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You can. In reality OCD a really just a pathetic coward that makes us think it’s a big bad monster. It’s like the wizard of oz once you pull down that veil it won’t have its power on you any longer
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It truly is pathetic and I legit have arguments with it like it's a real person sometimes I feel like I'm going mad but I know I'm just trying to battle with it in my head, I've heard that's one of the worst things to do tho
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You’re worth so much more ! If you need someone to talk to, I’m here
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Thank you, I never usually post things like this I just wanted to get it out there to try and eveliate some of the despair I was feeling.
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- OCD Conqueror
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Admitting it is the first step to overcoming it. You are brave to say something that feels so wrong/scary— it can be a motivator to take your life back, too.
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Thank you, I just need the strength to sit with the anxiety I get from not giving into complusions.
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Your bravery is strong because staying alive takes true courage. Trust me I was in a horrible place my ocd was so bad I could hardly leave my room.. the medication I was taking was reacting very badly... I thought I would be institutionalized... I got help across the country, am off medication, and feel great. I can fight my compulsions, work laugh socialize. The life I have now seemed impossible only 7 months ago. You got this! You have to believe in yourself and trust your survival instincts. Go to therapy journal and practice the simple exercises that seem pointless.... just the act of repetition eventually works!
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Thank you so much for giving me some hope, it really means alot. I haven't started therapy yet but I cant wait, although I'm nervous because I know I will have to do the work and that's the only way to get better. Thank you for sharing about your meditation experience also because I was considering going on some, I've been against taking medication because I dont want to become reliant on it but these past few months I've been at my wits end and I'm sure you and many others here can relate to that feeling. Thank you for your kind words yet again.
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I’m on an SSRI that works well but they had me on a benzo and getting off of it was absolutely heck. Really commit to the therapy even the tedious parts the work is worth it! I’m not going to lie it’s going to be uncomfortable! Something that helped me was a simple mantra which was “this feeling is going to pass...no feeling is final” then when I got through one time resisting a compulsion I just kept reminding myself that the feeling would need just like last time
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Thank you for the advice it's really helpful, I know I'm going to need to be very strong willed and I'm honestly terrified because OCD has quite a strong grip on me right now but I'm hope once I get through the worst of it I can get my life and identity back again.
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This is really ruining me and I’m at the lowest point of this. I’m not suicidal or anything and I’m not depressed but I can’t bear with this anymore. POCD is the worst ocd I’ve ever dealt with and I’m too scared to tell a therapist about this. What do I do
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I hate the way ocd has completely messed up my brain, I struggle to tell the difference between an intrusive though and a regular one, I have really bad issues with morality and I feel as if my brain can no longer tell what is and isn't right and I can't tell if I'm over reacting about situations and I end up feeling stuck in a loop of wondering if I'm a bad person and trying to look at a situation rationally and not knowing if that's even possible with the state of my mind, I feel like none of my thoughts are actually mine. I hate it and I wish I could feel in control of my thoughts even for just a day, just to know what it's like. I've had ocd symptoms since I was about 9-10 so i feel like I've never really know a life without it. I just wish I could live out my teenage years like anyone else my age. I can hardly engage with my hobbies and passions and I don't know what to do about it. I can't go to therapy or get medication because I'm not even diagnosed, I just feel trapped. I'm only a teenager, like I said, I don't want to live my entire life like this.
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(Long post warning) Hi, I’ve been struggling with severe OCD for six years now. it started in 2019 with my theme being getting sick/emetophobia. it devastated my life. I almost didn’t graduate high school from it. I remember washing my hands for three hours one day until they were nearly bloody while crying and asking why I could not stop doing it. I remember id have to write and rewrite sentences when I did my English homework and that’s why I nearly failed that class. I remember how I would spend up to thirty minutes to an hour pacing the halls of my apartment while my mom was asleep until I neutralized the thoughts about throwing up and I could finally go to bed. I don’t know when it happened, but my theme switched. Sometimes in late 2020 or early 2021, it switched to POCD. It started with a single thought, and I focused on it and it’s been my theme since then for four years. It has been absolutely destroying me. I feel so disgusted and lost and just tired. My compulsions are severe now. I thought they were bad before, but now they’re ten times worse. I can’t eat, drink, change my clothes, walk, or even do things on my phone normally. I’ve developed so many mental compulsions that it’s so intricate and complicated yet at the same time I’ve done them so much that they’ve become normal. An example I have is if im putting on a shirt and I have a “bad” thought, I have to take it off and put it back on two more times (that’ll make it 3 times I put the shirt back on - odd numbers are my safe number). I have to have a good thought on the third time otherwise I have to take it off and put it on two more times to make it five times I put on that shirt. If not that then I just put on a different shirt because the original is now tainted with my bad thought. I can’t open apps on my phone. It’s with the numbers again. If I open TikTok once while having a bad thought - I have to close it and open it two more times and so on. Sometimes I do it up to 30 times. So I just don’t do things usually. I don’t turn on the TV because I know I’ll redo it. I don’t open a book or grab it off my shelf because I’ll have to repeat the action. I can’t even lay in bed without getting up and redoing it even if im exhausted. I just feel so helpless. I don’t know what to do. I feel disgusting and even now my minds screaming at me that I am dirty and what I think is true. I just wish I was free of this, I wish I could just live my life. I’ve wasted hours and days because of my compulsions. I mask it so well around my friends. I don’t do them in front of anyone or I’ve learned to hide it well. But when im back home alone, it goes haywire. I just want to live again.
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