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- 6y ago
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- 6y ago
It's hell, you can see all the damage you are actually doing to yourself whenever you look in the mirror. People think I'm on meth. I get nauseated sometimes seeing what I just did.
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- 6y ago
I have struggled with trichitillomania for the better part of 15 years now. It’s a constant cycle of 1) uncontrollable urges to pull out my hair, eyebrows, and eyelashes; 2) guilt about it when bald spots appear; 3) resisting just long enough to allow it to grow back; and 4) falling into a pattern of compulsive behavior again. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve tried to “quit” but I haven’t cracked my own personal code yet...
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- 6y ago
I could compare it to a nervous tic, or a habit, but honestly compulsion is the best way to describe it. I just have to do it. I couldn't tell you why. But I have to, so i do.
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- 6y ago
A main compulsion of mine is picking at my fingers. Most of the time it’s when I’m anxious and a repetitive picking motion is a calming and soothing feeling. Then I go too far and they start to bleed then I spend a long time trying ”fix it” by cutting out or picking off the excess skin I tore up...which just makes it worse. It’s v embarrassing because I have just right ocd and everything about my perfectly curated presentation is f’d up with how ugly and scabbed my fingers are. Im a cellist and they get so bad sometimes that I can’t play. I recently remembered in a therapy appt that my mom picked her fingers throughout my childhood and I always hid my picking from her. I have removed sharp nail cutters/tweezers from my house and I’m working on sitting on my hands when I notice I’m anxiously picking at my hands. Hoping for a day soon when I work thru this particular compulsion but I’ve struggled with it my whole life ??♂️
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- 6y ago
Dermatillomania is very similar to trichitillomania except you have the uncontrolable urge to pick off your skin. There are many different reasons as to why people get the compulsion to pick, with me personally, I can't stand when my skin is very dry or when I get scabs from small cuts and bruises. I also hate pimples. I see those things as imperfections on my skin which makes me get the obsession that they need to be removed. If an obsession like this ever makes you feel on edge or anxious, fidget toys and stress balls really help with this kind if problem. It also keeps your hands occupied.
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- 6y ago
That's a little too big a question, because it's like, a lot LOL. Can you narrow it down a little so I don't talk for a thousand years?
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- 6y ago
also, it's tillo, not tilla, but u were close dermatillomania trichitillomania iirc
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- 6y ago
That is exactly what I go through, it has been so bad that I have bled so much. I hate picking my fingers but I like the feeling of tearing off the skin. I don’t know what to do to stop, because it has now been a habit for me to do it to control my bipolar.
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- 21w ago
Hey guys! So I struggle with OCD, especially harm, relationship and moral stuff and I am somewhat recovered now. However, my current girlfriend has started showing signs of OCD but it’s abou5 something I don’t know much about so I wanted to see if anyone on here had thoughts about it. She is constantly thinking about food (when to eat it, what is healthy, what is too much, what is too little) and controls the thoughts by giving in and controlling her entire day around food. She don’t really know the feeling of being full. She never starved herself and always eats, but then she feels extremely guilty afterwards. Her thoughts do have to do a lot with her body image and not gaining weight but also not losing any either. Does this sound like ocd or an eating disorder?
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- 17w ago
Anyone struggle with this with having ocd?
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- 12w ago
Hi everyone, I’m Cayla. I’m a mom that’s lived with OCD since childhood, but my breaking point came more recently after having my son. I was consumed by terrifying thoughts—What if I hurt him? What if I did something awful without realizing it? I was so afraid of my own mind that I couldn’t be alone with him. The shame and exhaustion were unbearable, and I convinced myself I was broken. In 2024, I finally sought help. ERP therapy at NOCD was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, but it saved my life. Even now, I have tough days, but I know I don’t have to be ruled by OCD. When my 12 year old daughter began showing signs of OCD, I felt overwhelmed with guilt. I never wanted her to go through what I had, but I knew what to do. I told her that I have OCD too and made sure she knew it wasn’t her fault—and that she wasn’t alone. One of the hardest parts of this journey was trusting someone else with my daughter’s OCD. I knew how vulnerable it feels to share intrusive thoughts, and I wanted her to feel safe. Her NOCD therapist was able to establish trust and genuine empathy from the start, and that relationship gave her the confidence to face ERP head-on. Seeing her build that trust made me certain she was in the right hands. ERP has helped both of us reclaim our lives, and it is beautiful to see my daughter managing her condition and making visible progress. Parenting with OCD while raising a child with OCD isn’t talked about enough, but I know so many parents are struggling with these same challenges. If you have questions about managing OCD while parenting, helping your child through ERP, or breaking cycles of guilt, drop them below—I’d love to share what I’ve learned. I’ll be answering all of the questions I receive in real-time today 4-5pm ET.
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