Do you guys think this is ROCD or am in denial(I prey not). I've been in a relationship with my girlfriend for almost 8 months now and I assume I fell out if the honeymoon faze a long time ago. I get worried because sometimes i feel annoyed with her and don't feel like I love her and then other times I just want to love all up on here, cuddle with her, and give her affection. I'm just scared because it just seems like most of the time It doesn't feel like I am attracted to her or that I love her. I want to fight and keep pushing because I know love is a choice but I don't know if i'm just in denial or not. I just really want to feel the way I used to about her or at least like not feel doubtful and feel like almost repulsed by her (in a way ig). I just want to feel for her again please helppppp.

The more you focus on this energy, the more real it will feel. Once you remove that immense pressure, you will see reality. I speak from experience because I clearly remember being in your shoes with ROCD. Every little part of my husband I judged and critiqued as though I had a microscope and he was a specimen. Things felt "off," I felt as though I truly did not love him anymore. It felt particularly real whenever the anxiety subsided. You are never alone in this. A good ERP tool is to profess your love for her even if it feels as though you're in denial. Continue to do things with her and be in the moment. The truth is that love is not a fairytale. Love takes a lot of work and it takes so much time and understanding. It takes a lot of commitment and patience and so many miscommunications/tiffs/off days. Sometimes, you are going to dislike your partner. Sometimes you will be annoyed of them. That is called reality, but OCD makes you fear that it means that you do not love someone. Even if you left her, the question is, would the OCD leave too? More than likely, it would resurface no matter who you were with because it isn't the person you love; rather, it is an obsessive disorder that can consume you. You are so strong and you will get through this :) you're never alone!

Well what also scares me is that like when she cries or anything it seems like i dont care or get annoyed which botheres me a lot..

I struggle with exactly this worry / feeling with my boyfriend. It’s super hard but I try to let my love for him, which I KNOW is there, override my OCD thoughts & worries, although it’s definitely easier said than done.

Do you ruminate on this all day? Does it hit u out the blue all at once and deeply disturb you? Are you focusing on little things she does and it drifting u in to the is this right for me?? Are you doing anything to "check" if the love is there? These are good questions to look at to see if the theme of rocd is affecting you . Talk to a therapist, doesn't have to be a ocd one, it'll help your relationship alot hands down

Whenever she does cry about something and usually it's about my OCD and how I tend to feel about her, i get annoyed and irritated. Right when it starts annoying me or anything like that I start to think "why am I getting so irritated? Shouldn't I be trying to comfort her?"