i’m so mad! my hocd just comes out of nowhere and just stays no matter how hard i try. i just want to get rid of these thoughts forever i’m sick of them affecting my daily life!

Just agree with the thought and make it worse. By saying yup I’m totally gay, yup that’s one sexy ass motherfucker right there you’re so right hocd I really want to kiss this person. Hocd is an obsession when you have an obsession you’re going to think about it so just keep thinking about it and agreeing with it until your obsession passes and your mind drifts back to what is actually happening. It is a thought process that is triggered by what you fear as well as what you see and honestly without even knowing about it you can be triggered by something other than the exact thing you fear as well and you wouldn’t even know it. I get triggered by the actions I’m doing. Like for instance my thought process of Hocd gets triggered when I’m working out not from seeing someone because I workout in my room with nobody in there and because I’ve put it in my head to think about it when I workout I have the thought process to think about it during my entire workout and the only time it subsides is when the activity of the workout just makes me too tired to even think about it because my body is literally exhausted and my mind is focused on how tired I am than worrying about my Hocd. Obviously my OCD is really bad if something other than the actual thing you fear brings your attention to think about it but that’s just cuz I have been diagnosed with really bad OCD to where things other than my actual fear trigger my obsession this may not be the case for you. So just stop and think when your actually thinking about your hocd and note it and was it actually just caused because you saw the actual fear by seeing a person or did something else triggered your thought process? And again it is just a thought process you have put in your head and has nothing to do with your sexuality at all but because you have OCD that’s why you’re having an intrusive thought hope this helps.

Unfortunately the harder we try to push away the thoughts the stronger it stays. The best way is to see it as an Ocd thought and ignore it. It’s definitely easier said than done but when you react to it, you give that thought a meaning, an “importance”. If you see an ugly carpet you might think “ugly carpet” but you won’t think beyond that because you’re not putting any meanings or actions. And therefore the ugly carpet thought is just that. It doesn’t make you an ugly person. And the thought eventually dissipate.

This is exactly how I'm feeling right now! I was doing so well then out of the blue I'm back at it :(

That’s the nature of the beast I’m afraid.