I have ROCD because of my HOCD. Some times my ROCD is louder but it always links back to the fear of I fear that or think that than I am gay/lesbian. Like I have huge fears when I think about marrying my bf or saying I’m his wife it feels wrong like there is huuuge doubt there. It TERRIFIES me, I know I used to be so head over heals and knew I wanted to marry him in the beginning when my ocd subsided for a bit but it came back as strong as ever and that’s what made me seek therapy through nocd! I’m still working on recovery but my rocd and hocd will like the spit back and go off one another.
I have a boyfriend and I am feeler with so much guilt and shame as well