- Username
- Anastasia1
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. OCD can be extremely isolating because non OCD people just don’t understand. I was in a similar place as you, hopeless and depressed. I called the suicide hotline several times. I had 4 different therapists in 2 months because none knew how to treat me. Then I came across NOCD and it changed everything for me. To start having this community of people who can relate to you will give you a sense of belonging. You are not crazy and you are not broken. Doing ERP will change your life. The one tip I can give you is to practice ERP even on the days that you do not have a session. I believe in you ❤️
Thank you so much, it really helps knowing that ERP has helped a lot of people with ocd. It feels really good to have a community of people who don’t think I’m crazy or a bad person, and who care. I really really appreciate it, thank you ♥️
Are you in treatment? If not, what’s stopping you?
I’m in therapy, but she doesn’t really know much about OCD. I just got this app and am scheduling a free appointment, but i am scared nothings gonna work.
@Anastasia1 Awesome job scheduling an appointment here! Working with an ocd specialist is key for recovery. Regular therapists just don’t cut it when it comes to ocd. They can be incredibly helpful for other problems, but not addressing obsessions. ERP works for more than 80% of people who do it. You have every reason to believe it will likely help you too.
@pureolife Thank you, god I hope so. I feel like I have some really strange ocd themes. I hope it works
@Anastasia1 They really give you tools you can actually apply to yourself. Even if you relapse, you're never back to square 1 because you know what you have to do to get back on the horse!
That is so hard and I am positive nobody knows your pain and that hurts in itself. You didn’t put those thoughts in your mind so please don’t blame or get mad at yourself for thinking someone or something is going to turn out bad. Your thoughts don’t control or affect anything that goes on around you. All you can do is try your best everyday and if standing up is the best you can do that day then good for you! Always push yourself (as long as you can) and try opening up to your family maybe they can help more then you realize.
Thank you, it really helps talking to people who understand.
What is ERP?
TW// SUICIDE im gonna be really honest. i am not doing good. this is the worst ocd theme i have ever had. it feels SO real to me. i look at my self in the mirror and mourn the happy girl i used to be before december of 2019 when my ocd first hit. the fact that i will never be the same scares me and haunts me more than anyone can understand. everyday gets harder and harder no matter how much progress i make. i cant afford therapy right now but i need it so badly. i am genuinely in so much pain. i feel so guilty, and ashamed, and sad all the time. i cant focus on school work or anything anymore. i have had thoughts about suicide because i just want some relief. it hurts so much. i love my boyfriend beyond belief. it makes me so angry that ocd would attach to and manipulate something so pure and beautiful to me.
I’m suddenly really struggling right now. I’m having suicidal thoughts and I feel like the best option for me is to do it. My family really really loves me but I don’t think I can do it. I wish I felt I could live for them but I feel like that’s selfish of me because what if I’m actually a bad person. I’ve seen people talking on here saying they’ve struggled for more than 20 years and I’ve only been struggling for a few months. And this is absolute torture. I cant imagine living like this for that long. Because that chance of me being a bad person or not being able to live the life I wanted is a chance I feel I can’t take. I know in order to overcome ocd you need to accept the either or. But I don’t feel strong enough. I wish I was different.
It ruins every single day I don't feel like I'm self I have no self worth left I'm a constant mess I'm constantly panicking I can't do this anymore everything triggers me every single day is something new iv been struggling with this for ten years every single day is hell I haven't even eaten in days bearly I spend days obsession and my partner has to help me and it's putting strain on our relationship I can't even express how low I am and how I can't do this anymore I'm constantly having. Seizers from stress I ocd In my sleep it's constant hell everything triggers me I can't do anything without conpoltions I'm constantly in fight or flight and frozen in fear every single day I can't do this anymore
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