How were you diagnosed with OCD? In my country it's being very hard to find a specialist in OCD. I talked with a GP and a psychologist about my situation and they both assumed I am a bissexual in denial. I told about having OBSESSIVE THOUGHTS ALL THE TIME for over 3 years and the psychologist said that he was totally used to people being in the stage of changing their sexuality and being in doubts and obsessed over it. He also said he would not diagnose me with any pathology, but rather try to understand what I am feeling and thinking and find the links with past and current events, etc. Any tips?

I wish I could ?

I'm so so sorry if I caused offenses, I was just ranting against a fear of mine. The fear of a globalist takeover... My ocd has made me watch tons of conspiracy videos... left and right-leaning and even anarchist. I also read new age stuff and they were also talking about some kind of lgbtq+ agenda. I was (and sometimes still am) worrying that the gov is making people gay through tap water like Alex Jones said... and more "proof" to me (or my ocd, I really can't feel the difference) is the fact that so freakin much people here are talking about feeling attracted to the same sex... it's more than ever. I'm so freaked out that the theory could be true. I'm obsessing over information... from political ideologies to dog breeds, quantum mechanics and black holes. Even lookin at a video about gravity scares the sht out of me. My compulsions are fact-checking and reading articles debunking pseudoscience on RationalWiki. Oh the debate between Free Will and Materialistic Determinism...fml But that's just the tip of the iceberg. I also have magical thinking OCD and reading new age pseudoscience like "the law of attraction" made it worse. I'm afraid that I can influence weather with my thoughts, I'm afraid pronouncing certain words and not only that... My ocd even forbids me to think about some things and I can no longer write or walk on the street properly. I got thrown out of highschool bcs of very bad grades and if that wasn't enough this epidemic comes and makes me very suspicious about certain special interest at the higher levels of the society while feeling that it triggers my past contamination ocd. Oh, and I also have scrupulosity and a strange form of relationship ocd... It's more like a frustration seeing people who have a lot of friends, having fun, having a bf/gf (something I've never had... btw I'm almost 21), having pets, going to school/college, living a normal life... and I'm also scared to leave my room, very superstitious about clock and numbers and repeating certain parts of songs over and over again... Last but not least I get intrusive thoughts about the posibilty that people could steal information from my brain telepatically... No one from my family knows about my disorder and I don't do any therapy and also don't take antidepressants... I feel like my mind is gonna explode. You seem a very intelligent, kind and civilized person. May I ask you if we could talk about some things here?

@Crassus1 @Crassus1 Hi there, sorry to insert myself in here. I have OCD, so do some of my family members. One of them has OCD that has manifested much like yours has- I mean to say he worries about a lot of the same stuff. So, because of that, I simply wanted to say hi. I don’t know if you’re thinking about therapy, but it’s a great option. Have you thought about using the app therapist? Wish I could, but they aren’t available where I am yet. Also, I didn’t tell my family until I was grown. Most people in my life still don’t know. Those I did tell said they wished I’d told them sooner. It’s tough, just hope you know that you’re not alone.

@Color Guys thank you so much! Your suggestion of printing some articles and information is brilliant and I think I will do that! I will also try to reach some other therapists for different perspectives and to assess their knowledge regarding ocd and its subtypes. I told the therapist I mentioned that I had ocd episodes when I was a kid. I would be so affraid that my father died so I had to do a lot of compulsions. Also, just like Crassus, I had a time on which I could not hear music/television on odd numbers and some lyrics in regards to death I would also avoid. In the beginning of this hocd I was also affraid of the theory of attraction, because a friend of mine suggested it after I told her about the thoughts. When it comes to therapy, I also advise you Crassus to do it. I never did before and I am also self diagnosed, so I can't take much conclusions. I told my boyfriend 2 years ago about this condition because many times that I was with him, I just felt like crying and that I was not being honest about something. He was supportive and did not judge, but I couldn't tell my family. So one day, like 2 months ago, I was so overwhelmed that I arrived home crying and frustrated, saying that I hated my life and I was having a panic attack. My mom and sister were surprised and said that I shouldn't say that because I had achieved a lot in my life and "there was no reason to say those things", so I had to told them about this, because although I may seem I have the "perfect" life over the eye of others, in reality I was feeling hopeless. So to conclude, my advice for you is to tell someone you trust before it's to late, that it was in my case in which my family discovered in the most horrifying way. It is still very had for me to talk about it and I just talk with my sister. You can check NOCD website and there is an article with some advices on how to tell your family about this.

@Color Hi :)

@Itsme Hello :)

@Crassus1 Hi ?

They indeed do not have many knowledge regarding these subtypes of ocd, and many still think ocd is just cleaning. I wish I could use nocd therapists, but I live in Portugal. Where are you from?