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I totally understand this because I’ve had experience in abusive situations. I’m not sure if it’a an OCD thing or if everybody thinks like this. As long as you don’t act on your violent thoughts I believe that you aren’t dangerous (I know it’s extremely difficult considering this situation especially), but I do also think the same way in situations like this. I’m not sure if this helps but just know you’re not alone.
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First, I’m sorry that you have to deal with such a situation. People don’t realize how much words hurt and how the way we act and treat each other has a rippling effect. Second, if this situation is stressing you out then your ocd is gonna act up. Evil doesn’t defeat evil, love does and this is the hard because it’s natural for us to want to lash back when we get treated wrong. Only person you can control is yourself so keep bettering yourself and not scooping you his level.
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I literally cannot be in the same room as him without having just. Violent violent violent thoughts about him and it's hard to tell if they're intrusive or if I'm actually homicidal. He had a coughing fist last night in his sleep and I kind of wondered if he was choking to death. I wasn't particularly upset at the thought. I don't know. (He's fine, obv, his throat just gets sore from talking to customers all day.)
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**coughing fit
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Thank ya for the encouragement and support, loves.
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