Just talked to my therapist and he said that I'll have to accept that I'll live the rest of my life with that thought. Although it seems extremely unsatisfying, it may be the only thing that really works. I've been discussing my fear from every angle and every time I feel relief, the doubts come back after a short time. So I can't solve it. I can't forget it. I can't tell it because it probably will be a compulsion and it would only hurt my partner. But I feel so disgusted by myself. Like I am making my OCD up to not have to tell my bf the truth about my stupid thoughts...

So honestly the worst part of (what I think is) my OCD is the "groinal syndrome"... My intrusive thoughts were fading, but now all the doubt is creeping back in because of it. I know that I'm not what my thoughts try and persuade me I am. My whole identity is much more solid now than it was when I was at my worst. But at the same time, the anxiety is still there and the groinal response thing has started to come back recently... I try not to do anything compulsive but a lot of my compulsions are mental ones so I find myself doing them before I can even stop myself. Am I just going to be stuck with the anxiety & the physical manifestations forever?? Because even now, after I have learned about OCD, and after things started to get better, I am still experiencing it. I'm terrified to get a diagnosis too, in case they tell me it's not OCD or in case there's nothing they can do to help me :/ Ach I hate this all so much ?

need help or tips? i've been spiraling because i have confession compulsion and i have this fear that once my boyfriend finds out the themes of my OCD, he'll leave me. he loves me and tells me he'll always be by my side but before i kind of confessed that my mind kind of has his followers memorized because of compulsions i've performed before and he admitted that it slightly turned him off because "damn that's something else" but it wasn't a dealbreaker... can't help but think if he thinks that's something else then he is definitely gonna be turned off after he finds out about my POCD especially now it kind of involved his younger nephew or about Harm OCD or Pure O Really need help to overcome this. I have this urge to confess to him and try to make him understand to get that reassurance from him that even after knowing these he won't leave me but I also don't want to bc not a lot of people will understand or be comfortable about it esp we've only been together for a few months

Is this why people say talk therapy isn’t helpful for people with ocd?? I haven’t been able to get the help I actually need so I’m self diagnosed but I go to talk therapy I’m just obviously unable to talk about my intrusive thoughts because they involve being a p***. My intrusive thoughts haven’t flared up and I’ve actually been feeling good for about two weeks but my therapist knows I’m dealing with intrusive thoughts but I don’t want to open up about them. The only thing I tell him is I’m scared of being a bad person who does awful things and he said something in between the lines of “what if only you think it’s bad but it really isn’t” and that sort of triggered me because he doesn’t get it my thoughts are awful but it’s difficult to even talk about it when I could possibly be reported if he didn’t understand.