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- 6y ago
- Date posted
- 6y ago
It's hell, you can see all the damage you are actually doing to yourself whenever you look in the mirror. People think I'm on meth. I get nauseated sometimes seeing what I just did.
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- 6y ago
I have struggled with trichitillomania for the better part of 15 years now. It’s a constant cycle of 1) uncontrollable urges to pull out my hair, eyebrows, and eyelashes; 2) guilt about it when bald spots appear; 3) resisting just long enough to allow it to grow back; and 4) falling into a pattern of compulsive behavior again. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve tried to “quit” but I haven’t cracked my own personal code yet...
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- 6y ago
I could compare it to a nervous tic, or a habit, but honestly compulsion is the best way to describe it. I just have to do it. I couldn't tell you why. But I have to, so i do.
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- 6y ago
A main compulsion of mine is picking at my fingers. Most of the time it’s when I’m anxious and a repetitive picking motion is a calming and soothing feeling. Then I go too far and they start to bleed then I spend a long time trying ”fix it” by cutting out or picking off the excess skin I tore up...which just makes it worse. It’s v embarrassing because I have just right ocd and everything about my perfectly curated presentation is f’d up with how ugly and scabbed my fingers are. Im a cellist and they get so bad sometimes that I can’t play. I recently remembered in a therapy appt that my mom picked her fingers throughout my childhood and I always hid my picking from her. I have removed sharp nail cutters/tweezers from my house and I’m working on sitting on my hands when I notice I’m anxiously picking at my hands. Hoping for a day soon when I work thru this particular compulsion but I’ve struggled with it my whole life ??♂️
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- 6y ago
Dermatillomania is very similar to trichitillomania except you have the uncontrolable urge to pick off your skin. There are many different reasons as to why people get the compulsion to pick, with me personally, I can't stand when my skin is very dry or when I get scabs from small cuts and bruises. I also hate pimples. I see those things as imperfections on my skin which makes me get the obsession that they need to be removed. If an obsession like this ever makes you feel on edge or anxious, fidget toys and stress balls really help with this kind if problem. It also keeps your hands occupied.
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- 6y ago
That's a little too big a question, because it's like, a lot LOL. Can you narrow it down a little so I don't talk for a thousand years?
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- 6y ago
also, it's tillo, not tilla, but u were close dermatillomania trichitillomania iirc
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- 5y ago
That is exactly what I go through, it has been so bad that I have bled so much. I hate picking my fingers but I like the feeling of tearing off the skin. I don’t know what to do to stop, because it has now been a habit for me to do it to control my bipolar.
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- 25w ago
I don't know if this is ocd related I just know that my ocd feels unbearable when it happens. From time to time I'll get waves of panic attacks that for me will lasts for a week. 3 days if I'm lucky. Recently I went up to 12 days with on and off panic attacks and barely doing or eating anything. This is the longest that this has lasted. I am a overall very anxious person but these make me want to tear my skin off. Does anybody know what this is?? I brought it up to my mom and asked if it was a panic disorder, but she said she doesn't think I have one because she has one and she said that's not what a panic disorder is. I've told her about the waves of panic attacks before and I'm trying to get therapy but right now I feel terrible. Is this a symptom of ocd ?? Does anyone else go through this?? Does anyone KNOW what this is?? Please lmk and if you have anything that could help please tell me :( (I have diagnosed OCD and GAD if that helps any!!)
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- 24w ago
I know this is insane but please, PLEASE hear me out. I just need someone to tell me they relate in some way or something. Does anyone else feel like they have some sort of 'magic' that they accidentally manifested from 'wishing' too hard during a traumatic time and can't feel like you can control it now, which is pretty anxiety inducing since it feels like it would make people be able to feel or see your ocd thoughts? Or use your muscle tensing as part of your ocd? Like if you have an intrusive thought while tensing a muscle, you feel like it's going to come true so you have to 'correct' it by thinking a good thought then tense your muscles again? Because I have both of them. :(
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- 24w ago
im not diagnosed, but these past two days have been terrible. i constantly have this underlying feeling that i might do something that i think is gross and i feel like i can’t do anything on my own because otherwise i might do something wrong. like i feel like i constantly have to be in front of people so that i can make sure of my every action. this is so exhausting and I’m so confused. and like i keep getting terrible images and stuff replaying in my head. i also try to recall what happened but i feel like i have false event too. i used to have religious ocd and that eventually stopped completely, but now it feels like all my work getting over that was pointless. also like i feel like i might have contamination ocd but not the typical germ type. I just get terrible images and I can’t remember if those images are true or not even though they’re impossible and i feel terrible. I don’t know if i could ever get over this because even the thought of it is terrible.
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