mao
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HeythereHeythere
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- 5y
Yes, my rumination was driving me crazy especially when I tried to identify cognitive distortions. I needed to be on meds. I also needed additional care and people not reassuring me. Now, I'm able to pause and think if reassurance is helpful or not. I needed accountability. Also working with a therapist and understanding how to deal with those thoughts helped. Finally, some plain old common sense from my parents was helpful. Finally, y ou u sometimes have to slip and fall to learn common sense.
maomao
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- 5y
Do you think the meds helped you reach a threshold of common sense? I feel this strange urge to be perfect all the time, and somehow I feel as if I might have depleted all chemicals in my brain that regulate that balance...My mind has always been in the over control setting so much so that even snapping out of it seems like a fantasy at this point. I’ll say that I’m seriously considering alternative meds at this point to restore entropy-maybe increase it.
HeythereHeythere
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- 5y
You can go to a psychiatrist and be evaluated. They help my regulate my nervous system. I was anxious all the time or depressed a lot. To learn common sense I had to be punished and humbled by poor decisions. Usually talking and socializing with people helps you to grow. Going to a really good psychologist that has common sense and understands life, talking to your parents and asking for advice. Also reading books on perfection and learning skills. Sometimes life just sucks. Accepting that and our flaws and humanity helps.
maomao
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- 5y
Thanks for your support. I appreciate it.
nnickerson1776nnickerson1776
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- 5y
I deal with that a lot, mine is controlled by an internal voice so the harder I try to calm down the more I hear it getting louder
maomao
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I feel you man. It’s insane. Sometimes I wonder if this is normal. But I’m also aware that as long as we’re still alive, there’s hope.
nnickerson1776nnickerson1776
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- 5y
@mao I keep telling myself that since I beat it once I can do it again but it came back so much stronger
maomao
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- 5y
@nnickerson1776 If it helps a little, my CBT therapist recommended “Overcoming Unwanted Intrusive Thoughts,” but dude keep in touch-we can restore our sanities somehow we just have to be a little more patient.
maomao
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@nnickerson1776 Part of my obsession is with psychedelics because I feel like that is a way to restore our brains default settings, but it’s highly marginalized by my CBT therapist and psychiatrist.
nnickerson1776nnickerson1776
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@mao My main thing stems from my inner battle with trying to leave religion. Mental illness and religion go together like Coca Cola and mentos. It’s like I’m destined to be trapped in this loop
maomao
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- 5y
@nnickerson1776 I hear you. Try to do more productive stuff. I don’t know if meds worked for you, but if it hasn’t, I would just keep staying positive.
HeythereHeythere
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Np
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