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You’re not alone, I remember doing a few things and looking back thinking wow I was a pervert when I was a kid, but we can’t change the past. Just know you’re a good person and would never hurt anyone sexually or in any other way. If you’re suffering from guilt release yourself from it. Some days the guilt eats me alive and I feel like a bad person but I can’t be crucified for doing inappropriate things as a child, children don’t know any better. I wish I would have had more supervision and that my parents would have sat me down to discuss what was acceptable and not acceptable when it involved my body. But we can’t change the past we can only be good people now.
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Yes, I guess we just all have to remember that we were only kids at the time
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I remember kissing my younger brother as a very little kid and when it popped into my memory later in life I was so disturbed and thought I was a perverted child and then was nervous I disturbed my little brother even though he's never ever brought that up. I'm realizing more and more we were just little kids and kids get curious and also don't fully understand what there doing and were not trying to do these things as kids to cause others pain
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I am 20 too and started to come to my mind something I did when I was 10 or 12 too. ALL my family sleep together in the same Room and me and my older sister sleep on the same ver, what happens its that I disrespected her. She hás forgiven me and we are cool nowadays. But sometimes I have Memories of doing horrible things in that time, that Ive already spoken to my mim and my sister If It happen and nome of them confirmes, but I only feel guilty and regret for that, even tried suicide once
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A few years ago I started remembering all the 'playing doctors and nurses, il show you mine if you show me yours' I did as a kid and became convinced I was a deranged and dangerous pervert.... Its totally normal and common to have those experiences growing up and a normal part of development. I guess the thing is about forgiveness. If you found out you knew 10 year old was being curious about there body and others bodies, would you think they were sick perverts l, or just kids being kids and not knowing any better... Just as you were, forgive yourself, you did nothing wrong, you were just a kid
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Yes you’re completely right
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Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young 🫠 I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
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(20f) I have been dealing with severe OCD symptoms for as long as I can remember. I recently got diagnosed about a year ago, and even though I know that these thoughts are probably my ocd, I still cant shake them. Growing up I was always very sexually curious. I was sheltered from a lot of things, as I went to a private school and things like sexuality and sex were never talked about. I remember doing some weird sexual things growing up (never affecting another person), looking up taboo sexual things, etc. I always seemed to become aroused no matter what the situation was, even if I just saw someone getting changed. I have no recollection of being SA'd, so i'm wondering where this all came from? Was I just curious and wanted to experiment and try different things? Or am I really a pervert, pedophile, etc. I have all these thoughts racing through my head and it's killing me. Everything I did as a kid I look back on and am disgusted, as those don't align with my views at all today. I never thought growing up thinking these things were wrong, or actually realize what they were until I got older. I'd like to think it was just my curiosity, but i'm not sure. What if i'm in denial and actually do like these things? I just need to know if theres something wrong w me, I cant keep going on like this. Could really use some advice.
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Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!
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