My gecko died, I knew it was coming, she's been sick for awhile. It's still horrible, but I don't feel emtionally sad like I should and my thoughts seem worse. I cried some but I felt empty like I do now....I don't know how ocd related it is but i really hate I'm not feeling how I should..

Idk how much experience you have with loss, but there's no 'should' when it comes to your emotions. That's a general rule which is helpful for OCD anyway, but it also applies in particular to grieving. It comes as and when is pleases, we don't have control over it. You'll feel sad or angry or guilty or whatever else, just as and when those feelings come. I've lost family and felt basically nothing for YEARS until my general stress levels went down enough for the feelings to appear.

Keep going love. Remember that OCD latches on to what we love. Try to give it time for the sadness to lessen a little, and ocd will be easier to manage, it usually is for me

Hey! I’m so sorry to here that, it’s never easy to lose a pet you love. In 2017 my cat died and I loved her unconditionally..she was my best friend. I didn’t really cry or anything at first, of course I was sad, but I too felt guilty for not feeling the way I felt that I should feel. I then learned that it’s part of the grieving process and it’s normal to feel guilt for something like that. Also a part of me new she was going to pass too and when it happened, it wasn’t a shock to me and I was happy she wasn’t suffering anymore (she was really sick). There is no right or wrong way how to grieve. I hope this helps and again I’m sorry for your loss❤️

this was so sad to read :/ try and sit with the uncomfortable and very intense emotion without compulsions...sit with the feeling, you can handle it and you can do this! I hope you can greive without the rude interruption of ocd or compulsions.

This same thing happened when my sister and my estranged mom passed. I was just numb. When I saw my sister in her casket, that's when I lost it. After a day or so after hearing the news of my mom, I cried so much that night. Your body is in shock, it may take a while for your tears to make an appearance.

I’m a huge believer that there’s no particular way a person “should,” feel. Let yourself feel how you feel without judgement.

I'm so sorry to hear this. I know how much you love animals, especially your own pets. Try not to judge your reaction one way or the other. May I ask your gecko' s name?