at this point i thought of ending it all. i can’t go to therapy, i’m trying so hard. i think i’m starting to develop self-harm ocd, since i’m having constant thoughts of hurting myself. my brain hurts. i don’t want to be with a woman. i want to get married to a guy but my mind keeps telling me that i don’t. i don’t even know what my gut is telling me anymore. it’s like my mind is hushing it out. i can’t deal with this anymore.

hey please don’t hurt yourself. you sound like you are in a lot of pain. eventually you will feel better, one way or another. if you need to vent we all are hear for you. are you safe right now?

my whole life feels like a lie now. i can’t recall any of my crushes and it keep putting the spotlight on the time i ‘liked’ a girl, when i didn’t. i ddint feel any sort of romantic or sexual attraction, i just wanted to be her friend. i did tell her that i ‘liked’ her but that same day i realized that i didn’t like her that way and i ddint feel the same way i felt about boys. This was 5 fucking years ago and i’ve changed so much. it’s using the lack of relationships too against my own will. i’m so tired.

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Hello, I know its hard but please take some deep breaths and remind yourself of the good things about yourself, get a pen and doodle on your body please you may be struggling a little more than others but that does not mean your any less worth it. I'm a previous self harmer and If you want to talk feel free to reply to this, if you need more private help and feel silly saying anything I'll give you my email and email you my name for some form of social media platform so we can have a more private chat, be brave and remember breath you're not in this alone so many people care even if your brain is blinding you from that❤️

Please please I promise everything will get better hang in there a little longer ❤️

There's no need to thank me I understand what the feeling of being alone is like, when you feel that ask yourself why worry about your past just to ruin your future worrying, past is the past it'll never be changed only you can learn from them mistakes and create a new path to forget your old path. Life may seem like a vicious circle now but thats because of the thoughts life isn't vicious your self thoughts are, whatever helps you, if that's satisfying for you do it, do it whenever you feel this way, we all take life for granted that's just humans and the way we are, we don't realise what we have until we loose it but learn from each mistake you make pick yourself up and make the most of what you have I know its easier said than done but soon enough it'll be as easy as a hobby

I am so sorry that you feel this way. please keep fighting, I know this is very tough.

I wish it wasn’t this hard.