Rocky
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- 5y
Ty94Ty94
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- 5y
Well said. I’m starting to slowly realize that through my journey of HOCD. I noticed the more I mature and get better at managing my OCD through practice and help of a specialist, that there is a very slight downward trend in the emphasis that I used to put on certain thoughts and situations. My brain will always be my brain, but with effort, time and growth I believe OCD can be tamed and that mental space becomes more readily available for other things in life ✊?
AsnkuAsnku
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- 5y
I think when i was maybe 12 i remember my friend kissed me in the cheek and I get really anxious about it. After that I started having intrusive thoughst were she kissed me and I hate it. It made me cry and so depressed. Then something happened and it did go away but in this year it came back and it has been never this bad :( I get literally so many intrusive thoughst and that’s why I am anxious almost all the time and I hate it so much. I was social but not anymore. I just hope I get my attraction boys back
Rocky Rocky
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- 5y
It usually does get better, for me it started this may, 4 months before my 16th birthday because I realised that I hadn’t had a crush in 2years so I thought it might mean I’m gay. But now after only 8 months I’m already starting to feel a lot better, I finally got a female crush and I’m starting to remember all the things already in my childhood that suggested I’m straight (that are a LOT more than the ones that suggested I’m gay) and I’m starting to realise I have nothing to worry and obsess about. Intrusive thoughts still come but they have sensibly reduced in both number and intensity
MaceyMacey
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- 5y
After couple years ago, I went to a bowling tournament that I was particapating in and I saw a person who I thought was a boy have really pretty, curly, short hair. I thought it was cute, and then I realized later that the ‘boy’ was actually a girl. I felt really confused because I still thought the hair was pretty, but I wasn’t interested in dating or liking a girl. My cheeks flushed red and I’ve been suffering every since. I haven’t had a scenario like that since and I know that I’m straight, but it’s so confusing and scary.
AsnkuAsnku
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- 5y
Shoot I have kinda same experience I saw cute “boy” but she was girl and that make me feel so shamed
Rocky Rocky
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- 5y
Well it’s in human nature to recognize “cuteness” or even “attractiveness” in people of both sexes. But this also applies for animals, flowers, or pretty much anything. This doesn’t mean you want to fuck anything that is good looking ?
TheBigCahunaTheBigCahuna
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- 5y
I think maybe when I was 20 and didn’t take it seriously as OCD until 8 years later
Josh2019Josh2019
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- 5y
Mine first started when I was 23 , I was battling rocd at that time and I was so on edge my mind convinced me I was gay. I got over it and was HOCD free for 7 years then I relapsed when my ex wife left me
Josh2019Josh2019
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- 5y
I’m now 34
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Mt2019
- Date posted
- 18w
Question about HOCD
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
Luke_McElwee
- Date posted
- 18w
HOCD question
Anyone else with HOCD get thoughts of like "people in denial try to distract themselves" or anything along those lines when just trying to move on from the thoughts. Having a pretty bad episode this morning at least anxiety wise.
geodrimilis
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- 14w
How to counter hocd (in my opinion)
Think logically. Literally. Take me as an example. I have hocd and my obsession is “what if I’m gay”. I’ve liked girls my whole life, I can still get aroused by them and I can’t get the same instinctive reaction from a guy. So I can’t be gay. Sometimes ocd will go to something else once you prove it wrong. Maybe like. “What if I’m bi” again I can only get aroused by girls. Sometimes when I’m not thinking about it I can even get aroused when sitting next to a girl or when I’m sitting next to one or even when I’m touching one in a non sexual way. Something that never happens or has happened with a guy in my life. Don’t start panicking. Just “realise” who you are and who you’ve been.
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