my ocd is got worse again and school starts in 2 days which is gonna make things difficult for me. i am just so fucking frustrated and tired. i tried to resist the urge to go on this app bc i feel like it’s reassurance but i just have to rant. i have been fighting for so long and i feel like this is never going to end. i’ve been rly trying. earlier this month i thought i was getting better but it just went to shit again. i feel so guilty and disgusted w my ocd obsession like why did it have to be those type of intrusive thoughts. like why me. ocd is literally the worst and sometimes i just feel hopeless.

Hey I know that this time is really hard right now. I have that same hopeless feeling. But please know that there are people who care about you and want to help you get better. Whether it’s a stranger on the internet, or a family member in real life. There are people who care about you. Are you on medicine or in communication with a therapist? I have harm ocd (and have dealt with pocd themes) and I value my family and society more than anything in the world. I understand that awful feeling. Know you aren’t alone. Know you are resilient

Same boat

I’ve felt this way a lot too. But if you stop ruminating and stop paying attention to the thoughts and stop trying to figure things out, it will get easier. You need to commit to doing that. Just because you have a thought doesn’t mean it’s true. I would keep calling around for therapists and make them aware it’s pretty urgent. I would also see your primary care doctor if you can’t get it with a psychiatrist right away and get on meds.