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I feel the same way. Being on medication for ocd kind of makes my remination worse. Since it lowers anxiety. I don’t get as much anxiety when I think about the thoughts and it scares me. But I get a little anxiety about those words as well!
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Same I feel like I am one and I just feel so depressed since my situation is more of enjoying the thoughts I feel so depressed and just sad it’s like I convinced myself I am a p
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Same here
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Keep doing the exposures and keep accepting the uncertainty behind it. Do the exposures so much so that you get bored of it at a point, and you’ll come to a point where these thoughts don’t even bother you as much. I experienced the same thing, gotta fake it till you make it! Tell the OCD that maybe you are one (trust me Ik how hard that is to say) but keep on doing these exposures and saying these things to the OCD. Soon enough you will see that it doesn’t even affect you as much. My therapist had said that there’s also ERP for feeling guilt. So ask your therapists about that as well as they will know much better than me. Best of luck! Y’all got this❤️
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I feel that way at times. I’ve been pretty good lately. Meaning I haven’t cried or been in distress or suicidal about my thoughts but I wake up with worries about the future and possible triggers/urges. Since I’m relatively calm I try not to question it and just go on with my day. One day at a time. I do believe I am depressed tho. I don’t feel it like I did before, for me now it’s a lot of procrastination and just not being motivated. I’m not motivated to even do my erp anymore. I feel like it’s not geared towards what my thoughts are now which is future situations and such, idk.
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Yes! Create a script around it. Say the word “Pedo” in different ways and voices until it becomes less scary for you. Like @Anonymous says “fake it ‘till you make it.” Move forward with your values. Face the thoughts and the words that scare you, and trigger you. You can do the hard things.
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Sometimes I think " do I like kids?" "Would i get aroused if I saw content with kids?""What if I'm a pedo and cant accept it?" "What if I'm ok with these thoughts?" "What if I'm not distressed enough " "What if I enjoy these thoughts?" , i avoid kids as much as i can, i cant look at them bc I'm scared I'm gonna have some groin like response. I keep testing if I'd get turned on or if I'd have some groinal response to sexual scenarios with kids. Sometimes I think that if I took my life this would be over and i wouldn't have to think about this and i wish i doubted something else instead of things like this. I had similar situations just with different topics such as if i loved or found sexually appealing a guy while in a relationship and i kept asking myself those questions for months and i avoided going to school for weeks and when I went I'd cry and have anxiety attacks. I had it with past actions i obessed over and felt the need to exploit every detail and be honest because otherwise i was being a fraud. I had it for sexual things that happened when i was a child. Im not diagnosed with ocd but should i tell this to my local counselor? Can someone help? Give me advice or tell me anything?
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Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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(20f) I have been dealing with severe OCD symptoms for as long as I can remember. I recently got diagnosed about a year ago, and even though I know that these thoughts are probably my ocd, I still cant shake them. Growing up I was always very sexually curious. I was sheltered from a lot of things, as I went to a private school and things like sexuality and sex were never talked about. I remember doing some weird sexual things growing up (never affecting another person), looking up taboo sexual things, etc. I always seemed to become aroused no matter what the situation was, even if I just saw someone getting changed. I have no recollection of being SA'd, so i'm wondering where this all came from? Was I just curious and wanted to experiment and try different things? Or am I really a pervert, pedophile, etc. I have all these thoughts racing through my head and it's killing me. Everything I did as a kid I look back on and am disgusted, as those don't align with my views at all today. I never thought growing up thinking these things were wrong, or actually realize what they were until I got older. I'd like to think it was just my curiosity, but i'm not sure. What if i'm in denial and actually do like these things? I just need to know if theres something wrong w me, I cant keep going on like this. Could really use some advice.
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