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- 3y ago
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So no one
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Did i find them pleasurable? I don't know??
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- 3y ago
Another theme as well, but yeah. It makes me think I really want to act on the sexual thoughts.
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- 17w ago
Every time I go to bed late and Iām falling asleep, I suddenly get an intrusive thought of a childās face and my groinal area always responds to it. Itās such an uncomfortable experience. I am way too tired to try and freak out so I end up falling asleep. The next morning Iām always trying to figure out whether I had the groinal response first or after the thought. I start giving OCD power but it feels like If I let it go, then Iām in denial or whatever. I donāt want to ever do anything sexual with a child. I donāt even feel comfortable talking platonically with people who are 17, much less a child. My therapist says that I have a deep rooted fear that Iām this horrible person and that OCD loves to feed off of it. When you get a groinal response, it makes the thought that much more real. I never want these things to happen. I want to only be into adults. Itās so discomforting and stressful. Especially since Iām hyper checking how anxious I am, and if I find I didnāt really have much anxiety, then Iām like āwell if I didnāt have anxiety, what does this mean?ā And more questions occur til I end up in a rabbit hole
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- 17w ago
Iām sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you canāt relate and donāt think youāll say anything helpful or kind pls donāt comment anything⦠Iāve been struggling with somethings thatās making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like Iām enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I havenāt done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that itās just wrong this doesnāt make sense to me because Iāve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and Iāve been known that these things are wrong so Iām just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldnāt act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time Iām genuinely convinced that Iām a horrible and itās even got into the point where I donāt wanna be here anymore and I donāt even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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- 7w ago
Does anyone else when they have the thoughts, they feel against it, but they still get arousal or tenglings sensations in the groinal area? Because this is what I experienced today and I feel like crap. This is going to be very triggering for a lot of you, but there are a lot of times that I notice things from kids. For example, there is a thirteen year old kid who looks very developed for her age, and I take notice of (and this already sounds creepy to me) her chest. Today with my thoughts, I imagined as if I were touching it, and although I usually "no no or "I don't want to do that", she is a kid, etc., I still get responses in my groinal area, and It felt very real. Even now, I feel as though I am faking it, even though I groan š®āšØ from it, and feel as though I am a fraud. Does anyone relate?
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