- Username
- Myke G
- Date posted
- 5y ago
That's quite the pickle actually. You need to challenge the feeiling of guilt. Think of it this way, if you do it out of guilt then it kinda defeats the purpose. I aggre with Axolotl (fantastic username btw).
For me, when I feel that sense of anxious urgency, it’s a sure sign that OCD is involved...and I should probably stop or fight the compulsion. That said, it sounds like there’s also a personal relationship w your mom that’s complicating things, so I get why you’re feeling torn. If I were you, I’d take a deep breath and try to center myself. Ask: What do I want to do - and what do I feel compelled to do? Try to push back against the compulsion if that’s possible for you right now (not sure whether your mom understands the OCD situation). Whatever you decide, the fact that you’re so self-aware of your OCD tendencies is a really good thing!
Thanks so much for your responses and especially your advice axo...getting other people’s perspectives def helps.
God wouldn’t want you to go out of guilt or compulsion but only out of love and freedom. So choose what you freely want to do with no coercion from anyone else. If your love for God and/or tradition pulls you to Ash Wednesday, great! Go! But if it’s based on fear, why give way to that? God understands you have OCD and if you don’t go bc you don’t want to perform what feels like a compulsion, I think God will respect that 100%. But if you don’t go and then just feel that emptiness in your heart like you are missing out on community and connection and a special time with God, well then you’ll know to not skip out on the next opportunity. Sorry this is long input, but I’ve been there 1000s of time and this is how I finally found spiritual peace about religious compulsions.
Katla this is very helpful also, thanks so much for responding!
^ MikeG, you’re very welcome! Thanks for the feedback.
I’ve had the same thing happen to me with Ash Wednesday.
hi guys it’s been awhile since i’ve been on here but right now i’m starting to get really scared i’m scared to go to hell because i swear, have intrusive thoughts and compulsions (obviously) and i look at and do s*xually immoral acts i am a catholic person and i’ve always stood by the notion that if i act with good intentions then there is no issue, but my mum was talking about her fear of going to hell (her ocd subtypes are about this) and now i feel guilty when i sin, even tho i only want peace in the world i go to reddit and look at some answers for this stuff (i have a really bad compulsion of searching questions on google for hours) and they mostly say i will go to hell if i sin i also get really depressed then question god’s existence and then wonder why i should be alive and stuff and then i’m guilty later i really don’t want this to become a major subtype. i have health ocd but it’s calmed down since i’ve been diagnosed with a health condition (for some reason??) can someone, christian or not, please respond with their experience with this subtype or anyone with advice at all?
Does anyone struggle with opening up to God because of their OCD? My mom is a born again Christian and I recently started to go to her church with her. I was raised Catholic, but I was never really a practicing Catholic. Recently I have been so down in life and I feel like the only way out of this is through God. My mom said to me today that I have tried different treatments for many years and none have worked, but I still haven’t given God a real chance. I just feel fake if I’m going to God because of my problems. I think I’m afraid that if I open to God and don’t get better I will spiral even worse. I think my mind definitely can go down a path of magical thinking and I don’t want to think God is the answer and will solve all of my problems because I know that’s not realistic either. I just want to get better, but feel very conflicted. I have these fears because I have suffered from magical thinking for a long time. Sometimes it’s not so present in my life and sometimes it is very. It’s hard for me to tell when I’m not doing it and sometimes I’m aware if I am or not. For example I have been obsessing over a certain number lately. It’s been driving me insane. I’m afraid that God will think I’m not good enough to be helped.
I have to go to church tomorrow and I just feel so embarrassed to even step foot in there. My OCD is really based off of religion, and when I walk into a church or see a religious word or name I freak out. I feel like ik disrespecting God because of these thoughts I'm having. Any tips on how to cope with this?
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