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- 6y
- Date posted
- 6y
Hi ! No judgement here. I completely understand you. I constantly feel like I have to tell on myself all the time. Often, if something has happened throughout the day that I feel I may have done something wrong or inappropriate, then I have this immense urge to tell people about it and get reassurance that it’s not as bad as I think, or just to tell them so that I can have a weight lifted off my chest. I do this all the time, you are not alone.
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- 6y
I tell on myself constantly. You’re seeking reassurance by telling on yourself in a sense. Try really hard not to do it. No matter how hard it is.
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- 6y
Awww thank you !! You seem really sweet too !! Awww, half you feel better. Yeah, it really does ??
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- 6y
Yasmin, Thank you!! This just lifted a weight off of my shoulders. You worded that perfectly. Like shoot, its just a bad habit I can kick, it’s not the end of the world. For some reason though, it feels like I need to confess that I have this habit so someone can tell me it’s okay. I already know they would say it’s not the end of the world, so why do I feel like I have to still admit it? You saying I’m not alone in telling on myself is so much appreciated. I seek so much reassurance, and i don’t know why but I just do. Again, thank you
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- 6y
I’m so glad it’s made you feel better ! This app is so great for that, I posted something today that I’ve really been struggling with and couldn’t tell anyone about, but getting someone talking to me has made me feel a little better. I get the feeling of wanting to tell people about that too ! I am always seeking reassurance for everything, and I subsequently snowball it into this massive thing. You’re so welcome ! You can talk to me any time, I completely understand you and know how frustrating it is. OCD sucks.
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- 6y
Thank you!! The same goes to you! I just broke though and told my friend, and she’s so great so she doesn’t judge me and knows how my brain works, but I feel bad adding that to our friendship. I shouldn’t have to tell people things like that, especially my friends ya know? It’s weird and now I’m embarrassed.
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- 6y
Thank you ! Well it’s great that you have such a supportive friend ! I know how you feel, it can make you feel really bad for telling friends something like this because it’s so big and scary, but I think the thing you have to remember is that we have these people in our lives for a reason. Your friend sounds like she really cares about you, so I’m sure that she doesn’t mind you telling her at all. Did you tell her just then ? And don’t feel like you should be embarrassed, although it may not feel like it, what you’re going through is not anything to be ashamed of. Right now, it’s part of who you are, and showing that part of yourself is not bad, it’ll just show you who the true friends in your life are. True friends will not see this as a bad thing x
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- 6y
Ah! You’re so sweet!! Thank you!!!
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- 6y
Yeah I had just told her, and I felt better. OCD sucks ?
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- 6y
*glad* not half.
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- Date posted
- 19w
I have recently entered a phase of extremely obsessive thoughts of every mistake I’ve ever made. Things from over a decade ago, things that happened recently, or even things currently happening like my own thoughts and feelings that I have no control over. Ever since I was little I have been a habitual liar. For the most part, I just tell little white lies or exaggerated stories. I even lie about things that don’t matter at all, like if I’ve seen a certain movie or something. But I have also lied about some serious things, like bad things happening to me, like abuse or SA. (DISCLAIMER - I’ve never accused anyone of these things to the police or anything like that). I hate that I’ve done this and I feel so disgusted with my behavior. I’ve been obsessing over this and unable to forgive myself or feel better about doing this. I feel like such a sick human being. I know most of the reasons for why I lie—attention, sympathy, to seem more interesting, to relate to someone, or to even pretend that my life is better than it is. I never ever have any bad intentions when I lie, but I know that doesn’t mean a whole lot. Sometimes I lie so naturally that I don’t even realize it, and sometimes I lie to the point that I actually believe what I’m saying. Somethings wrong with me and I don’t want to be this way anymore. I hate myself and I feel like I’m being tortured with this guilt. I feel like I don’t deserve to ever feel better because this is a result of my own actions. I have a group of girl friends that I met online that I’ve known for about 3 years. I lied about and insinuated that bad things had happened to me to them, because I wanted to relate to them and maybe because I wanted sympathy. I was actually emotionally abused by my ex, and he did kind of get physical with me one time (if I’m remembering correctly, but my OCD doubts if that even actually happened), but I have exaggerated and said that I was abused physically. I also have portrayed my life to be completely different than it is, because I hate my life and I like to pretend that things are better than they are. In a way, I feel like it’s a form of escapism. When I talk to them, I can pretend that I’m a different person. A more interesting, less pathetic, and more relatable person. I’ve lied to them so much that I can’t even begin to remember them all, and I feel so disgusted by myself, and the guilt of this is adding onto my other debilitating guilt. I can’t stop obsessing over it and I feel like I’m an awful person for this. I feel like I don’t deserve to feel better. I’m unable to function, and I can’t forgive myself no matter what. I know that if I confess to them, they’ll be disgusted by my behavior and not want to speak to me again. Especially because I lied about things that are so sensitive. And they’re perfectly within their right to feel that way and to reject me. I don’t know if I can handle the rejection and stress of confessing at this moment in time. I also just can’t even remember all of my lies. But if I keep talking to them, I’ll have to upkeep my lies, and I know I’ll never get better if I keep having to lie. None of my lies have caused them any actual harm, most of my lies are harmless, and it’s not like I’ll ever actually meet them in person, but I feel like I’ve gone against my morals, and I know that it was wrong. Even though my ex is an awful person and put me through hell, I feel bad that I’ve told these girls online that he’d abused me when he actually hasn’t (other than the one time he sorta got physical with me). He even has been going around telling people things about me and degrading me, and this has been going on for nearly 10 years. But I know it was wrong to lie about that regardless of what he’s done or what he’s actively doing to me. The girls don’t have his full name or info or anything like that, they just know his first name and that he’s my ex and that he “physically abused” me. I don’t ever lie out of malice. My dad is a pathological liar and he’s never received help, and I feel like I’ve learned his behavior. I especially feel bad because one of my online friends gave me an extremely expensive gift for my birthday last October, and I didn’t ask for it or anything or manipulate her into giving it to me, but I feel awful that she gave me a gift when I’ve lied about so many things. It’s also not something I can give back since it was an online thing, and I genuinely don’t have the money to pay her back. I feel like I’ve been living a lie and that it’s unfair to them. I am so so scared to tell the truth. I think I’d be less scared if I was only admitting it to one person, but I’d be admitting it to three. I know that they’ll think I’m terrible, disgusting, and that they’ll hate me, and then they’ll probably talk about how awful I am with each other. Which is perfectly justified. I just am so scared of it. I’m in a really bad state of mind. I can’t function and all I do all day is lay around and obsess over all my mistakes. I know the lying is out of my control to a certain extent and that I have a problem and mental illness, but I still can’t forgive myself. I feel disgusting and awful and like I’m a bad person and no matter what I do, I’m reminded of it. I feel like I’m going crazy and that I deserve to feel this way for what I’ve done. And I feel hopeless because I feel like I won’t ever feel better from this unbearable state unless I confess, but I really don’t feel like I’m ready. Every day I become more and more certain that I’m terrible.
- Date posted
- 18w
Less than a year ago, I had a very big anxiety flare up to the point that I felt as though I needed to report to the police / harm myself. I ended up leaving an anonymous tip at the police hotline about something that I know I didn’t even do but everything told me I had to or else I will go to jail. And similarly after that I called the help line and explained I had unwanted intrusive thoughts and I didn’t think I deserved to live for having those thoughts. After these many months and working with my therapist, I’ve been able to feel a lot less anxious around this topic and now I’m getting lots of anxiety about what I did that time when I was so anxious. I gave in to my compulsions and confessed for stuff that I know sounds bad saying out loud but only certain people will understand I would never do. So now I’m just looking for someone to relate and perhaps let me know that I don’t have anything to worry about? I know it’s bad to seek reassurance but I’m not sure where to go. And I’m worried I’m going to keep incriminating myself.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 17w
Why why WHY do I feel the need to constantly overshare?! It’s making me feel guilty af! If my boyfriend tells me something in confidence but my ocd twists what’s said into some crazy big problem I feel the need to run to my mom for reassurance, it’s getting to the point where he doesn’t trust me not to talk about stuff and I don’t want him to feel like that obviously!! But it’s like I can’t stop! Does anyone else have that? How do you stop it?
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