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17f I work at the restaurant as a cleaner, pot washer and a kitchen assistant. My job already made me freak out a bunch of times because couple times while cleaning I was kinda near children and my POCD is very severe just being around children makes me anxious and later I sometimes have false memory ocd that I touched the children even though I didn't And my boss said that in July I will probably be promoted to a waitress. And I'm terrified. It's a busy family restaurant in a city center and people constantly come here with little children. It's one thing to work in the kitchen and cleaning during closing shift, I still see children sometimes but I can avoid accidental physical contact for example. But as a waitress it will be hell on earth. I will need to walk between tables outside where children are constantly running around and if I have stuff in my hands I won't be able to move so fast to avoid touching them I need this job so much and its hard to get a job as a minor here but this will fucking ruin me. I can already see how I will have a mental breakdown because I accidentally touched the child while working and convinced myself I did it on purpose.

Newerthannewb82

Date posted: 7w

Get into it. I used to work in a busy pub/restaurant. I swear to God you will love it. It got me over some pretty massive social anxiety issues. 🙃

emma345

Date posted: 7w

Yeah tbh I really wanted to work as a waitress, but POCD makes it terrifying. Cause I already had a false memory episode because of having to walk near a child while going home from work. And when I sleep im dreaming anxious dreams about walking too close to a child 😭 I just know that if I actually touch a child on accident it will destroy me

slippery_salad

Date posted: 7w

Hey, I hear how overwhelming this feels right now, and I want to say—your fear isn’t a sign of danger, it’s a sign of your OCD trying to protect you from a threat that doesn’t exist. What you’re experiencing is anticipatory anxiety—your mind is predicting a catastrophic future that hasn’t happened and likely never will. That’s what OCD does: it creates stories and convinces you they’re real. Eckhart Tolle talks about how the present moment is all we truly have. OCD, on the other hand, lives in the “what ifs” of the future and the “did I?” of the past. But the present? Right now? You’re okay. You’re safe. There’s no emergency here. From an OCD perspective, staying grounded in the now is like your superpower. Instead of rehearsing all the possible panic attacks or analyzing future interactions, try this: just notice right now. Your breath. The way your feet feel on the ground. The noise in the room. OCD may scream, “But what if—” and you can calmly respond, “Maybe so. Maybe not. But I’m here now.” You’re not bad. You’re not dangerous. You’re someone who deeply cares and has a brain that lies to protect you too much. Let the thoughts come. Let the feelings sit. And come back to this moment again and again. You got this.

Estrid

Date posted: 7w

You can look at this sityation as an opportunity to makd progress in your OCD. If you surrender to the discomfort and focus on your work the fears will subside with time.

emma345

Date posted: 7w

Idk... I feel like I will only make more events and will think that now I'm complitely irredimable

Estrid

Date posted: 7w

@emma345 You don't have to act as you feel. Don't let OCD stop you from doing what you want. If you begin to avoid things it will get worse, I know first hand. Do what you want - not what OCD wants. Seek a therapist if possible. If you tell yoyrself it won't work - it won't. Tell yourself that you are willing to fight💪

oneday.x

Date posted: 19w

Scared to do things.

I don't know if this is super OCD related, but it's just there are so many things I want to do in life, but I'm scared. I want to apply for this restaurant waitress job near me, but I'm worried I'd be terrible at it as I have no experience and I'm worried they wouldn't train me properly. What if someone has an allergy and I accidentally serve them the wrong food and they have a severe allergic reaction and something awful happens and then I'm sued or go to prison? It feels like there's so many things holding me back. What if I give someone a drink but a piece of my hair falls in? It just feels like I'm never going to be able to do anything. I've never tried anything, never properly stepped out of my comfort zone, never had any kind of job. So I'm so nervous to try anything in life because there are so many things that could go wrong.

Young adults with OCD

emmagracee

Date posted: 17w

Hi! Urgent!

Hey, so I have POCD. I’m a teenager and can’t get a job. I want to make money by babysitting, but I’m scared. I don’t want to hurt any children and I want to be safe.

emma345

Date posted: 7w

POCD event HELP

Terrifying thing happened 17f I work at the restaurant and my boss said that I need to clean the bathroom I heard some childlike voice nearby and I couldn't open the bathroom door easily so I got scared that a child is in here But my boss insisted that it's not occupied so i had to open it my boss was looking at me and I was supposed to clean so I opened it I was scared but I still did it It wasn't occupied BUT why did I open it?? What if there was a child there??? And there is already a chanse that I'm a P, how could I do that if I know there was a chanse I'm a P I just didn't know what to do my boss was looking at me I had to do what he said but now I'm a monster

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