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hey please don’t hurt yourself. you sound like you are in a lot of pain. eventually you will feel better, one way or another. if you need to vent we all are hear for you. are you safe right now?
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i’m curled up in my shower and i’m just so exhausted.. i really don’t want to be gay or bi i want to go back to being me again i want to be boy crazy again i literally can’t do this anymore
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@val ʚĭɞ i feel you. you are so loved. take it one day at a time <3
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@zeep thank you so much:( i just haven’t felt such a need to just bawl my eyes out for a whole month and i guess the waterworks decided to just let them go for tonight.
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my whole life feels like a lie now. i can’t recall any of my crushes and it keep putting the spotlight on the time i ‘liked’ a girl, when i didn’t. i ddint feel any sort of romantic or sexual attraction, i just wanted to be her friend. i did tell her that i ‘liked’ her but that same day i realized that i didn’t like her that way and i ddint feel the same way i felt about boys. This was 5 fucking years ago and i’ve changed so much. it’s using the lack of relationships too against my own will. i’m so tired.
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iamsafe thank you and i know that this will pass but my brain is literally laughing at me and i just can’t deal with any of this anymore i wish i could just forget the past 5 months filled w this and move on but it’s just going to be stuck there until i look for actual help
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Hello, I know its hard but please take some deep breaths and remind yourself of the good things about yourself, get a pen and doodle on your body please you may be struggling a little more than others but that does not mean your any less worth it. I'm a previous self harmer and If you want to talk feel free to reply to this, if you need more private help and feel silly saying anything I'll give you my email and email you my name for some form of social media platform so we can have a more private chat, be brave and remember breath you're not in this alone so many people care even if your brain is blinding you from that❤️
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Even a pen and paper any unwanted thoughts about whatever, write them down and rip it up and throw it away, just keep in mind thoughts are like paper they come and go but eventually a new piece(thought) comes breath deeply and remember it'll pass and you'll be the brave one who coped with something many with a easy life couldn't you are brave and strong you're just not in the right place to see it yet
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@Abbeylee thank you thank you thank you. i need this. it’s like i’ve taken all my life for granted up til’ now, and i just wish i could go back. i’ve actually thought about writing them down and then just getting the paper wet and tear it up. it’s just satisfying for me.
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@val ʚĭɞ Sorry I didn't put my comment In the reply, I hope you're okay😊x
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Please please I promise everything will get better hang in there a little longer ❤️
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There's no need to thank me I understand what the feeling of being alone is like, when you feel that ask yourself why worry about your past just to ruin your future worrying, past is the past it'll never be changed only you can learn from them mistakes and create a new path to forget your old path. Life may seem like a vicious circle now but thats because of the thoughts life isn't vicious your self thoughts are, whatever helps you, if that's satisfying for you do it, do it whenever you feel this way, we all take life for granted that's just humans and the way we are, we don't realise what we have until we loose it but learn from each mistake you make pick yourself up and make the most of what you have I know its easier said than done but soon enough it'll be as easy as a hobby
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I am so sorry that you feel this way. please keep fighting, I know this is very tough.
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i’m trying so hard. i’m currently in my shower bawling my eyes out and my phone is getting wet. i don’t want this anymore.
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I wish it wasn’t this hard.
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I’m struggling so bad. I actually started getting better but now my thoughts are back. I feel like I can’t do anything, watch a movie “oh you’re turned on by that”, go out shopping “oh you’re trying to look pretty for her”. Like what???? My brain just won’t stop!!!!!! It’s making me so depressed, I just feel like I’m about to lose it. I’m happily married, and absolutely in love with my husband. But my brain keeps saying “you’re gay! You’re bi” whatever. I’m so tired guys, I feel so alone, and this has been going on for months…
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I cant afford therapy which is why i’m not diagnosed with ocd. The first time i had heard what ocd was truly abt was 6 years ago when i overthinking my sexual identity and it fit. Additionally, i struggle with debilitating health anxiety and when i was in a rlt i was extremely anxious that i might not love my partner. This is the third year i experience distress around my sexuality but this year it feels real. And it could also explain my rlt anxiety. Comphet is a concept that really scares me. I dont want to be with a girl. I would rather die than discover i was lesbian. I cant accept uncertainty cz i dont want to be homosexual. Chat GPT told me it wasnt ocd + the thoughts dont distress me anymore. I experience 3 intense weeks of anxiety prior to now. Maybe its internalized homophobia. Maybe its comphet. I do find women to be attractive but i dont wanna be with them. Maybe i’m in denial. Idk anything anymore. I’m remembering times where i would find an actress attractive and try to shift my focus towards the man cz it would make me anxious. I’m not well at all.
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I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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