I’m afraid that I don’t believe in God anymore.

My religion is different from yours, but I used to get the exact same thoughts two years ago, it was my worst OCD cycle ever, especially the fear of going to hell 💔 I too struggled with reading anything related to my religion as if I don’t believe it and then I start panicking since I do want to believe it, and I kept having this feeling that God hates me and will never forgive me, I was so afraid of him I couldn’t even look up to the sky. I got of this cycle by doing ERP, it was so so hard, but whenever I get intrusive thoughts like “you’re going to hell” I respond in my mind with “maybe maybe not, whatever, I don’t really care, screw it” even though I didn’t really mean it but I kept acting like this to fool my mind, and whenever I get thoughts about God not existing I act the same way too, even though deep down inside I believe that God exists, but I don’t argue with my OCD about it, the key is to act careless

My friend, you cannot ever lose your salvation :) the Bible says you were sealed the moment you believed (Ephesians 1:13-14) and nothing can undo that seal. Whoever calls on the name of the lord will be saved (Roman’s 10:13) and you have already called on him and believe in him and he saved you, and the reason these thought disturb you is because you do believe. Jesus loves you so much and he will get you through this nightmare we have called ocd, everytime you are afraid, he is with you, holding you and comforting you, and he will never leave you or forsake you no matter what, Jesus paid it all! ✝️

I agree with @jesuslovesme777 ^^^^ You CANNOT lose your salvation. Because that would mean that Jesus’ sacrifice on the cross was not strong enough to keep you in the palm of His hand, which of course isn’t true! Once you’re His, nothing can pluck you from His hand. This story of Paul’s has helped me so much when thinking about my OCD: “So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” ‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭12‬:‭7‬-‭10‬ ‭ESV‬‬ https://bible.com/bible/59/2co.12.7-10.ESV

Thank you everyone for your comments.

But I don’t want to say I don’t believe in God. I did that and a few times and now I feel like God is going to reject me. I wish there was another way to get over it. The same thing about hell I just can’t bring myself to say that. How else can I act careless? I am in therapy for it but this stuff just started.

I am not religious, I have my own relationship with God but my way of life I try to live spiritually. I feel as though God understands what you are going through, and it’s okay. Your brain is attaching meaning to these intrusive thoughts, which is why they feel so terrible. I suggest practicing meditation, along with your religious practices. It helps a lot with being able to let thoughts, any type of thoughts, come to mind and not judge them or try to argue with them, leading to a heightened sense of focus and peace. Thoughts Are going to come up, no matter what, no matter what you believe in, thoughts are gonna be there, no matter what. Good or bad. It’s just how you learn to get past them. If it helps, my perspective on spirituality and religion, is that God is not confined to one set of practices. Feeling like maybe you need to take a break from reading the Bible, or praying, because it might be causing you too much anxiety, is OK. There are so many other ways to appreciate God and the universe, and what is around us. Simple gratitude, helping others, learning to forgive yourself, and doing good deeds all is something that God and the universe is grateful that you do aswell. God is you, your friends, animals, everything around you. Taking care of yourself is showing love and care for God in my opinion. But from an OCD perspective, which sort of ties in with meditation, is sitting with these uncomfortable feelings and thoughts, and not trying to argue with them and push them away. But with ERP I learned A saying or phrase that I like to tell myself or try to live by is “oh that was a weird thought, anyways. “Or.. “ maybe, maybe not, I’m not going to try to figure this out right now.” it is easier said than done, and will be uncomfortable, but eventually you will just see the thoughts as annoying and eventually sort of just be like “umm anyways” and move on you know?? Hopefully I am making sense. I have a hard time putting my thoughts together. Anyways when I am talking to God, what I believe is my higher self along with my ancestors and spirit guides, and Mother Nature, I get such bad thoughts that I don’t care about them, myself, that I want to do bad things, that im unforgivable or will suffer in the afterlife. So you are not alone on this either. Ocd targets what you love and care about. You could get over this theme and ocd could target a literal doorknob. So please take care of yourself and give yourself some grace!! Once again hopefully im making sense Peace and love

hey, not sure how helpful this will be, but growing up Christian my parents would teach us a lot about the devil & demons. I’m sorry if this does more harm than good, but I was taught how we are surrounded by demons/spirits & how the devil whispers certain things into our minds, hearts, & souls. There is a constant war for our soul, and as a Christian, you’re most prone to attack because the devil wants you to lose faith. It’s important to be stern in your beliefs and thoughts & true to yourself, so when you’re confronted with those thoughts- correct them. Maybe more prayer would be good? & my friends does work with rebuking, she says it works really well for herself. Remember, demons tremble at the name of Jesus, & COMMAND the mountains to move. also remember that God is forgiving always. book rec: prayers that rout demons

This is all your OCD. When it says you don’t actually believe in God, that is OCD and not real. I have learned to just let all my “dark” thoughts about God rattle around in my head freely—but then I doing worry about them. I just allow them to be there. This is very important. I am a Christian too. I have worried about my salvation and going to hell every day of my life for many years. But God has taught me some things along this journey. The biggest thing I learned in my OCD journey is that those OCD thoughts don’t actually MEAN ANYTHING. However, you can’t stop them or make them go away. It is OKAY to just allow them to be there, even though they disturb us. I know this is hard. Therapy will really help. And please write back anytime if you want to talk more