- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Yes, and I've told my therapist that I obviously care what she thinks about me, and she knows this. So she uses it as ERP and says "maybe I am thinking judgmental things about you, you'll never know" and she knows I am uncomfortable because of this, but I know she is here to help me so I continue to work knowing I can never truly "know" what she or anything thinks of me. And that has been helping me reduce how much I care what anyone thinks of me. Hope that helps. Stay strong!
Thanks everyone for the encouraging words. I guess it does come down to doing some exposure work around what other people think of me. I’ve always struggled with ruminating on what people may/may not think about me. It makes sense that I would also feel this way about my therapist.
I have this very uncomfortable fear every time step into a mental health facility or go see my therapist. But, how i work my way out of this one is to tell myself maybe they're judging me, maybe they're not. Either way I am here to get help and i try to focus in on my session. But at any point i am uncomfortable with my mental health professional, i change said person. They are human too and they do unperfect things like us all. I Hope it gets better for you.
I've definitely encountered this fear, to the point where I actually burned that bridge out of paranoia. It's a terrible thing.
That sounds like an awesome plan Becky!
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I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.
You know when you have weird thoughts about a coworker and because you have OCD these thoughts really stick and you panic and feel sick? Yeah that’s me and I’ve struggled with having intrusive thoughts about my coworker and now he just got in a relationship with my coworker and my intrusive thoughts are WORSE I thought they would be better? And initially they were because I was relieved that he couldn’t be weird with me now because he has a girlfriend. But this is the thought that i cannot get over- my OCD is like you’re jealous that he doesn’t like you and he’s not with you instead and i envy this girl he is with. Why the fuck am I having these thoughts while I’m in a healthy relationship and love my boyfriend to DEATH- like I know he is my forever. I couldn’t look at him today because I’ve been obsessing over this thought I’ve had in work and now I have to find a new job I hope no one will judge me for these thoughts or maybe someone has had this weird thought before? :(
Where do I begin with this…….. so my OCD has been around since childhood and has had many themes over the years. I only realised I have it just over 2 years ago. I’ve tried many things to help it not be such a monster and thought I had a good grip on it for a length of time until now! Some of my strategies have been acceptance, change of perception of thoughts and sometimes on hard days just telling myself that no matter what, I have to be brave and go out and live life. In the last few months I’ve developed none OCD related anxiety as well and so have been looking at ways to help with that. Sunday morning I was just casually scrolling TikTok and a video only about 30 seconds long or so comes up, seemingly a therapist of some kind, straight away the video began something like “you cannot replace a thought with another thought” along the lines of “you can’t THINK your way out anxiety” I don’t know the full context of the video it wasn’t long enough, I don’t know who the therapist was I didn’t look but now purely because of that one sentence my OCD has gripped onto it so badly and is trying to tear down some of my strategies because I have used changing my thought patterns a lot to help me, self compassion etc but now because of that video I’m struggling! I’m not looking for answers but I am just really upset and it feels like I’m in an impossible grip of OCD again
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