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Yes, I feel like it’s difficult to accept that it’s just ocd after all the intrusive images, urges, feelings, and thoughts. But that’s why accepting uncertainty is the key, because doubt will creep back in. It’s tough because I’m like “will I ever truly go back to normal after all of this”. You’re not alone

Hi, I relate so much because I also have this theme but I’m way better. So what you are experiencing is called aesthetic attraction(it’s finding people pretty the same way you would find an art work or clothing pretty). This is normal for everyone but people with ocd themes like soocd, pocd and so many others find theirselves struggling with thoughts of “why did I find her so pretty or captivating” because of OCD. OCD latches on aesthetic attraction and make life difficult for us☹️. + since you have soocd and your trigger is females, it’s only logical to be hyper vigilant about if their features draw you in! Know this is all ocd. Keep on engaging in erp by deliberately looking at attractive women (In fact rate them over ten to trigger the OCD) gradually it would get better ❤️‍🩹

I know how you feel! I have been in recovery for months now and still get thoughts and feelings even with lower anxiety. I also think women are beautiful! I love women, I work in maternal and child health, and I think we are amazing! But thinking women are pretty or amazing does NOT mean you are attracted to them romantically or sexually. For some people, yes that attraction is there and they might say finding women beautiful or pretty means something deeper, but it doesn’t and it isn’t so black and white. People tend to appreciate the beauty of their own “type”. Us with ocd just look into that with more concern and depth than everyone else. You’ve got this. Accept the uncertainty of life. I promise it will get better with acceptance and time!!!

Just keep going, I know it’s great getting reassurance for that moment And the people commenting on here told me just the same. These people are amazing people too. I’ve been where you are 14 years ago and managed to get through it without any medication or therapy. This time it’s come again 4 months ago, I lost my attraction to opposite gender and had severe ‘false’ attraction to same gender (I’m married man to a woman and we have two children). This it me so so hard, I never ate for weeks, I couldn’t even sleep, every second was hell. Here I am four months later, no therapy but I am on medication. My attraction to opposite gender is coming back slowly, not where it was but il keep going trying not to push it. The ‘false’ attraction has lowered, Its laughable at this stage. But I had to work at this. I had to kind of agree to disagree with the thoughts/feelings. But I feel like my life is coming back! Keep strong, it’s harder done than do said but just sit with the uncomfortable feelings and thoughts and accept the uncertainty. Your old self will come back in time. I wish you all the best!