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That's quite the pickle actually. You need to challenge the feeiling of guilt. Think of it this way, if you do it out of guilt then it kinda defeats the purpose. I aggre with Axolotl (fantastic username btw).
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For me, when I feel that sense of anxious urgency, it’s a sure sign that OCD is involved...and I should probably stop or fight the compulsion. That said, it sounds like there’s also a personal relationship w your mom that’s complicating things, so I get why you’re feeling torn. If I were you, I’d take a deep breath and try to center myself. Ask: What do I want to do - and what do I feel compelled to do? Try to push back against the compulsion if that’s possible for you right now (not sure whether your mom understands the OCD situation). Whatever you decide, the fact that you’re so self-aware of your OCD tendencies is a really good thing!
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Thanks so much for your responses and especially your advice axo...getting other people’s perspectives def helps.
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God wouldn’t want you to go out of guilt or compulsion but only out of love and freedom. So choose what you freely want to do with no coercion from anyone else. If your love for God and/or tradition pulls you to Ash Wednesday, great! Go! But if it’s based on fear, why give way to that? God understands you have OCD and if you don’t go bc you don’t want to perform what feels like a compulsion, I think God will respect that 100%. But if you don’t go and then just feel that emptiness in your heart like you are missing out on community and connection and a special time with God, well then you’ll know to not skip out on the next opportunity. Sorry this is long input, but I’ve been there 1000s of time and this is how I finally found spiritual peace about religious compulsions.
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Katla this is very helpful also, thanks so much for responding!
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^ MikeG, you’re very welcome! Thanks for the feedback.
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I’ve had the same thing happen to me with Ash Wednesday.
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Please give me positive motivation to go to church for Easter. I might ask my mother if I can get baptized again. I just feel like I need to for some reason I mean it’s probably my ocd saying “you better get baptized or you remain like this forever” etc but I wanna feel like I changed if I have had any secular thoughts. I’m thinking about going back to the church I grew up with. It would make me feel so much better if I got baptized. I’m Christian by the way.
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I've been doing more research on the ins and outs of Catholicism, and man are the guidelines very strict. They're not bad in any sense, and following them makes for a good person, but with ocd these guidelines seem near impossible to properly follow. For example, it's a mortal sin to have an impure thought, and commiting a mortal sin puts you in a state of sin. This means you cannot receive the eucharist (body of Christ) at mass, which is a way to connect closer to God. You have to confess in order to be free from mortal sin. This is fine and all, but this means in my case I'd have to confess almost every week, which can be so tiring. I'm not trying to bash on my own religion, but these guidelines make it so incredibly difficult for me to feel good about myself. Knowing I'm committing one of the worst forms of sin everyday. Intrusive thoughts are a constant thing, does that make me a child of sin? I even skipped mass today because I feel guilty about being in mortal sin, but skipping mass is also a mortal sin! I feel absolutely terrible about myself right now, and feel as if my connection with God has been cut and it's entirely my fault...
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I put a trigger warning because I will be discussing themes of end of times. I feel like I'm not following God's will. God knows ultimately that things were going to speed up end of times wise. A few months ago, I had a random thought to call someone I had affected with past sin and apologize to him although I did not know he was there, my sin affected him. I know he deserves an apology, but I chalked it up to ocd and treated it as such for months fast forward to now I feel like I'm completely against God. Horrifying. It's a complex situation I caused and therefore though I know he deserves an apology I'm really scared as I created a mess of things. I've been praying that God help certain things come to fruition so I could be exposed and help minister to others if that's what He's calling me to do but no answer. Instead horrible images and thoughts and feelings of doom. I see signs to apologize everywhere. I'm at my wits end. Because I tend to get ahead of myself I asked two family members and they said don't and then I see things that say Though people in your life mean well, don't go based on what they say only what God says. I tell God to do His will and I'll follow, do you think He'll listen. I even told Him I straight up don't want to do it, not because He doesn't deserve one, but because last time I apologized to someone else I didn't do it right and it was messy. I feel so evil, like a wolf in sheep's clothing. I also remember looking up morbid things for what???? Only to be disturbed pray about it and leave by why search it up again? I also fantasized alot about guys I've been single forever, late 20s now, I'm trying to go to church and my crush is there and I try to stop thinking about him because I know it's delusional but the thoughts don't leave. I'm so tired I want to stop but stop what? Living? I want to stick to God as close as possible. I'm going crazy.
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