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I totally understand this because I’ve had experience in abusive situations. I’m not sure if it’a an OCD thing or if everybody thinks like this. As long as you don’t act on your violent thoughts I believe that you aren’t dangerous (I know it’s extremely difficult considering this situation especially), but I do also think the same way in situations like this. I’m not sure if this helps but just know you’re not alone.
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First, I’m sorry that you have to deal with such a situation. People don’t realize how much words hurt and how the way we act and treat each other has a rippling effect. Second, if this situation is stressing you out then your ocd is gonna act up. Evil doesn’t defeat evil, love does and this is the hard because it’s natural for us to want to lash back when we get treated wrong. Only person you can control is yourself so keep bettering yourself and not scooping you his level.
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I literally cannot be in the same room as him without having just. Violent violent violent thoughts about him and it's hard to tell if they're intrusive or if I'm actually homicidal. He had a coughing fist last night in his sleep and I kind of wondered if he was choking to death. I wasn't particularly upset at the thought. I don't know. (He's fine, obv, his throat just gets sore from talking to customers all day.)
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**coughing fit
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Thank ya for the encouragement and support, loves.
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my cat was smelling my other cat's bottom so to get him away i like quick "slapped" with the dorsal of the hand on his face and i got afraid that i did too hard so i compulsively did it again with similar strenght that i used to check if he was hurt and i regret it, like it wasn't a hard slap meant to hurt, but i did that impulsively and maybe i exceeded a bit over the limit in which it doesn't hurt. like he definetely reacted but i don't know if he was hurt, like he reacted in the moment but nothiny else, and he's lovey dovey. i dont think he was hurt but i feel bad. because if i did it once as a mistake i shouldn't have done the same thing again. i feel like an abuser. there are many things that are happening to me and im getting overwhelmed and i dont know how much longer i can hold on. because one thing i can't do is to forgive myself over mistakes.
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I don’t know why but today I feel so incredibly angry right now and I was so frustrated with everything including my two dogs. I didn’t hurt them or hit them or anything but I was particularly annoyed and angry when they were trying to get presumably a bunny or a raccoon from underneath the shed, so I had to pull my small dog away when he wouldn’t budge away from the shed and i couldn’t pick him up because I was not close enough. I feel bad because I know I love my dogs but oh my god I just get so annoyed with them and on top of them everything else I have to just shut down all day and the things I don’t understand. I feel like I’m going insane. I don’t want my dogs to think I don’t love them because i was angry and annoyed at them. I know they’re just animals and they love me and I love them. I want them to know I’m sorry for even getting mad. I wish I didn’t feel so angry and yet so disconnected at the same time. I’m terrified I’m an evil person or that I don’t love my pets or something. I started to hit myself and punch myself because I do that when I get over the edge angry. I don’t know why I feel angry. It’s a mix of anger and emptiness and I don’t want either of them especially towards my dogs.
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- 19w
TW warning: ZOCD, real events, and animal neglect. I feel like if I'm nice to animals or think about having a pet in the future I'm being a hypocrite, one of the things i saw at 10-12 years old because of my porn addiction and exposure were horrible videos involving animals, and i had a kitten at 9 years old, i didn't know the responsibility of having a pet, yet i loved my cat very much and when we couldn't take it to the vet because we didn't have money, it came back with wounds, bleeding, i cried a lot and i regretted so much having been so inconsiderate and dumb to ask for a cat when we didn't have money or the appropiate place to keep it safe. My parents refused to take him to the vet or a shelter, and one day it ran away from home and never came back. I feel like i'll never be able to interact normally or have a pet without being a hypocrite. I'm horrible
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