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- 4y ago
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- 4y ago
Ugh, I’m so sorry. I deal with HOCD but I dealt with TOCD or GOCD also. It was debilitating. Mine came along with a bunch of urges, and the best I can say is the same advice we have for all themes. Sit with the anxiety and the uncertainty no matter how real and uncomfortable it feels. Anything else, trying to prove or disprove it will only feed the OCD and make it worse. Accepting the presence of the thoughts is not the same as accepting the content of the thoughts
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- 4y ago
I just feel like I don't even know who I am anymore, I never questioned mu gender before and it feels like I'm losing myself its so scary
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- 4y ago
It will feel like this for a while, but remember that you're still the same person that you were before :) if you're in therapy, be sure to tell them that you're suffering with a new subtype trying to squeeze itself in. I think a lot of us who have suffered with HOCD also have bouts of trans OCD. It is just another illusion to make you question it. Keep practicing ERP and sit with the uncertainty!
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- 4y ago
Thank you! I'll tell my therapist about it
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- 4y ago
Its the same process! ERP, sitting with the anxiety, and doing your best to accept uncertainty.
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- 4y ago
Thank you so much for the support, I was starting to forget I'm not alone kn this
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- 14w ago
Lately my OCD has been very horrible, it’s been more convincing than ever to the point where I’m genuinely convinced that I like this stuff, when I get a thought, I’ll hear my intrusive thoughts go “oooh, I like that, I’d do that.” and I just don’t freak out nor feel bad, I just feel like I like it even more, and feel like I would do/act on it and like it, and the feeling is strong and it lingers forever? It genuinely feels like I do, and I’m just lying now, i can’t tell if I make these thoughts worse or anything All I remember mostly just being like confused sometimes when these thoughts happen, but since I’m getting strong emotions that I like it, my brain says that means I did and I’m worried about that being true because I don’t understand nor know It’s like I am resisting to like this stuff now, it’s even tougher now than it was before
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- 9w ago
This is so extremely difficult, i’ve never experienced having thoughts of being a different gender. i’ve always been comfortable being a girl. i’ve always been a girly girl. this all started a couple months ago and it’s increasingly getting worse. i’ve had times where i didn’t like my body but i always thought i could just go to the gym and fix it, never did i think i wanted to be a man. ever since these thoughts started i hate looking at myself in the mirror, i hate looking at my body, i’m aware of my breasts all day everyday, i can’t look at pictures/ videos of myself. from the moment i wake up to the second i go to sleep i have these thoughts. i’m in a panic EVERYDAY. i don’t want to be trans but my thoughts are convincing me i do. i’ve never bat an eye when someone calls me a girl but now it’s like i’m aware of it which i hate. i hate that i’m having these thoughts & it’s convincing me that i want them & that i have to just come out and change. i want to be able to go back to being comfortable as a girl. this has left me feeling so hopeless and depressed, i can’t help but cry every day. has anyone else felt like their whole world was turned upside down?
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- 8w ago
Idk if this post is even worth it but it seemed like a normal day for me, called off work due to the weather so I get to just stay home and play games all day. Easy day besides dealing with the constant and unbearable battle with my intrusive thoughts/feelings. Took a shower and I just had constant thoughts, (heart palpitations are pretty constant) ended up breaking down and bawling my eyes out. I was diagnosed with HOCD and ROCD about 2 months ago and since it's just gotten worse. It feels as real as it can get and after talking to my girlfriend about the anxiety attack, it feels even more real. I have no desire or enjoyment from what comes from my brain, and at this point I'm on my knees begging the big man upstairs for my old life back, how do I go from being obsessed with women (sexually and emotionally) to pretty much doing a 180 overnight (with the obvious anxiety and worry behind it. No real desire obviously). I'm just at a loss, I've done a little ERP and it seemed to help with the brain fog but besides that, everything that it does to someone, I have. And again there's the doubt I even have OCD and I'm in straight denial. It just sucks.
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