I took a psychopath checklist test and it said I had traits but am not a psychopath....still concerned about feeling empathy, guilt, remorse etc because of feeling so foggy and emtionally numb... I know it was a compulsion, I'm sorry..

What to do when we feel guilty about our ocd checking and compulsive behaviors?

hello everybody! 🔞 last saturday i did something i shouldn't have done, and i even posted about it here, but no one responded to my post (it's okay, i completely understand). to inform you, since i deleted the post: i consumed erotic literature where two 14 year old children had a relationship (☠️), on wattpad. and i consumed this theme to see if i was really attracted to it..i think. i'm unsure about it, but i know i didn't feel anything consuming it. i was feeling extremely anxious and felt extremely bad the next day, and i only got better when i talked to my girlfriend and an online friend. i'm still feeling bad, i know i shouldn't have done it and whenever i'm feeling genuinely good, it comes back to haunt me.. i'm worried because i'm not feeling enough guilt or remorse, idk.. i feel bad and i regret it, and i can't stand going through this problem anymore.. i was in therapy a few months ago, but i stopped for financial reasons and my psychologist doesn't see me virtually anymore. it's been difficult.. just a vent.

Hello. I am diagnosed with ocd. I am really struggling right now, because I have this fear that my partner is a psychopath. He is a kind man and never hurt me, but I see some evidences, for example he said that he couldn't really feel deep emotions. Sometimes he struggles with feeling the other people emotions but his cognitive empathy is very good, cognitively he understands the emotions, so he helps people a lot (but what is he only helps because he want to be a hero??) And he said that it is weird for him, when peolpe are very emotional, and he is proud that he is always calm and could decide without the influence of emotions. And he could be easily bored, and he likes adrenaline. He is also very very smart, and he knows this very well. I have never seen him manipulate someone else, and I don't feel that he controlles me ( or am I just not recognizing it??) He let me do my own things, he is not jealous, not abusive etc. But a lot of small things are like the characteristic of psychopaths. So I am not afraid that he will kill me or something, I just have this fear that there is something that I don't see about him and I don't know his true personality. I am very anxious, that the past 2 and a half year was a LIE. Please someone help me, this is killing me!