I feel like part of me has just accepted I’m a pedo and I hate it. I hate that feeling. And I know I hate that feeling but my brain is trying to say I’m lying and that I actually love it I get anxiety just by seeing the words “pedo” or “pedophilia”. It was the same when I first started having HOCD and transgender OCD. Not searching for reassurance, just making an observation. But God is it hard to not search for reassurance. I feel like an addict and my head is screaming “I NEEEEEED IT!!” Just a question, has anyone ever felt like they’re just choosing what they want to say that they know will give them the answers they want? Cause that happens to me all the time

I feel the same way. Being on medication for ocd kind of makes my remination worse. Since it lowers anxiety. I don’t get as much anxiety when I think about the thoughts and it scares me. But I get a little anxiety about those words as well!

Same I feel like I am one and I just feel so depressed since my situation is more of enjoying the thoughts I feel so depressed and just sad it’s like I convinced myself I am a p

Keep doing the exposures and keep accepting the uncertainty behind it. Do the exposures so much so that you get bored of it at a point, and you’ll come to a point where these thoughts don’t even bother you as much. I experienced the same thing, gotta fake it till you make it! Tell the OCD that maybe you are one (trust me Ik how hard that is to say) but keep on doing these exposures and saying these things to the OCD. Soon enough you will see that it doesn’t even affect you as much. My therapist had said that there’s also ERP for feeling guilt. So ask your therapists about that as well as they will know much better than me. Best of luck! Y’all got this❤️

I feel that way at times. I’ve been pretty good lately. Meaning I haven’t cried or been in distress or suicidal about my thoughts but I wake up with worries about the future and possible triggers/urges. Since I’m relatively calm I try not to question it and just go on with my day. One day at a time. I do believe I am depressed tho. I don’t feel it like I did before, for me now it’s a lot of procrastination and just not being motivated. I’m not motivated to even do my erp anymore. I feel like it’s not geared towards what my thoughts are now which is future situations and such, idk.