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- 6y
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- 6y
Just agree with the thought and make it worse. By saying yup I’m totally gay, yup that’s one sexy ass motherfucker right there you’re so right hocd I really want to kiss this person. Hocd is an obsession when you have an obsession you’re going to think about it so just keep thinking about it and agreeing with it until your obsession passes and your mind drifts back to what is actually happening. It is a thought process that is triggered by what you fear as well as what you see and honestly without even knowing about it you can be triggered by something other than the exact thing you fear as well and you wouldn’t even know it. I get triggered by the actions I’m doing. Like for instance my thought process of Hocd gets triggered when I’m working out not from seeing someone because I workout in my room with nobody in there and because I’ve put it in my head to think about it when I workout I have the thought process to think about it during my entire workout and the only time it subsides is when the activity of the workout just makes me too tired to even think about it because my body is literally exhausted and my mind is focused on how tired I am than worrying about my Hocd. Obviously my OCD is really bad if something other than the actual thing you fear brings your attention to think about it but that’s just cuz I have been diagnosed with really bad OCD to where things other than my actual fear trigger my obsession this may not be the case for you. So just stop and think when your actually thinking about your hocd and note it and was it actually just caused because you saw the actual fear by seeing a person or did something else triggered your thought process? And again it is just a thought process you have put in your head and has nothing to do with your sexuality at all but because you have OCD that’s why you’re having an intrusive thought hope this helps.
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Thanks dawg
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- 6y
Unfortunately the harder we try to push away the thoughts the stronger it stays. The best way is to see it as an Ocd thought and ignore it. It’s definitely easier said than done but when you react to it, you give that thought a meaning, an “importance”. If you see an ugly carpet you might think “ugly carpet” but you won’t think beyond that because you’re not putting any meanings or actions. And therefore the ugly carpet thought is just that. It doesn’t make you an ugly person. And the thought eventually dissipate.
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- 6y
This is exactly how I'm feeling right now! I was doing so well then out of the blue I'm back at it :(
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- 6y
That’s the nature of the beast I’m afraid.
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- 24w
I feel awful that I keep coming on here whenever I’m down bad but oh my gosh OCD is the most painful shit that I have EVER experienced in my life and I have a physical chronic illness…. I hate to say it but I hate living right now it’s too painful… im crying as I type to the point where my stomach is hurting, I have pretty severe ocd I do have generalized anxiety and idk if that is connected with ocd but because of that I have most of the subtypes REAL EVENT OCD,POCD,ZOCD,ROCD,SOCD HARM OCD, you name it and I got it!!! a lot of also why I have have those theme is trauma growing up and involving those things^ as of right now i’m 25 and a women with the most loving boyfriend in the entire world before my ocd hit me I NEVER questioned my love and care and attraction with the love of my life I always knew I was going to marry and be with this person the rest of my life! Now with ocd it confuses me soooo much and now I think I’m gay and didn’t realize or indenial and listen I get it “don’t look for reassurance!” “It’s not the thing ocd is attacking that is the problem ocd is the actual problem!” Here’s the thing with that if I’m in a relationship and I’m gay that would mean I would have to leave that said relationship and to say that “oh yeah that stuff happens and you’ll move on” is absolutely devastating to me this is THE LOVE OF MY LIFE and your telling me that iv been lying to myself this whole time or that I didn’t realize?!?!? And that sexuality can change (even though some say it can’t google says otherwise and some people have said it can’t idek anymore) and all this other BULLSHIT I can’t take it WHY?!?! why does this have to happen why can’t I just be with my love the rest of my life?!? and yes before anyone says anything I have been attracted to girls more so when I was younger watching lesbian porn liking the body’s and fantazing them sexually it stopped when I got older but I still don’t get disgusted with women who are pretty it just makes me uncomfortable because I’m with the love of my life and before I remember talking to my partner and discussing certain childhood things I experienced and we discussed that we both could be a little bi and for certain I’m (demi sexual so I don’t even really care about looks) and I truly didn’t care!! NOW I do care even with being bi because again I don’t like thinking about anyone else but my partner but I do also know my parents are homophobic and I do think about if I am gay they wouldn’t be okay with that and I also dont want to deal with that so now I sound like in indenial right?!???? I didn’t even care about labels before my ocd it just didn’t matter but now it’s effected my sex life and it’s hard for me to enjoy sex with being so confused I’m so confused I googled everything can you still have sexual fantasies with same gender but still be straight? Can you fantasize about same gender or imagine marrying them all of it !!! And non of that disgusts me it just makes me uncomfortable AGIAN only bc I just love the partner I’m with right now!!! I’m so fucking confused do I have to leave my partner and accept that I’m gay is that going to happen in the future if I get better with ocd and find out it’s been true all along?!???
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- 14w
man these few weeks have been so hard. i’m in the process of getting diagnosed with ocd, im almost positive i have it because everything on here relates to me on an insane level. but im just so scared dude. these thoughts of me harming someone are so scary and im so scared im gonna eventually act on them and i know i never want to but its still so scary. like sometimes when i talk to my mom about it i think in the back of my head “you know you want to” when i dont, and it makes me think or gets me scared that i do. these thoughts literally just happened out of nowhere and it messes me up so bad my literal perspective on life in general is just messed up. like i view life as its more common to be a bad person and its rare/hard to be good. can someone please just pray for me or just wish me better days. i dont even like looking at myself anymore and im scared i give off creepy vibes to myself or others now, this sucks so much
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- 13w
As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
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