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Im going through the same thing rn
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I feel like I don’t care about being with the same sex but then I do
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Same man same. I just don’t wanna be with a girl but I’m scared I do and I’m repressing it. Cause I’m now suddenly uncomfortable around boys when I’m normally friends with all And I’ve been really like attracted to guys lately and then I get scared when I’m feeling like that it’s also with girls Like I’m scared I like guys in my head and the thought sounds nice but not real life:( But girls I’m more comfortable around rn but I see them as sisters?? Like ever since I was a kid I’d be like “now we’re sisters cause we’re so close” Idk I’m rlly scared I’m attracted to girls and just repressing ti
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@hate_ocd.123 yeah me too , except for me i get nervous around grls because im scared i might like them
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@hate_ocd.123 I don’t know what’s real literally don’t know
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@Jas I know how you feel. I get nervous sometimes too that I may like them or I wouldn’t mind doing stuff but the whole thing I’ve come to realize is I don’t want to and I’m going to chose what I want to do and what I don’t want to
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SAMEEEEEEE
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I felt this way for a long time but not being anxious or bothered is a good thing it means it’s just a thought . I know it’s easier said than done because I have severe TOCD right now and it’s a monster .... it’s so discomforting to the point I wake up out of my sleep wanting to cry and sometimes I feel like I act like a boy or a boy trying hard to be a woman but because I do ERP I know they are just thoughts .... it’s scary because my womanhood is the absolute most important thing to me so it’s hard but I don’t get anxious as much because I know I will never act on my TOCD . Also OCD can be very illogical at times so pay close attention to that. All will be well you guys we are strong people ❤️❤️❤️❤️
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I think this is our OCD’s way of trying to hold on to us even as we’re starting to get better. Not feeling anxious about your thoughts probably means you’ve done a good job of accepting the uncertainty. But OCD wants us to stay anxious, so it’ll then make us anxious about the fact that we don’t feel anxious lol it’s the worst. OCD is always gonna try to find a loophole! I saw another post where someone said their therapist told them that every thought you have related to your theme is OCD - framing it that way has definitely helped me!
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Pocd feels real again and I can’t tell if I’m actually attracted or not. can’t believe it got this bad again. I used to be able to go “no I don’t like that, go away” and now it feels like I do like it and want it, and it’s starting to linger longer so it feels more real. I’m avoiding checking but I’m so scared that what if it’s true. Is it because I have not been doing my exposures? I’m not sure, but every time a 14 year old person comes to my head, I keep hearing something go “they’re attractive” and it sounds like me so I panic, and it makes me even more scared because I’m not feeling bad about it??? I saw some kid at Walmart that had long black hair and my brain kept saying shit and no matter how much I say I don’t feel that way, it won’t shut up, i want to check 1000 times to make sure. But I know it’s not worth it. I’m trying so hard
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I feel so sad, alone, scared and hopeless. Until two months ago there was not even the remote possibility of being anything other than heterosexual and now the idea that I could find out that I was lesbian or bisexual terrifies me to death. Everything was born from the fact that I didn't feel sexual desire towards my ex-boyfriend and I started to be afraid that it was because I was a lesbian... how can I be a lesbian or bisexual if everything was born from this? I would like to run away from myself and my head. I would really like to go back and go back to my life before. I can't take it anymore. I just want to live my life like before
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I’ve had so many moments of clarity with my OCD that I love my boyfriend and I’m beyond willing to go through this to be better and be with him. in the back of mind I’ve in a way known I was at least somewhat sexually attracted to women (I’m a woman) since the start of the ocd it was always like “okay. Fine, but I don’t want to date a girl” I only just realized this after the ocd started, I never really argued with this. my ocd has always revolved around if I’m romantically interested in women and not men. I’ve done so many compulsions through this year and a half and 9 times out of 10 have come to the conclusion that I don’t want to be with a woman romantically. I always end up feeling like I know I love my boyfriend. But the doubts don’t stop about whether I want to spend my life with a woman instead, my heart literally breaks to think of not being with my bf and imagining him with someone else. I don’t want to be with a woman I know deep down somewhere underneath the anxiety that that’s not what I want. It doesn’t feel natural for me, unfulfilling. I want to tell my boyfriend about the possible sexual attraction to women (ik it’s still ocd related) but I’m scared that once I tell him, I’ll realize that I actually do want to be with women and not with him. Ugh I’ve spent hours today ruminating about this after being solid in my commitment with him for a little while, I’m stuck in this loop and idk how to get out right now
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