing to do so. You are not alone. Maybe you could tell your family you have anxiety and are having panic attacks, if you don't feel comfortable telling them about your ocd yet. They then might be able support you. When I was a younger I made my self really ill from the stress that my ocd caused (I didn't know I ocd at the time) and I had to go see a doctor. My anxiety isn't as bad but it's still not great, I just try to disctract my self a lot by playing games on my phone or listening to music. We are all here if you feel like you need to vent. You are not alone. ❤️

Hey girl, I understand your pain, it feels debilitating when those intrusive thoughts just storm right at you, trust me I felt like that this morning but what helped me was prayer and telling myself that those thoughts aren’t real and they don’t define me, we got this girly and life will get better🙏🏼

The video might help. Sometimes, family members just need time to process.