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- hate_ocd.123
- Date posted
- 4y ago
- Username
- Jas Jas
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Im going through the same thing rn
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- Jas Jas
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I feel like I don’t care about being with the same sex but then I do
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- hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Same man same. I just don’t wanna be with a girl but I’m scared I do and I’m repressing it. Cause I’m now suddenly uncomfortable around boys when I’m normally friends with all And I’ve been really like attracted to guys lately and then I get scared when I’m feeling like that it’s also with girls Like I’m scared I like guys in my head and the thought sounds nice but not real life:( But girls I’m more comfortable around rn but I see them as sisters?? Like ever since I was a kid I’d be like “now we’re sisters cause we’re so close” Idk I’m rlly scared I’m attracted to girls and just repressing ti
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- Jas Jas
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@hate_ocd.123 yeah me too , except for me i get nervous around grls because im scared i might like them
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- Jas Jas
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@hate_ocd.123 I don’t know what’s real literally don’t know
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- hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
- Date posted
- 4y ago
@Jas I know how you feel. I get nervous sometimes too that I may like them or I wouldn’t mind doing stuff but the whole thing I’ve come to realize is I don’t want to and I’m going to chose what I want to do and what I don’t want to
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- holleyholley
- Date posted
- 4y ago
SAMEEEEEEE
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- ShiningBrightShiningBright
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I felt this way for a long time but not being anxious or bothered is a good thing it means it’s just a thought . I know it’s easier said than done because I have severe TOCD right now and it’s a monster .... it’s so discomforting to the point I wake up out of my sleep wanting to cry and sometimes I feel like I act like a boy or a boy trying hard to be a woman but because I do ERP I know they are just thoughts .... it’s scary because my womanhood is the absolute most important thing to me so it’s hard but I don’t get anxious as much because I know I will never act on my TOCD . Also OCD can be very illogical at times so pay close attention to that. All will be well you guys we are strong people ❤️❤️❤️❤️
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- ellahellah
- Date posted
- 4y ago
I think this is our OCD’s way of trying to hold on to us even as we’re starting to get better. Not feeling anxious about your thoughts probably means you’ve done a good job of accepting the uncertainty. But OCD wants us to stay anxious, so it’ll then make us anxious about the fact that we don’t feel anxious lol it’s the worst. OCD is always gonna try to find a loophole! I saw another post where someone said their therapist told them that every thought you have related to your theme is OCD - framing it that way has definitely helped me!
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- iwillbealright
- Date posted
- 5y ago
The thoughts are oh so bad again. I even can get turned on by the thought of being sexual with a girl but I really don’t want it. ( I’m a girl ). At least I don’t think I do. I looked up questioning sexuality and it said THIS MAY TRIGGER YOU— it said that if you fear it, it may be because you want it because “sexual attraction can be scary”. I don’t want to be with a girl but I feel like lately that’s all I can think about. I can’t even get turned on or get off ( sorry TMI maybe ) to the opposite sex but I can so easily with the same sex even though I don’t really want to. This is so scary I’m not sure what to do.
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- Itsgonnabeokay
- Date posted
- 5y ago
My anxiety is pretty much gone...the thoughts are not...here’s the thoughts I’m having... -it’s not hocd this time, it’s the real thing -omg you’re attracted to your friend you’ve known for 18 years and you’re just now realizing it -when you see your boyfriend you’re gonna realize you don’t love him because you’re a lesbian -then I get intrusive thoughts about kissing girls...over and over and over again The hardest part is that the anxiety is gone so I don’t know if these are real thoughts...what if they are? What if I’m lying to myself? What if every boy I have ever fallen for in the past was just a cover? What if one day I’ll wake up and decide that men just don’t do it for me anymore? But I love them. I always have. The broad shoulders, the big arms, the height, the scent, the feeling of a boner on my butt while we spoon (so sorry tmi moment), I’ve loved them since I was 3! What the hell happened?
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- aurokoi
- Date posted
- 4y ago
Thinking about relationships makes me feel so bad. At this point both men and women trigger this obsession with trying to figure out what my sexuality is. I don’t really want to date anyone, I’ve been okay with this for over a year, and it’s not like I’ve been completely detached from the lgtbqia community. Like, I know lesbians and other wlw and for a long time I thought I was like bi (I think I’m honestly more aro than I realized), and I haven’t thought much, but ever since I realized I don’t want to share my future with anyone it’s like my brain is screeeeaming that this just means I’m a lesbian, when that’s never been a thought that crossed my mind. It’s definitely been better for me lately when I started cutting out compulsions and all that, but I’m still undiagnosed and I don’t know for sure what exactly is happening to me. If I was a lesbian I’d accept myself, but it’s the fact that it feels SO BAD when I think about it that makes me feel like I need to figure it out even more. Like is it anxiety because I don’t like it or anxiety because it’s like internalized homophobia? And it’s like omg I need to figure it out otherwise I’m just living a lie and I won’t ever be happy. I’ll get flashes of anxiety when I’m just watching a movie or a YouTube video about a boy band I like... and it throws things from the lesbian masterdoc in my face about how I had crushes on fictional characters and celebrities and how that’s something that lesbians do because it’s ‘safer’ to crush on unobtainable men. And it just feels bad bc I know I’ve had crushes on guys that were my friends too but I also have a lot of trauma and I wasn’t allowed to date growing up so that’s what I did to actually explore romance. When the anxiety spikes it makes me feel as if it was all a sign. What’s worse is that I started looking to aromanticism before I read the doc and there’s this bit about how some lesbians think they’re aro bc they don’t like men but never explore their attraction to women either and it’s like ahhhh what’s the truth. I don’t know anymore. Not thinking about it makes me antsy, & the second my anxiety spikes it’s hard to do anything during the rest of the day. I don’t want to think about falling in love and having relationships, I miss when I was just living life in the moment. I miss not thinking twice about when I found a guy attractive, or even a girl. Like it just makes my brain hurt so bad.
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