I’m so scared I’m a lesbian again I still don’t want it bc tho but for some reason the thoughts font make me as uncomfortable or anxious as they once did Barely even at all And that makes me feel like I’m actually a lesbian and as I’ve been getting better it’s coming out Ughhhhh why:/ But I still don’t want it and at the same time am still uncomfortable at the thought of it like I just got uncomfy and anxious rn Smh

Sexual Orientation OCD

Jas

Date posted: 5y

Im going through the same thing rn

Jas

Date posted: 5y

I feel like I don’t care about being with the same sex but then I do

hate_ocd.123

Date posted: 5y

Same man same. I just don’t wanna be with a girl but I’m scared I do and I’m repressing it. Cause I’m now suddenly uncomfortable around boys when I’m normally friends with all And I’ve been really like attracted to guys lately and then I get scared when I’m feeling like that it’s also with girls Like I’m scared I like guys in my head and the thought sounds nice but not real life:( But girls I’m more comfortable around rn but I see them as sisters?? Like ever since I was a kid I’d be like “now we’re sisters cause we’re so close” Idk I’m rlly scared I’m attracted to girls and just repressing ti

Jas

Date posted: 5y

@hate_ocd.123 yeah me too , except for me i get nervous around grls because im scared i might like them

Jas

Date posted: 5y

@hate_ocd.123 I don’t know what’s real literally don’t know

hate_ocd.123

Date posted: 5y

@Jas I know how you feel. I get nervous sometimes too that I may like them or I wouldn’t mind doing stuff but the whole thing I’ve come to realize is I don’t want to and I’m going to chose what I want to do and what I don’t want to

holley

Date posted: 5y

SAMEEEEEEE

ShiningBright

Date posted: 5y

I felt this way for a long time but not being anxious or bothered is a good thing it means it’s just a thought . I know it’s easier said than done because I have severe TOCD right now and it’s a monster .... it’s so discomforting to the point I wake up out of my sleep wanting to cry and sometimes I feel like I act like a boy or a boy trying hard to be a woman but because I do ERP I know they are just thoughts .... it’s scary because my womanhood is the absolute most important thing to me so it’s hard but I don’t get anxious as much because I know I will never act on my TOCD . Also OCD can be very illogical at times so pay close attention to that. All will be well you guys we are strong people ❤️❤️❤️❤️

ellah

Date posted: 5y

I think this is our OCD’s way of trying to hold on to us even as we’re starting to get better. Not feeling anxious about your thoughts probably means you’ve done a good job of accepting the uncertainty. But OCD wants us to stay anxious, so it’ll then make us anxious about the fact that we don’t feel anxious lol it’s the worst. OCD is always gonna try to find a loophole! I saw another post where someone said their therapist told them that every thought you have related to your theme is OCD - framing it that way has definitely helped me!

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