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It’s okay, we all have really hard days. I always used to second guess myself when I was in a relationship and I never knew how to stop it. To be completely honest what helped me was hanging out with that person more. The more I was with them the more it took my mind off things and then more I fell more and more I forgot about what my brain was trying to blab on into my head. You are strong, and you will over come this. The great thing is that this app is a place for people like us to have support and someone to talk too. I’m always here if you want to talk, seriously. You can tell us all your problems and we’ll listen, and by expressing your feelings it will help you understand them more. It’ll get better and once you over come this it’ll be the best thing you have done.
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The more I was with them, the more it took my mind off things and then the more I forgot about what my brain was trying to blab on into my head*
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naturally your mind will then re look at her with no threat or scared of doubting yourself but just your natural attraction.
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*numb
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Sounds like you're being really hard on yourself. Just accept how you feel. If it's a libido issue, talk to a therapist and see if you need a doctor.
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I’ve tried accepting it, but it keeps coming back and then I’m in the loop all over again.
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Challenge the thought and keep plugging at it. Maybe meds will help...
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I feel man. It’s fucking hard to get out of bed, what screws with us the most is the guilt and the lie and it being completely related to feeling like we did something wrong or what if we do something or become gay in the future who will it affect who will it disappoint why didn’t I tell her? She’ll be upset....this is what I’ve been going through and it’s a huge opportunity for growth because it is challenging our highest vale’s and picking at our greatest subconscious fears. I bet you never guessed you would be going through this when u know you were just heterossexual? We can relate let’s talk!!!!
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Our highest values ***
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When you knew ****
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Yeah man. Like it’s literally trying to find any way to mess with me. Now my head just feels weird, very cloudy, very convinced. I really hate irrational thinking.
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It feels like a god daym curse...imagine me man I was the BIGGEST LADIES MAN IN HIGH SCHOOL...I would value women and the need to have women more than anything else in life...then this shit happens I start going to have sex with girls and start having ED...then that’s when I start doubting am I GAY?! And from then on my friend my life turned upside down ...my attraction to females went to 0.00000% IT WAS THE SCARIEST SHIT EVER. EVER....
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My attraction to girls is back to normal. But the stories in my head continue to annoy the fuck out of me...
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I’ll tell you what helped me....
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When you loose attraction for women stay neutral ...in the sense where you’re not testing yourself to go look at a man and see if your gay but you are starting to accept the fact that you DONT NEED to be attracted to girls
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I promise if you actually know your past attraction to girls that won’t actually go away....but challenge yourself with being ok with the fact that you might not be into her...keep the question of being into him nerutial too in the sense where YOU DONT HAVE TO BE ATTRACTED TO HIM (which is the compulsions and the checking) but accept that you don’t HAVE TO BE ATTRACTED TO HER
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I keep having this weird feeling none stop that it’s most likely not HOCD and most my feelings. Like I’ve suffered none stop distress and unwanted thoughts the past few days. But those thoughts after a bit just feel weird not the kind of discomfort but are just their and stale. When I look at a guy I don’t feel anything but my thoughts sometimes compliment his looks or personality which makes me doubt my sexuality. I’ve never felt this weirded out. Because I’ve always been straight and still believe I am but I’ve never even had an emotional connection to someone of the opposite gender in fact. My view of the female body has been ruined with none stop pornography addictions. I don’t believe I’m gay but I feel like it may just be denial instead of HOCD but all my symptoms are literally HOCD. I don’t hate the idea of gay people but I can’t imagine or see my heart going off to like someone of the same sex. I haven’t really had any meaningful real life friends besides online but that also ended a few months ago. My only friend ever online that was my friend for the longest of time was a queer but I never really cared about what he liked. Like yes at some point I did try to challenge him with his own feelings but that didn’t last long I just accepted what he liked and moved on. I’ve never even touched let alone held a long conversation with a female. I’ve always been timid and shy around them but I can just say that towards male as well. The gay feelings feel so real. The thoughts feel a bit natural to me but I don’t want this. But I hate how I can’t just move on and be myself and love women when those thoughts demand attention and an answer. It won’t quit it. If I try to do a compulsion it calms down but it quickly becomes a problem again. I’m lonely I don’t have any friends or past relationships I can even think of helping me with the emotions. I still believe I’m straight and I just can’t see myself with a guy. It just doesn’t feel right for me despite my lack of experiences. I just wanna go back to how I was happy and loving girls and not having to question if it was a real feeling or just my natural timid nature. Everytime I think these distressing thoughts I always just wanna sit down and close my eyes and sleep. Because that’s where I can have peace of self. It sucks but I’m so exhausted of having to deal with emotional distress and I can’t even focus on my job as much. I want to meet new people discover my love for women again but I’m scared in the process I may discover I may be gay. Because deep down I know I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself if my greatest fears where confirmed. My dream of always being a father with a loving women and kids would be torn away by something I never asked for. Yes I’m religious, yes I come from a place that homosexuals are usually seen in a bad light. I just hate feeling this emotion that I may not be what I thought and having my dreams torn apart maybe true. I’ve read MUTIPLE articles about HOCD and seen MUTIPLE videos. I’ve come to the realization that I most likely have it. But it’s still hard when the feelings of maybe being gay maybe true you know? I hope I get better I hope I don’t suffer. I just wanna be happy with myself and loving females and I don’t wanna hate myself for feeling an emotion that never occurred to me more then a few times.
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I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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