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I’m also afraid that my family will abandon me bc of my thought content and that scares the shit out of me. ? I’m so scared of having a panic attack around them. Public stigma has always taught me to hide mental issues. It was looked down upon. It’s very hard to unlearn this and forgive myself for the thoughts I have and to know that it isn’t my fault. I didn’t ask for this. I believe that I do deserve love despite it. I do always feel I have to apologize for it though.
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Does anyone know your struggling with ocd?
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My fiancé does and so does my family, but not gritty details of it. I can share it with them. I share them with my therapist because he is an OCD specialist, but my family doesn’t have the mental bandwidth to understand the contents of my thoughts.
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@RSMs I can’t*
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@RSMs Haha I understand that but try and opening up even more. What I did was share with them so helpful posts and articles and it really helped them to understand.
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I can’t*
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@OCDone I have been considering that, but it terrifies me. I am afraid of being judged by them.
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@RSMs Please do it! I'm telling you it really helps bring you closer to them and they will respond better than u think
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yes absolutely. you voiced my thoughts. i feel compelled to be as open and honest as possible because thats just my nature, but now my OCD puts up this wall because i know the thoughts i have are not socially acceptable to just talk about at all. i kind of feel like it would be good exposure or at least acceptance for me if i had someone i could just tell my thoughts to as they come along and they could acknowledge them and we could move on with the certainty that i wont be judged for it.
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Ah! I hear you 100%
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I hear that. The dreams are not happening as often, but they did in the past and that was disturbing to wake up from them like WTF?!
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I’m sorry you’re experiencing this.
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this is excactly how i feel!
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I am starting to come to grips with intrusive thoughts, reading how your brain will think of the worst thing / or make you think of something that really distresses you. BUT, I’ve got something I need to get off my chest, not looking for reassurance but just to know I’m not alone I guess? I remember one time, I saw a girl I follow on Instagram go on a marathon, and then went straight out for dinner after without showering and I had the passing thought of, gosh she must smell, even worse, she must smell down there. That has got to be the worst intrusive thought EVER, and because it affected me so much, I have the urge to think of this horrible horrible thought most times I look at people. Wondering if they smell!!!! It’s disgusting!!!! :( I don’t know if this is because I also have contamination ocd and I do obsess about feeling and being clean.
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I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
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i’ve been dealing with this “thing” since i was 15. (i’m 23 now) if i have a bad memory that i have done when i was really young or just an intrusive thought i feel like i need to tell my mom or boyfriend. it’s been on and off ever since but since January hit it’s been an everyday thing about the littlest things. mostly about my relationship. an example is i was talking to someone random at my job and we were talking about taxes and when im in deep thought or just thinking i do a thing where i bite my lip (not in the sexual way) and i had a thought when it happened “was that sexual?” and i felt like i did something wrong and i went for a while thinking that until i told my boyfriend about it. or like my ex’s face has popped up in my head in the most inappropriate times and i feel the need that i have to tell him. (my ex was not a good person) i feel like im a prisoner in my head everyday, trying to justify thoughts or remind myself that its just a thought. i didnt know that this was or could be a form of ocd. it runs in my family but i’ve just never considered it being this. i always called it anxiety or depression but i always felt like it is more than that.
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