I feel pretty dumb and emotionless right now. Do not feel like myself. Again, no libido, forced with HOCD, don’t want to go anywhere except stay in bed. I just want my love for women to be back. I just don’t feel the same anymore. I’m looking up stuff and it says that this shit affects relationships with your girlfriend/Significant other and now I’m even more depressed over this shit. It’s like when I genuinely try to think about her, I feel good, then it immediately goes away, she is so beautiful, we want everything together. Why am I in my own hellhole of doom in my head. Seriously, I love this woman deep down, I want to be intimate, so why is that so hard to ask? Why do I have to suffer? I’m almost done with this bs

It’s okay, we all have really hard days. I always used to second guess myself when I was in a relationship and I never knew how to stop it. To be completely honest what helped me was hanging out with that person more. The more I was with them the more it took my mind off things and then more I fell more and more I forgot about what my brain was trying to blab on into my head. You are strong, and you will over come this. The great thing is that this app is a place for people like us to have support and someone to talk too. I’m always here if you want to talk, seriously. You can tell us all your problems and we’ll listen, and by expressing your feelings it will help you understand them more. It’ll get better and once you over come this it’ll be the best thing you have done.

The more I was with them, the more it took my mind off things and then the more I forgot about what my brain was trying to blab on into my head*

naturally your mind will then re look at her with no threat or scared of doubting yourself but just your natural attraction.

*numb

Sounds like you're being really hard on yourself. Just accept how you feel. If it's a libido issue, talk to a therapist and see if you need a doctor.

I’ve tried accepting it, but it keeps coming back and then I’m in the loop all over again.

Challenge the thought and keep plugging at it. Maybe meds will help...

I feel man. It’s fucking hard to get out of bed, what screws with us the most is the guilt and the lie and it being completely related to feeling like we did something wrong or what if we do something or become gay in the future who will it affect who will it disappoint why didn’t I tell her? She’ll be upset....this is what I’ve been going through and it’s a huge opportunity for growth because it is challenging our highest vale’s and picking at our greatest subconscious fears. I bet you never guessed you would be going through this when u know you were just heterossexual? We can relate let’s talk!!!!

Our highest values ***

When you knew ****

Yeah man. Like it’s literally trying to find any way to mess with me. Now my head just feels weird, very cloudy, very convinced. I really hate irrational thinking.

It feels like a god daym curse...imagine me man I was the BIGGEST LADIES MAN IN HIGH SCHOOL...I would value women and the need to have women more than anything else in life...then this shit happens I start going to have sex with girls and start having ED...then that’s when I start doubting am I GAY?! And from then on my friend my life turned upside down ...my attraction to females went to 0.00000% IT WAS THE SCARIEST SHIT EVER. EVER....

My attraction to girls is back to normal. But the stories in my head continue to annoy the fuck out of me...

I’ll tell you what helped me....

When you loose attraction for women stay neutral ...in the sense where you’re not testing yourself to go look at a man and see if your gay but you are starting to accept the fact that you DONT NEED to be attracted to girls

I promise if you actually know your past attraction to girls that won’t actually go away....but challenge yourself with being ok with the fact that you might not be into her...keep the question of being into him nerutial too in the sense where YOU DONT HAVE TO BE ATTRACTED TO HIM (which is the compulsions and the checking) but accept that you don’t HAVE TO BE ATTRACTED TO HER