emma345
- Date posted
- 6w
Can people see my recent pocd posts?
I can't get an answer
- LGBTQ+ with OCD
- Harm OCD
- "Pure" OCD
- Mid-life adults with OCD
- Older adults with OCD
- Young adults with OCD
- POCD
- Real Events OCD
Andrew EscobarAndrew Escobar
- Date posted
- 6w
Hey I saw that post the other day! I've been going through the same thing, and it's really scary. It's important to know that actual pedos really don't give af about being attracted to kids. Don't let your thoughts contaminate you!
emma345emma345
- Date posted
- 6w
Thanks for support) But this is not true... pedophilia is a paraphilia, and paraphilias can be ego dystonic. So pedophiles can stress about being pedophiles too.
Andrew EscobarAndrew Escobar
- Date posted
- 6w
@emma345 It sounds like you're spiraling, is there something you enjoy doing? I think a distraction would be best for you right now
emma345emma345
- Date posted
- 6w
@Andrew Escobar I'm trying this whole day to distract myself, but this feels like a life or death question, cause like what if I want to act on it and will act on it someday... I'm really scared. This is too much. As I said before I would feel repulsed or at least anxious about those thought, so it was hard to continue imagining stuff. Now I'm able to imagine it for a long time and I don't feel no disgust, no remorse, no "this is wrong", my brain doesn't even this its slightly weird. WTF.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 6w
@emma345 Idk much about the difference between pedophilia and POCD if what youre saying is that theyre both egodystonic, but I think the important thing here is that neither have to act on anything if they don't want to, so at the end of the day it's more about what matters to you than what diagnoses you have.
emma345emma345
- Date posted
- 6w
@Anonymous Paraphilias aren't always egodystonic, but they can be. Yeah it's also true that you don't have to act on it and some people with paraphilias succeed in that. Bit that's the problem. Before even a thought about doing something like that would gross me out I could fully feel and understand that it's wrong. Now when I imagine those stuff I don't feel anything negative. Like I became apathetic to it being wrong and I just don't feel like it's horrific or bad. That's what scares me.
Andrew EscobarAndrew Escobar
- Date posted
- 6w
@emma345 It could mean that you're getting better and or you're mentally drained. I've been feeling the same.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 6w
@emma345 If you want my thoughts on it, you may have just thought it to death. You really can only take so much before you give out emotionally on an obsession and get used to it.
emma345emma345
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- 6w
@Andrew Escobar Idk... like I keep imagining it and I'm sp desensitized that I know that I'm mentally capable of doing something like this. Maybe I don't want it now but who knows about the future? I'm so so terrified
Andrew EscobarAndrew Escobar
- Date posted
- 6w
@emma345 What makes you so sure that you're mentally capable of it?
emma345emma345
- Date posted
- 6w
@Andrew Escobar I can fully imagine myself doing it without feeling bad or guilty. Like I even made a hypothetical plan and I didn't feel guilty disgusted or scared while thinking it through. It's almost like my brain took it as something conplitely normal
Andrew EscobarAndrew Escobar
- Date posted
- 6w
@emma345 It's easy to make up scenarios. It's like when someone thinks that they can easily do a crazy stunt
emma345emma345
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- 6w
@Andrew Escobar I really really hope that you are right. But I just can't get rid of that terrifying feeling
Andrew EscobarAndrew Escobar
- Date posted
- 6w
@emma345 What is POCD (pedophilia OCD)? Signs, symptoms, and treatment https://share.google/K6hHre2oHlPnLOUQm
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