No one understands my OCD in my family. No one knows any of my themes and I just need someone to be able to talk to. I just want to cry and be in my dark room forever.

Been there. Am there. It will get better, I promise. Be nice to yourself right now, you’re doing the best you can. Try taking baby steps. If you get out of bed, tell yourself good job. If you make a choice that feels good for you - maybe a short walk or listening to an upbeat song or just putting on pants - good job! I’m sorry your family doesn’t understand. You will find people who get you and you will get through this.

Me too. I can’t talk to people about my condition. So many just don’t understand and completely disregard your feelings.

I know it's hard. My family knows of my rituals kind of, and I do seek reassurance from them. But this was before I knew I shouldn't. Now I feel like I have bombarded my mom with reassurance questions and that's why she is so mean to me. Probably because I'm constantly cleaning circles around her, asking her not to touch things, hellicoptering over her, and just in general stressing out. I know how you feel

I have started contacting support groups. Even if people have different themes it's nice to hear from others and can relate to what they are thinking and feeling.